EroticReverie

We're all sitting in the hot tub collecting ourselves in silence.

Trevor breaks the silence.

"Holy shit" he says and then breaks into laughter. We all follow in suit, laughing along with him.

"This is some reallllly fucked up shit" Trevor says and rubs his hand over his laughing face and then shakes his head. 

Stacy nods. "It sure is" she looks between my brother and me and she's still laughing as well. 

"I need to fucking smoke" Trevor says and stands up. "Gonna throw my shorts back on , and head back and grab my cigarettes" he says and my brother stands. 

"I'll go with you" he says putting on his shorts and following Trevor out through the fence. 

I sit in the hot tub looking over at Stacy who is looking at me with a smirk on her face. 

"What?" I laugh somewhat nervously.

She shrugs. "It just must be nice" she says.

I raise my brow. "What is?" I slip across the hot tub and sit beside her. 

She turns to me with her chin to her shoulder, she gives a little glare. 

"To have three people in love with you" she says. 

I wrinkle my nose. "Three?"

She rolls my eyes. "Don't play stupid, it isn't cute" she says and then gives a small splash with a flick of her finger in the water. 

I do the math. I know my brother loves me. She loves me. That only leaves Trevor.

"you think TREVOR is in love with me?" I throw back my head and laugh and then shake my head looking back at her but she's not laughing.

"Stacy, Trevor might have a crush....but Trevor wants anything with a pussy and a heartbeat" I say with a little laugh.

She shakes her head. "You're wrong. You KNOW he's had it bad for you for years, a lot of the guys your brother hangs out with have." 

"Having it bad isn't being in love" I counter.

"Quit being so naive." she says. 

"I'm not" I say defensively. 

"You have your brother, and me, and now...you also have Trevor" she says. 

I shake my head. "I don't want Trevor"

She shrugs. "but you just had him....you always get what you want...and we all give it to you...eventually anyways"

I sigh and can tell by her tone this is her being snarky, and ready to pick a fight. Seriously? I think to myself, after THAT, you're going to fight with me now? I shared my brother with you! I scream inside of my head.

"All I'm saying is....the only person any of this is fair to...is you" she says. 

"I didnt make any of you participate in what just happened" I said.

She laughs with a roll of your eyes. "It's called power of the pussy, and yes you did"

I roll my eyes now. "Sooooo, are we going to fight now...is that what this is? You're mad at me?"

She looks at me. "I'm mad that YOU get what YOU want."

I sigh. "Okay...so what do YOU want?" I ask. 

"You're seriously fucking dense... I want YOU" she says. "What I've always fucking wanted. Just you" she says. 

I chew the corner of my lip. "I'm right here...with you"

"I want this" she says reaching over and placing her hand over my heart on my bare chest. "But...by some fucked up twist of fate....it belongs to your brother."

"he's the only one that gets your heart....and you get his...and mine...and Trevors" she says.

"that's not true... I love you...you know that" I say. 

She shrugs and her hands slips away. "I know you do...but not like you love him...i'll never hold as much of it as him" she says and stands up.

"Where are you going?" I say and stand up as she pulls on her clothes. 

"Stacy" I say as she walks toward the gate and I look around for my clothes to throw on as I get out of the hot tub to go after her. 

"I'll call you tomorrow" she yells back. "No worries babe" she says, and  I watch Trevor and my brother through the gate as they're walking back up. Stacy gives them a wave stopping for a moment, and I can see her face as I stand naked in the opening of the gate.  She's smiling and thanking them both for a fun night. 

"Stacy!" I call out, and she smiles over to me and kisses the air at me and winks. I scowl. 

My brother and Trevor watch her continue to walk away and then keep walking towards the fence. Both of their faces seem confused but both of their eyes are scanning my entirely naked body. My brothers hand reaches out and grabs my hip.

"What's wrong?" he asks, swings the gate shut behind him as he pushes me in and Trevor walks to the side of the pool and lights a cigarette with a beer in his hand. 

I sigh and roll my eyes. "Stacy...she just....is making it impossible..she wants me to chose her....she wants it to be just me and her....she knows I love you more than her, and she thinks Trevor is in love with me" I roll my eyes again. "Which is fucking ridiculous...just cause we all just ....hooked up or whatever doesnt mean he's in love wit me" I say and frown.

My brother gives a little laugh and lifts his finger under my chin and raises it for me to meet his eyes. 

"I don't blame her for wanting you all to herself." He says and kisses my lips pulling me into him. My frown fades as my mouth melts to his and I wrap my arms around his neck.

"Also, I don't think Trevor is in love with you either......but...he might be after tonight" he laughs and teases and I push at him. 

He pulls me back in. "Did you enjoy him?" he raises his eyebrow. 

I shrug and he laughs. 

"you know I did." I say and push his chest again and he laughs. 

"Yeah...I know" he grins and leans down and kisses at my neck, and I hold my body to his. 

"I want to take you home, and have you all to myself" he whispers in my ear.

"so let's go" I answer and I feel his lips against my neck. 

"What about Trevor?" he asks.

"What about him? He has a fucking home" I say

At this my brother laughs. "Cold blooded" he says. 

I laugh and push at him. "I am not!"

He laughs and looks around and finds my clothes and hands them to me. 

As I slip them back on he walks over to Trevor, tells him the deal. We all walk back to my brothers car and him and Trevor do some bro handshake.  Apparently Trevor is catching a ride with someone else, or getting an Uber.  Trevor looks at me and smiles.

"I had fun tonight" he licks his lips. I laugh a little and nod. 

"I did too" I say and give him a friendly jab to the arm with my fist. 

"Shit" my brother says patting his pockets. "My phone...i think it's in that game groom" he says. "Be right back" he quickly jogs off towards the house leaving Trevor to stand with me before I can offer to go with him..

"I still can't believe what happened" Trevor grins and puts his hand on the hood of the car and boxes me in. He licks his lips and eyes me up and down. 

I laugh. "Yeah...pretty crazy" 

He ducks down and pushes his lips to mine forcefully. I mumble his name against his mouth in surprise as I push him off and he forces himself up against me as he grabs my faces and forces my mouth to his. I slap his arms and he releases me. 

"Trevor!" I exclaim and wipe my mouth with the back of my hand. "What the hell!" I say.

"The way you fucked me....nobody has ever fucked my dick like that....you were into it...i know you were" he says. 

"Uhh...yea...of course I was...I enjoy sex" I say. He shakes his head.

"That was more than sex" he says pushing against me and I can feel his dick hard against me. 

"Trevor stop...don't be a douche" I push at him.

His mouth is at my ear and his hands on my tits as he pushes me hard against the car.

"Don't be a fucking tease then" he groans. 

"Trevor I'm fucking serious" I say and panic and look out for my brother. 

"You make me so hard" he groans.

"That's great. But I don't care" I push him off and pull at the door handle of the car but it's locked and my brother has the keys.

"fine, kiss me and I'll go away" Trevor says.

I scoff. "No, I don't have to do anything, you're being a fucking dick" 

"Prove to me that you didn't feel what I did in that fucking hot tub" he says. "And i'll leave"

"I'm proving it to you by NOT kissing you , you dumbass" I say. "I don't like you like that Trevor, we were just having fun."

He looks at me like he needs more convincing. I'm so frustrated. Because I WISH I could have feelings for Trevor, or anyone else besides my brother. But, I can't nothing compares to what I have with him. 

"Trevor" my voice cracks. "I love him....and I wish I didn't love him the way I do....but I will never feel for anyone what I feel with him...i'm sorry if I was too intense...or mislead you somehow...but what happened back there...was just ....for fun" I say and chew my lip. 

"but I" he steps forward and I hold out my hand.

"Stop" I say. "Don't" 

"I felt more than that" he says. 

I shake my head. "No Trevor."

"you can't tell me what it felt like being inside of you" he says.

I sigh and roll my eyes, because of course Stacy is right, Trevor thinks he's in love or something, or felt some connection, I don't know.

"Trevor..." I say steadying my breath. "You're a great fuck. It felt amazing. It truly did. But I didn't feel anything other than ...two people fucking..."

He throws his head back and sighs. "I've wanted you for years" he looks back at me, as if hes begging me to admit the same. 

I shrug. "I'm sorry?" 

"Do I get to be with you again?" he says.

I bite my lip. "I don't know...I don't.... I don't think so...it's probably not best" I say.

He shakes his head and lowers his forehead to mine. "I have to have you again" he says as if the idea he might not is too painful.

"Trevor.." I say and grab his his face and look at him. But my eyes dart to Stacy who is standing in the yard holding a red cup and drinking while looking at me and talking to someone else. 

I realize how intimate this stance looks and I drop my hand from Trevor's face and she only sends me a cocky smirk and a shake of her head before looking back to the person she's talking to. "I told you so" her smirk says. 

"Trevor, I don't know....I mean....we'll see....tonights been crazy... I just want to go home and rest" I say. As I see my brother walking out the front of the house. Stacy stops him and grabs his wrist as he walks by her. He laughs as she pulls herself into him and cups her hand over his ear leaning to whisper something to him. I watch his hand hover on her lower back as he listens, laughing and nodding his head. He then lowers his face and kisses her cheek and pats her ass and walks back over to me. Trevor backs up and my brother looks between us both.

"Everything ok?" he asks me and looks to Trevor. 

"yeah man" Trevor says and does the bro handshake. "Talk to you tomorrow" he pats my brothers back and walks away. 

My brother raises an eyebrow.

I sigh and shake my head. "We've fucked up...or...well....I have"

My brother laughs and opens the car door for me and I get in. "Why?" he asks as I slide in.

"Just get in" I say and he closes the door, jogs around the car and gets in.

HE starts the car and pulls away, as we drive I tell him about Trevor.

He only laughs and gives a shrug. 

"I mean...I really don't blame him...well I blame him for being a douche about it....but don't blame him for wanting more....or thinking there was more to what it was...he's been dying for a piece of you ever since we became friends" he laughs. 

"It's not funny" I say. He reaches over and grabs my hand. "It's a little funny....other than the fact I'm going to have to kick his ass for trying to take what's mine" he says and lifts my hand and kisses it. I give him a look and he laughs again. 

"In hindsight....we probably shouldn't have told either of them..." he says. "But what's done is done....and what happened back there is done..." he says. "As far as whether any of it happens again, is totally up to you." he says. "Whatever you're comfortable with" he says as we drive and I look over at his face, his fucking perfect profile and that jaw. 

Stacy was right. I'm the one that calls the shots. My brother will do or not do , whatever I want, because he wants me happy. If I told him I wanted to fuck 20 different people while being with him, he'd probably fucking let me. And I hate it. 

"No" I say. 

He looks over. 

"No?" he repeats the word.

"No. It's whatever WE are comfortable with. Stop letting me have whatever I want." I say. 

He gives a little smile.

"Soooo... I shouldn't devour your pussy when we get home?" he asks.

I pull my hand from his. 

'I'm serious!" I say.

"So am I.." he still teases. "Should I not bury my tongue inside you when we get home?"

I sigh angrily and cross my arms. 

"ok, ok" he laughs and reaches back for my hand and I let him grab it, forcing me to uncross my arms. 

"What do YOU want to happen?" I ask, watching his face. 

"Babe...all I want is you" he says. "I've told you this. The other shit is fun, if that's what you want, and sure I'm into it, and it's fucking hot. But...I don't need to fuck another pussy besides the one between your legs......and while it was hot seeing you ride Trevor, also it kinda fucked with me a bit. " he says.

"How?" I asked. "How did it fuck with you?"

He shrugs as he turns the wheel with one hand while driving. 

"You're mine. Seeing anyone have you, whether it's him, Stacy, or anyone else...I get jealous, no matter if I'm turned on at the same time, I always want to rip them off you, and keep you to myself." he says with the cutest smile as he turns to me. 

"So then, what does that mean, what do you want?" I ask.  "Do you WANT us to keep doing that stuff....or do you want it to be just you and me?" I ask. 

He hesitates. 

"Don't come up with another round about , beat around the bush answer." I say.

He turns. "I already gave you my answer before you told Stacy...and you..." he stops. 

I squeeze his hand. "And I fucked her." I say.

"Yea" he says and clears his throat and my eyes start to fill with tears. I'm horrible. 

"I'm sorry" my voice squeaks as I try to hold back crying, I shouldnt be the one crying. 

"Babe" he grips my hand tighter. "It's fine....like I said...as long as I have you...and you're mine...I'm happy...i've never been happier" he says. 

"But you need to be happy too" I start to cry and he pulls over on the side of the road, putting his flashers on and parks the car. He unbuckles his seatbelt and turns to me.

"Listen..." he now holds my other hand. "I'm fucking happy. Making you happy, is what makes me happy." I sniffle.

"but it's not fair to you...I won't sleep with anyone else...I won't...I won't do anything , unless it's something YOU want." I say.

"Don't say it if you don't mean it" he says and the comment hurts my heart, feels like a knife is being stuck in my chest. He sees the hurt look on my face.

"I just mean" he starts.

"Stop" I cry. "Stop babying me. FIGHT WITH ME" I say and look at him and shove his hand off mine. 

"I don't need to fight with you" he says.

"Yes you do!" I say and wipe my tears.

"No I don't." he says and reaches for my face.

"Stop!" I push his hand away. 

"Tell me I fucking hurt you." I say.

"Why? If you already know you did, why would I rub it in?" he says and my heart hurts.

"I'm sorry" I say.

He nods. "I know you are. The situation we're in....it's not...normal...so I'm not going to hold shit like you hooking up with your girlfriend...that you were dating...and cheating on with me...against you" he says and winces at his words realizing he called me a cheater. Which. Is true. But still stings anyways. 

"This is impossible" I say and look at him. 

He shakes his head. "Difficult....but not impossible"

I bite my lip and my eyes look into his and I hate how much I love him more and more. I hate that he cares as much as he does about my feelings, about trying to make something like this work, no matter how wrong it is, because we both fell, like stupid fucking idiots.

"I fucking love you" I whisper. 

He smiles. "Fucking love you too" he leans over. 

"Can I kiss you now? Or are you going to push me away again?" he teases.

"Shut up" I say and pull him by his shirt to me and kiss his mouth. His hands hold my face, his thumbs swiping my cheeks and the tears left on them. Then he pulls back and kisses my cheeks, kisses the tear stains, and then my eye lids and I feel his mouth on my wet lashes. 

"Stop being cute to me, I don't deserve it" I say and he pulls back and I open my eyes, he still holds my face.

"You deserve everything" he says and kisses me again. 

"I don't deserve you" I say chewing my lip and look down. 

"you deserve better" he says.

I scrunch my nose and slap his chest but then clutch his shirt and pull him to me. 

"Shut up" I look in his eyes. "There's nobody better than you"