EroticReverie

*commissioned*

Less than half an hour later they were already three shots in and getting a little giggly. When Abby would only take small sips each time , Alyssa would lift the bottom of the bottle with her finger tips while giggling, and demanding Abby drank at least a shot's worth of it.

"Quit cheating!" Alyssa said each time with a laugh. 

By the time the episode was over they'd each had seven "shots", but only because Abby protested a few others, saying that she wanted to get drunk, not black out. Alyssa allowed her the few protests, agreeing that they probably should slow down. 

"Such a dangerous game" Abby laughed, and grabbed her phone, and added a silly selfie to her instagram and snap chat stories. 

"Getting tipsy" she captioned each photo. 

A few friends had responded to the video Alyssa took of Abby bent over, getting "spanked". Most were laughing emojis, and a few guys from school replied. 

"More."

"Nice"

And one guy replied with just an eggplant emoji with the three water droplets emoji. 

"Gross" Abby laughed to herself. 

"What?" Alyssa plopped down on her stomach and and peeked at Abby's phone. They both laughed. 

"Who is it?" Alyssa squinted at the screen. 

"Ben?!" She squeaked and laughed and then grabbed the phone. 

"Cmon , we totally have to fuck with him" she laughed.

"What do you mean?" Abby asked as she watched Alyssa push up and then start to straddle her. 

Abby laughed watching her. "What the hell are you doing?"

"Just messing around." Alyssa laughed as she raised the phone above her head, to show herself ontop of Abby, and then pressed record. 

Alyssa rocked her hips and bit her lip at the camera with a little wink as Abby just laughed beneath her. 

"Stop it!" Abby laughed, as Alyssa cut off the video, giggling as she pressed send to Ben. 

"Oh come on, we HAVE to mess with him!" Alyssa said. 

Abby just laid there, watching as Alyssa giggled reading whatevers Ben response was. Abby wasn't sure if it was the alcohol or what, but she was more turned on that she was earlier. In fact, she was still thinking about her cousin having licked frosting from her neck and ear. 

"What did he say?" Abby asked and Alyssa giggled and shook her head. 

"nothing..dont worry about it." Alyssa said.

"what did he say?" Abby said, scrunching her eyebrows together. 

Alyssa sighed, and handed her the phone. 

Abby took it and read it. 

"I always knew you were batting for the other team Abby, but didn't know you had a thing for your own cousin. Can't lie, it's kind of fucking hot. But I can't say i'm too disappointed that I'm not your type, as long as you let me watch" he types. With a devil emoji, and drooling emoji. 

"Batting for the other team? He thinks I'm a lesbian?" Abby asked. 

Alyssa shrugged and took the phone back. 

"guess so." she says.

"Why would he think that?" Abby said starting to get defensive. 

Alyssa shrugged and then laughed a little. 

"What?!" Abby said sitting up, making Alyssa move off her. 

Alyssa laughed. "Chill....it's just that...I don't know....you don't really show too much interest in guys....and not be cliche, you ARE on the softball team, and for some reason people think that's like a lesbian right of passage." Alyssa laughs. 

Abby's lips tighten defensively. "So since I play softball , I'm gay?" she asks angrily. 

"Shit Abbs, don't get mad at me! I'm not the one who said it." Alyssa said, tossing her phone back to her. 

Abby huffed. "No, but you've obviously given it some thought, if you know WHY he thinks that." 

Alyssa just shrugged. "Abbs, it's not that serious...there's nothing wrong with it." 

"Ben thinks I'm gay!" Abby said. 

"So? Is there something wrong with that?" Alyssa cocked her head. 

"Well..no...but I'm not." Abby said. 

Alyssa eyed her cousin for a moment, and wondered if she should pull her cousin from the closet. Alyssa thought it was possible for awhile that her cousin might like girls, and thought it may even be possible she also liked boys. Alyssa knew that she loved boys, but she'd also grown curious over the past year or so about girls. 

"How do you know?" Alyssa asked finally. 

"How do I know what?" Abby asked. 

"That you're not gay...you've never kissed a girl." Alyssa replies. 

"Neither have you, how do you know YOU aren't gay?" Abby says. 

Alyssa laughs. 

"Well, for one...I have kissed guys, and while I havent gone all the way, I can say with a hundred percent certainty that I do enjoy guys." Alyssa says.

Abby let out a slight huff.

"But..." Alyssa adds. 

"I suppose you're right...I could also like girls...but just havent tried it out yet." Alyssa shrugs casually and reaches for the bottle of Tequila. 

"Yet?" Abby asks. 

Alyssa gives a little smirk and nods before lifting the bottle and taking a sip and handing it to Abby.

Abby shakes her head. "What do you mean yet? You WANT to try it with girls?" 

Alyssa shoves the bottle towards Abby, and Abby sighs, and takes it and swallows a large gulp, wincing at the taste and then sets the bottle down on the table. 

"I think it'd be fun...maybe I won't want to be with them romantically...but I think at least making out with a girl would be fun." Alyssa says and Abby's eye brow lifts.

"you've never told me that." Abby says. 

Alyssa sighs. "Because Abbs, I thought maybe you'd be the one to tell me that first." 

Abby's brows pinch in confusion. 

"Okay listen...do NOT get mad at me. But...I've kinda been waiting for you to tell me you were into girls." Alyssa says.

"So you DO think I'm gay!" Abby says angrily. 

"Yes! Ok?!" Alyssa says. "If you're not then you're not, and i'm sorry alright? But I dont know, I just thought you were! I never brought it up before because I didnt want to make you uncomfortable or for THIS to happen" Alyssa says gesturing to her cousin. 

"you sitting here yelling at me" Alyssa says.

The girls sit in silence for a moment and Alyssa waits for Abby to speak first, refusing to apologize again. 

Abby lets out a low sigh. 

"I don't...." she starts and Alyssa looks up to her cousin who is looking down, worrying a piece of the blanket between her fingers. 

"I don't know what I am." she says quietly with a little shrug. Alyssa wonders if she should speak yet, but before she can, her cousin continues. 

"I'm just confused, I'm supposed to like guys." Abby says. 

"Abbs, you supposed to like, whoever you like...and if you like girls...or guys....or both...it's fine....or if you dont like any.." Alyssa says softly and reaches her hand out placing it on her cousins knee. 

"I just..." Abby shakes her head. "How do I even know?"

"I think maybe you know...but you're scared." Alyssa says.

Abby shakes her head. "No..well...I dont know...maybe...but sure maybe I think I might like girls...but what if I think I do, but then i kiss one, and dont? What if I just think girls are really pretty?" Abby says. 

"Then that's fine." Alyssa says. 

"But I dont want to just find a pretty girl and be like Hey, do you mind if I use you to settle my sexuality?" Abby asks. 

Alyssa lets out a slight laugh. 

"It would be embarrassing." Abby says. 

"Okay...so...then just try it with me." Alyssa says. 

Abby's eyes go to hers. "What?"

Alyssa shrugs. "Yeah, I mean...it's not like you're attracted to me...I'm your cousin...and hell I wanna try kissing a girl too...two birds one stone!" Alyssa claps her hands together. 

Abby laughs a bit and shakes her head. 

"You've had too much to drink" Abby says. 

"no I havent!" Alyssa says, slapping Abby on her thigh lightly. 

"Seriously though, let's just kiss, it's not a big deal, it's just kissing. And other friends do it all the time for shits and giggles, so yeah...you can see if you enjoy kissing girls...you can pretend I'm some hot girl if you want." Alyssa says. 

Abby laughs. "but you're my cousin first of all...it's weird." 

Alyssa rolls her eyes. "So what, we're not getting married, we're doing some important research to help both of us figure out what we're into! I say i'm a genius actually." Alyssa flips her hair jokingly. 

Abby laughs. 

"I've never even really kissed a guy..I don't even know how to kiss." Abby groaned.  

"Unless you count Alex in 7th grade during spin the bottle when he shoved his tongue so far in my mouth I thought i'd choke on it." Abby adds.

Alyssa laughs. 

"Ew." Alyssa says and shakes her head. 

"We'll go slow. We'll just start off with regular closed mouth kisses, and then if you want to , we can try with tongue or whatever." Alyssa said it so casually as if she made out with female cousins regularly.  Abby's eyes widened slightly, but she couldn't deny that she actually, really wanted to go through with her cousins silly little drunken plan. Even though in her gut, she knew she was gay, no matter how much she ever tried to tell herself she wasn't. It didn't matter, because she wanted to kiss a girl. She wanted to do it now. It didnt matter if it was her cousin. She wanted to have the things she thought about and kept to herself. 

Abby nods. "Okay, fine." 

Alyssa squeals and claps her hand. 

"Shit" Abby says shaking her head, reaching for the Tequila bottle and taking another gulp. 

Alyssa laughs. "Okay...I'm a little offended you need more alcohol to kiss me!" she teases, but grabs it as well, both of them feeling the definite buzz. 

After taking a drink, Alyssa sets the bottle down and then looks at Abby. 

"So like...how do we do this?" Abby says unsure of how to sit, or if she should lay down. 

Alyssa laughs and sits Indian style in front of Abby, so Abby does the same. 

"Alright." Alyssa says. 

"I'm gonna kiss you." she says and Abby nods, feeling her heart start to race. 

"Calm down." Alyssa says placing her hands on her cousins knees. "Breathe..you look like you just saw a ghost." 

Abby takes a shaky deep breath and breathes it out. 

"It's just me...so there's no expectations here." Alyssa says to her cousin trying to ease her nerves. 

Abby nods and Alyssa grabs her hands. They hold each others hands and stare at one another as Alyssa tells her to keep taking deep breaths. 

Alyssa circles her thumbs over the top of Abby's hands reassuringly. 

"I'll kiss you simply...just a peck....then as long as you don't want me to stop....I'll kiss you again, leaving my lips on yours just a bit longer. If you feel your hands wanting to reach out, or touch me, or my face...it's fine. And you can. Don't hold back, just pretend I'm like some hot babe." She says with a playful smile. 

Abby laughs slightly. "got it." 

But Abby didn't plan on imagining anyone else, she was just fine with knowing it was her cousin. Because Abby knew the reason she questioned her sexuality in the first place, was the way that she had admired her cousin as they grew up together. Admired her for more than her personality, but her body as they both started hitting puberty. Abby wasn't sure she had a crush on her cousin, but she didnt at all mind looking at her. 

"So....one more deep breath." Alyssa says. "Then I'll kiss you." 

Abby nods, then takes a long inhale and then lets it out slowly.