EroticReverie

I couldn’t speak as I scrambled to pull up my dress, my brother like lightning pulling his pants back on. 

“It’s not what it looks like!” he said holding his hand up as he shimmied his pants around his waist and then buttoned them. I cringed as he said it. That’s what everyone says when they’ve been caught doing something. But it’s always, exactly…what it looks like. 

“No..fucking…way” Trevor said again, him at a loss for words just as much as I was, I didn’t know what to say. I stood up, reaching behind myself, trying to pull up the zipper of my dress. 

“Dude..it’s not..what you think..” my brother said as Trevor just stood there slack jawed looking back and forth at the both of us, his eyes couldn’t have been any wider.

“Holy shit..” he said shaking his head. “What the fuck….you….” he seemed to struggle to speak. “You fuck your sister man?!” He said loudly.

“Keep your voice down” my brother said to him. 

I kept quiet as we all stood there in silence, as Trevor seemed to choke on words, trying to figure out what to say next 

“Don’t fucking say anything,,,to ANYONE” my brother said looking at Trevor.

I knew Trevor had been his best friend forever, but I wasn’t sure exactly if their friendship was the kind that would keep the secret of you fucking your own sister. 

“It’s my fault.” I said to Trevor, my brother giving me a look. I wasn’t sure where I was going with it, or if whatever I pulled out of my ass would even be believable, but I couldn’t let both of us look guilty. 

“I had too much to drink…i begged him…” I said. 

Trevor just looked at me and then just tilted his head and looked extremely confused. 

“I mean…aren’t you…gay? “ Trevor asked.

I felt my eyes roll slightly. I couldn’t actually believe, that he seemed to be more perplexed by the idea of a lesbian, fucking a guy, that a girl fucking her brother. 

“Yes” I said. 

“but…” Trevor started. 

“Trevor, please man, just dont tell anyone” my brother was in full panic. 

“Dude…” Trevor said.  “Does Janelle know?” 

My brother shook his head and both of us looked at him as if he were crazy.

“No…just you,,..” my brother said. 

And Stacy, I thought to myself. Sorta.

Trevor didn’t seem to care for an excuse as to why I had begged my brother to fuck me, so I didn’t offer anymore lies, and watched him walk over and sit down in one of the chairs , just staring at the ground shaking his head.

“How long have you guys been…” Trevor made a face. “…fucking?” 

As I started to open my mouth to tell a lie…my brother replied with “Awhile” 

My heart pounded, why, why would he tell him that, why not just lie and say this is the first and last time. 

“holy…shit” Trevor said, shaking his head. 

“And she didn’t beg me….I begged her….it’s my fault” he said, and I looked at him shaking my head. 

Trevor shook his head some more and then started to laugh. Me and my brother looked at one another, unsure of what kind of laughter it was. 

“Your own sister..” he laughed some more. “That’s some crazy shit…”

“You guys know that’s some fucked up shit right?” he laughed still shaking his head. 

“We know” my brother said. 

“Leave it up to you man…” Trevor looked up at him. “Always pulling all the girls…any girl your want…even your own sister..” he laughed and shook his head. “It’s sick man….but shit….im impressed” Trevor said. 

I looked around the cabana , as if there would be some flashing “this is a joke” sign when he called himself impressed.

“..what” I said quietly in disbelief and looked to my brother who looked to me then back to Trevor.

“You can’t say anything..to anyone…tonight was the last time…we knew we needed to stop…this just shows us, we definitely need to now…nobody else can find out” my brother said, I felt my heart sink wondering if he meant it. 

Trevor stood up and walked over to my brother and put his hand on his shoulder.  “I’m not tellin anyone man…i got you..” he said, and I heard a giant sigh of relief from my brother, and myself. 

“Nobody Trevor, you cant tell anyone” I said, just to make sure he knew there were no exceptions to his silence.

He looked to me and nodded, but then gave me a look up and down. I knew what the look was. It was as if I could read his mind, and I knew he must have been thinking how easy it should be for him, if I let my own brother do it to me. 

“thanks man…” my brother said patting his shoulder with another sigh of relief. 

Trevor laughed again and clapped his hands once and rubbed them together. 

“So fucking crazy man!” he laughed and shook his head again. “I’ll leave you two back to it..” he said walking towards the entrance of the cabana, pulling the drape back.

“No, were not …gonna” my brother said as Trevor waved his hand and looked back at us and rolled his eyes as if he didnt believe we werent going to go right back it. He put his finger to his mouth. 

“Secrets safe with me” he said and then winked to me, and it made me shiver. 

Both me and my brother stood still , silent as Trevor closed the drape and left us alone in the tent. 

I started to cry, I felt the tears well up in my eyes. We’d been caught now, it was our own fucking faults. We’d been risking it left and right for the thrill , and now we’d actually been caught. We were fucking ask for it. I began to cry audibly. Wondering if Trevor would really keep our secret, or if he’d run out and tell everyone what he just saw, or if it would slip out on accident, I didn’t know, and I was terrified.

My brother quickly came to me and held me in his arms, holding my head as I started to sob into his chest.

“It’s all my fault…everything is my fault…”he said. “I’m so sorry”

I cried harder, because I felt as though it was all mine. “No it’s not” I sniffled and cried into his chest and he stroked the back of my head, petting my hair.

“Yes it is, I should’ve never started this.” he said. 

I cried harder now, because I wondered if he regretted everything. Wondered if I was a mistake for him now. 

“We both started it..” I said looking up to him, he grabbed my face and used his thumbs to wipe my tears and looked at me, he looked just as sad as I felt, but he had no tears. 

“He wont tell anyone…” my brother said. “Trevor is my best friend…I have shit on him too…we keep each others secrets…you dont have anything to worry about.” 

I looked at him and shook my head. “You have ‘fucking your family’ secrets on him?” I asked. 

“Well…no….but…other stuff..plenty of stuff…” he said, and I sniffled, curious as to what he had on Trevor that made him so sure that Trevor wouldnt spill our secret. 

“What kind of stuff?” I asked, not to be nosy, but just to feel safer, I needed to know what he had on Trevor. 

My brother shook his head. “I’m really not in the place to tell his secrets, when he just caught us…we dont need any reason for him to out us…if he ever found out somehow i told, even you..” he said. 

I nodded, as he wiped more tears rolling down my cheeks. “I understand” I said. 

He looked at me and frowned.  “Please stop crying..” he said as the tears just rolled one after the other down my face. I sniffled, with short breaths, trying to calm myself. 

“I’ve never liked seeing you cry…” he said and kissed me on my forehead. 

I looked up at him, I wanted him to kiss me. Even after just being caught, I wanted him to put his mouth to mine and kiss me, and I know he knew it, but instead he hugged me back into him and I felt my tears roll again down my face. He didn’t want to kiss me. 

———-

After I got myself together, both of us trying to brush off what had just happened, he looked to me before walking out of the cabana. 

“I think we should just…have fun tonight…” he said.

What did that mean? I looked at him waiting for him to say something else. I kind of just wanted to go home. I didn’t want to be at this party anymore. 

I grabbed his hand.  “are you mad at me? “ I asked. 

“What?” he asked genuinely surprised. “What…no absolutely not…why would I be mad at you?” he asked concerned turning to me. 

I shrugged. “…you didnt kiss me..” I said timidly, sort of ashamed Id even expected him to after we had just been caught. 

“aw, babe..” he said pulling me into him hugging me again, I had felt like I wanted to cry again but didn’t.

“I just don’t think we should risk…anything else tonight…after that…him walking in on us…I’m just ..not ready to sneak kisses again…” he said. and I understood exactly what he meant, but I didnt need him to kiss me to be sneaky, I didnt need it for the rush, I just…needed it. 

I said nothing as he stood back looking at me. “Is that okay?” he asked. 

I nodded silently. 

He sighed. “no it’s not…” he said knowing I wouldn’t tell him the truth. 

“Do you want to go home? “ he said grabbing my hands looking at me with a slight smile, tilting his head to peek at my face as I had my head hanging. “Do you want me to drive us all the way home, just so I can kiss you?” he said making me sound ridiculous. Making me feel as though I was being selfish, and stupid, and then he added. “Cause i will….i’ll do it if that’s what you want” he said, grabbing my chin and lifting my face watching me smile slightly, as I sniffled holding back what were almost tears before he had said that. 

Just do it now. I thought to myself as he looked into my eyes smiling, trying to cheer me up. 

“I’ll do it!” he said with a little laugh. “I’ll take you home and kiss you , and kiss you all over your face..” he teased and tickled under my neck with his finger. I laughed slightly and tilted my head with my ear towards my shoulder. I giggled slightly and backed away and sighed.  He mocked my deep sigh, making me laugh a little more. 

I rolled my eyes. “ I ..GUESS..I can wait till we leave..” I said, and he laughed and pulled me into him, this time, with his hands on my waist, and then sliding them each slightly onto the small of my back as he pulled me in closer.

“I promise when we get home…I’ll kiss you for as long as you want” he whispered. 

Why was he teasing me with hands on me, pulling me into him, looking at me like that. It was crazy how quickly I’d gone from sobbing that we had just gotten caught, to willing to risk it all again. It’s what he did to me. I was addicted. 

“Now, let’s go…before we get ourselves into more trouble.” he said. 

Trouble! Trouble! I yelled internally, please, give me trouble. But I nodded and looked at him as we both stepped out of the cabana, looking back at me, giving me a quick wink and mouthing the words “love you”.