EroticReverie

*commissoned*

LEXI

When I wake up, I'm still on the floor in front of the fireplace,  I'm covered in a huge fluffy blanket, and smile , closing my eyes and curl up into myself and wiggle beneath the blanket enjoying how comfortable it is and warm. 

After a moment I blink my eyes open because I realize Trevor isn't next to me.

"Trev?" I say rolling onto my back.

"Mason?" I call out. 

Neither answer me so I get up and walk to the rooms. I check Trevors, and then mine. He's not there, but since I'm walking around in a blanket, I drop it on my bed and throw on the clothes I had previously pulled out. A pair of red panties, black leggings, red fuzzy christmas socks, and a red chunky cable knit sweater that hangs loose on me, and is slightly off the shoulder. I brush my hair and throw it up into a messy bun and then start to search the rest of the cabin. 

Checking the kitchen I don't see either of them, and as I start to walk to the hallway connecting to the other cabin I hear muffled voices.

I walk quietly to the back door, and hear them arguing. I chew my lip and lean into the door to listen. 

"You really think it's going to go anywhere? That you can keep screwing her? That mom won't find out? That it wont fuck up our entire family, and relatives if they find out your fucking Lexi?" Trevor growls.

"And you really think your uncle Jeff and aunt Jenny are going to be okay with YOU and her being together?" Mason lets out a bitter laugh.

"They'd sooner accept that, than her married uncle screwing her." Trevor bites back.

I furrow my brows listening to them. They're both right though. Neither of them is wrong. What's happening on this vacation, isn't probable. It's wrong. On so many counts. IT doesn't matter that neither of them are related to me my blood, but it matters that I grew up with both of them in my life. That they ARE my uncle and my cousin. 

"You think I don't want to stop?" Mason sighs. "I tried Trevor"

"Try harder" Trevor responds and I jump when he hits the door with his fist. 

"It's impossible!" Mason yells. "I fucking want her, alright?!" 

"I hate that I want her, that I fucking NEED her...I've wanted her for years" Mason says.

Trevor makes a sound of disgust.

"She wasnt legal YEARS ago" he reminds Mason.

"I know that! And I know it's fucking wrong, to have looked at her that way, one because she was my niece, and two because she was just a teenager." Mason sighs.

"I didn't think it'd ever happen, and then....it fucking did. And...I know it's selfish, and I know it's fucking wrong...but I don't want to stop being with Alexis. I can't stop being with her." he groans.

"I don't want to share her." Trevor says.

"You think I do?" Mason responds.

"So what, you're just going to continue this? Risk you losing your whole family? Everyone disowning HER?" Trevor growls. "You're a fucking asshole."

"She's an adult Trevor, she can make her own decisions, it wouldnt just be on me....it'd be on her too...I'm not forcing her into anything." Mason says.

Trevor scoffs. "Wow....so you care for her, just not enough to let her have a normal life, where her uncle doesnt fuck her and rip her from the rest of her family?" Trevor says. 

"It's up to her." Mason says. "I know what I want. And it's her." he says. I feel my heart flutter.  "If she wants to make it more than what it is these past few days....i'd have to try." he says.

"un fucking believable...what about ME, your SON?" Trevor growls.

"If anyone would understand it....I think it'd be you....you'd be mad...of course....but you'd fucking understand....its Alexis Trevor. You know just as much as I do now...that there's no giving up the chance to fucking...have her." Mason says. I gulp as I listen. I squeeze my eyes shut. 

What am I doing? I feel helpless. I feel awful. All three of us, are fueling an inevitable disaster by keeping this up. It's only been a few days and already it's messy. So messy. 

I turn the knob and open the door. Both of their eyes fly to me. They're each smoking a separate joint. 

Trevor is wearing, jeans, boots, a grey sweater and a winter jacket. 

Mason is wearing the exact same thing and if the situation wasn't so fucked up right now, I'd have let out a laugh at them matching. My two guys. 

"Hey" I say quietly when neither of them say anything. I slide my feet into a pair of male boots, unsure of whose they are and I step out as they step back away from the door. I reach back in grabbing a pack of cigarettes from the ledge by the door and a lighter, and they both furrow their brow at me as I inhale.

"Don't judge...you two are smoking weed." I say giving them a look. 

"You should be wearing a coat" Mason says.

"I'll live" I say and exhale a cloud of smoke, that mixes with my cold breath in the winter air, and it reminds me of when I was little, standing at the bus stop, exhaling in winter, thinking I was cool cause it looked like I was smoking. 

Mason and Trevor both make moves to take off their jackets.

"Keep them on" I say firmly and they both pause. 

"You're cold" Trevor says. 

"And the door is right there...I can step inside at any second..I'm fine" I glare at both of them. 

They both hesitate and shrugs them back on. 

"So..." I say inhaling another drag, looking down at the snow, shuffling my feet, kicking at snow slightly. 

I exhale and look up at them both. 

"I heard some of your conversation." I say. 

Both of them look at me and open their mouths to speak I hold up my hand to stop them. And they both do.

"You're both right. This doesn't work out favorable for any of us. Or for the families if it continues. Whether it continues with one or both of you. The only way it works out, is if we stop it." I say. 

I feel my heart sink when I get the words out. Saying it out loud hurts me and I can tell by their faces, it hurts them too. 

"And I refuse to choose. Even if I were to choose...which...I couldn't....it would ruin the family. No matter which way it went." I say. I inhale again my hand shaking.

"It needs to stop....now" I say. "I cant keep screwing my uncle and my cousin...and I feel bad for aunt Rey.....she doesn't deserve this." I say looking at Mason. 

He sighs. "I know she doesn't Alexis....and the last thing I do is want to hurt her but I can't help what's happening.." his jaw clenches. 

I shake my head. 

"We're going to forget these past few days have happened." I say. 

"What?" Trevor says quietly. 

I look at him and I see him shaking slightly not in anger, just shaking, his eyes filled with...sadness?

"I love you." he grits through his teeth, as if the words will change my mind. 

"I love you too" I say and toss the cigarette, both of them have already abandoned their joints, clipping them.

"I love you both. More than I should." I say and chew my lip. 

"Let's go in...it's cold" I say and turn opening the door the guys following me inside, all of slipping off our boots , the guys take off their jackets.

I walk into the kitchen and sit at one of the stools by the counter, they sit on the opposite side of the counter facing me, but leave a few stools between them. 

I sigh. 

"We all know we can't keep doing this. It doesn't matter how much we want it...or think we need it." I say.

"I do need it." Trevor grits his teeth. "I don't think it....I know it." he says. 

I glance at him. "yes, I know...but...we can't Trev....it's...it just won't work...you know that" I tell him. 

His brows furrow. 

"So what, you're just....done now, is that it? You just...give yourself to me...and then take it back?" he says. 

I bite my lips together and look down. 

I wait a minute and look back up. 

"All three of us know the things that happened.....shouldnt have happened..." I say. 

"I disagree." Mason says. 

"It happened for a reason." Trevor adds. Mason nods. 

I roll my eyes. Now they come together? Now they're agreeable when they want to fight to keep this mess going?

"It happened because we were horny. It happened because we let our morals slip away." I say. 

"Fuck that. You know that's not true." Trevor growls. 

He's right. It happened because I was already in love with my uncle Mason, and didn't realize it until just recently, but was in love with Trevor too. Or was I?  Maybe I just thought I was, and was a maybe reason enough to destroy our families? Not for me it wasnt, no matter how badly I wanted or needed them both. I'd felt with them in the past two days, more than I'd ever felt with Caleb. The desire and passion I had for both of them was so much stronger than anything I'd ever felt towards Caleb. 

"It doesnt matter!" I yell, my voice cracking and I feel my eyes pool with tears. 

"It can't continue!" I push back in the stool and jump down off it. I look at both of them, the tears starting to stream down my face. 

"It's over" I shake my head. "It has to be."

I wipe my cheeks and turn and walk to my room, I get a few feet, hearing Trevors stool hit the floor as he jumps up to come after me, Mason must grab him because I hear him say "Let her go...she's right" he says through gritted teeth and I break into a run to my room, I slam the door, locking it and go to my bed and grab the giant fluffy blanket from the fireplace and wrap myself in it, falling into my bed, and sob. 

I cry because it's over, and fight with my self that it doesn't have to be over, that maybe this secret can last, we can all go undetected, keep doing this, without disrupting the families. I sob harder knowing that it can't, that i'd feel guilty, no matter how happy it'd make me to be able to still touch them, and kiss them both. 

I cry so hard that I feel myself start to get sick, neither of them comes for me and I don't mind. I'm glad. Because all I want is for them to hold me, I need someone to comfort me, and the only comfort I want is theirs. The two people I just forbid from giving it to me. 

I fall asleep whimpering, my pillow and blanket soaked with tears.

--

When I wake up, I can't move to either side and I open my eyes realizing both of them are in my bed. I'm under the covers. Trevor is behind me, snuggled up to me, and Mason is in front of me. His hand over the blanket, holding me. 

He must sense me wake up even though I barely moved, because his eyes open and blink a few times and he smiles slightly.

I feel my heart shatter looking at him. I've always, always been in love with him. As a kid, as a teen, and now. Mason was always my dream. You're supposed to follow your dreams right? Do you do that even when you know your dreams can hurt other people? How come we don't get to be happy, just because it will make others unhappy? 

I look over my shoulder Trevor is asleep and I look back to Mason, and I sigh. 

"I don't know what we're doing" I whisper, not at all mad that they somehow unlocked my door and crawled into my bed with me after I passed out, after I'd stated clearly that we were done. 

"We're driving head on into disaster." Mason whispers. 

I let out a slight laugh. 

"Ha." I say quietly. "That's for sure." I whisper, I lift my arm, lifting the blanket inviting Mason under it with me, and then he pulls me towards him. Trevor lays asleep inches behind me as I willingly move into Mason's arms.

"I know you're right" Mason whispers. "That we have to stop...but...just for this week....let us have what we all want and need....what I've wanted for years,....what Trevor has wanted since you two were kids...let us have just this week....and then....we'll stop...all of us." he says quietly. 

I look down and then back up and search his eyes. 

"I wish it could work." I say. "I wish you weren't my uncle." 

He smiles. 

"And I wish Trevor wasn't my cousin." I say. 

"I know" he says. 

I feel his hand slip onto my thigh over my legging, and then up to my hip under the sweater. He pulls me closer, even tighter to him, my breath hitches. 

"Mason" I whisper as he leans in, but I'm hushed by his warm mouth against mine. I exhale into him and kiss back without hesitation. His hand slips up under my sweater, along my skin, and over my back. 

I moan slightly at the way his fingers graze down my spine and then back. I shiver and my mouth breaks as I pant quietly. 

"I want you both so bad it hurts." I whisper, and almost want to cry at how good his hand feels skimming over my skin, touching me like I never thought i'd be touched by him. Wanting to submit every detail of my time with them this week to memory, to have when it was all over. 

Mason kisses my neck, and below my ear.

"you have no idea how bad it hurts to want you Little lex" he whispers in my ear and his nickname for me makes my pussy ache. 

I lift my leg up over his hip, and he groans, sliding his hand down my back to my ass, pulling me into his erection. I kiss him, our mouths open and panting as I grind slowly on his dick through our clothes. He's still wearing jeans, but the bulge is giving me sweet friction though my thin leggings. 

He thrusts against me as I moan into his mouth.

"we all need this" he groans. 

"yes" I moan.

And I gasp feeling Trevor move and his hand on my hip as he pulls himself into me too. His erection against my ass through his jeans. 

"Oh god" I moan as I grind against both of them, my cunt chasing the bulge in front of it, my ass pushing back against the bulge behind it. 

"Both of you" I moan. 

"Take your pants off and fuck me"