EroticReverie

“I should get going I guess” I say as we lay in his bed and the clock reads 8:32 pm. 

He grumbles and pulls me into his and kisses the top of my head. 

“Stay the night” he says and I push my hand up over his chest and look up at him but he’s just laying there with his eyes closed. 

“But you said just weekends.  And then your office on wednesdays” I say. 

“I know what I said.” He says and just rubs his hand up and down my arm. 

“You don’t have to stay if you don’t want to.” He says and lifts his head and looks at me. 

“Of course I want to.” I say softly and he smiles slightly. 

“Good” he says and I feel it, the need for more of him even though we just finished having sex twenty minutes ago.  I was addicted to the feeling of him consuming my body and soul. 

I wasn’t so naive as to not worry that this wouldn’t last, that eventually he may tire of me, that eventually he’d stop caring. I worried that he only wanted me because I was forbidden right now. A student. Would he want me when I graduated? Would he still care about watching over me? 

“What’s going on in that head of yours?” He asks as he strokes my hair. And I close my eyes at the feel of his fingers carefully and gently caressing my strands. 

“Nothing” I say quietly and open my eyes to his staring into me. 

“Never lie to me Fallon.” He says and I feel my heart thump in my chest. “Confess.” He says and I look down and then back up. 

“Will you still….when I’m….” I hesitate and he waits patiently for me to finish. 

“What if…” I pause again. 

I sigh.  

“Tell me Fallon” he says gently. 

“I’m scared that you won’t want me when I graduate.” I say pushing the confession from my lips. 

“Why do you think that?” He asks. 

I shrug. 

“Because. You’re not supposed to want me right now.  I’m a student and up until a few days ago. Not even legal. And maybe..maybe that’s what excites you about me.  And once I’m not a student anymore …the thrill of sleeping with me will be gone.” I say and he just continues to stroke my hair. 

“If I was seeking the thrill of fucking a student.  I would have fucked the ones that did all but offer themselves to me over the years.” He says and my eyes widen. 

“And if I was seeking the thrill of underage girls to fuck, which I’m not, I’d have fucked you well before when I did.” He says and I chew my lip. 

“Who offered themselves to you?” I ask. 

He shakes his head. 

“Not so much offered themselves blatantly but some girls have insinuated things inappropriately to me when in my office.” He says. 

“Who?” I ask. 

He smiles. 

“Most of them have graduated by now.” He says. 

“But Alice Gray for one” he says and I feel my nails dig into his chest as I feel a wave of anger crash through me. 

“Easy kitten, put those claws away” he says and I loosen my fingers and look at him again and he smiles. 

“I’ve never wanted to touch any of them.” He says. 

“She’s pretty though.” I say. Because Alice was perfect. Perfect family, perfect hair and teeth , face and body. Everything. 

“So?” He says. 

“You think I’ll sleep with someone just because they’re pretty?” He asks and I shrug. 

“I’ve slept with guys for no reason other than I could.” I say. 

He sighs. 

“Yes. I know.” He says and then turns slightly so he can gently guide me to my back as he hovers over me and pushes my hair from my face. 

“I don’t know exactly why I want you. There are reasons. But none of them seem to explain how badly I crave to even just lay my eyes on you everyday.” He says and I look at his face as he studies all of mine , his eyes roaming over all of my features and then placing a kiss on my mouth. 

“Do I like the fact that you’re young? Yes. Do I also think it’s sexy that you’re my student and naked in your principals bed?” He grins as I bite my lip. “Yes” he says. 

“But those aren’t the only reasons.” He says. 

“Then tell me the others” I say as he moves over me and I feel the heavy weight of his cock against me between my legs. 

“You’re strong.” He says as he rocks back and then pushes forward nudging back against me and I let out a small breath as I feel his hardness against me. 

“You’re smarter than you want anyone else to believe” he says and reaches down and brings the head of his cock to where I need it most and pushes in slowly and I exhale relief at the aching he soothes when inside of me. 

He places a kiss on my nose. 

“You are the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen” he says and brushes his lips against mine and I push mine against his as I grab onto his back and wrap my legs around him.  

“You are so scared and broken and dying for someone to care” he says and I whimper. 

“I knew it from the look on your face when I saw you hoping your parents would show for that meeting I called them to.  And I saw the look of disappointment when they didn’t show up. “ he says and I feel the hurt stab deep in my chest. 

“You needed me.” He says. 

“I wanted to fuck the sadness out of you that very day.” He says and I swallow and move my hips to meet his as he fucks me slowly every inch of him feels like it’s healing some broken part of me. 

“I’m not a good man.” He says. 

“Because while I wanted to save you, I also wanted to break you even more.” He says and I inhale shakily. 

“I could have saved you the right way. Been a better figure for you to go to and learn from.” He groans. 

“But you made me so fucking hard. Constantly.” He says and I moan as he kisses me. 

“I knew that you were well aware that I got off to making you confess your dirty little secrets and wrong doings” he says. 

“I knew you knew that making you do those little tasks were me not only making you accept punishment for your behavior but because I liked being able to have some control over the bad girl that came to my office every week” he says and gives me a hard thrust and I gasp and dig my nails into his back. 

“I loved the shameless way that you admitted to fucking boys in the school. Even if I knew you were using them to fill some void of attention. It was hot to hear you not be ashamed of it. You were so fucking aware of yourself and your problems and didn’t make excuses for why you did the things you did.” He says. 

“We both know why you became the school whore” he says and I clench around him. He groans and I buck my hips faster. 

“But I knew I couldn’t make you stop.  I knew you needed to have their attention.  Their cocks inside of you” he says and I groan. 

“It killed me though, because I wanted so badly to fill the hole in your heart that let you allow them to fill the one between your legs” he says and I moan. 

“I knew you wouldn’t let me tell you what to do with your body , and I didn’t want to. You were surviving in your own way. Letting them make you feel something , no matter how fleeting it was” he says and I feel tears prick my eyes. 

“If I had been a better man, I’d have at least tried to help you in a better way, but I wasn’t good.  I’m not good.  I wanted to punish you instead.” He says and I moan. 

“I wouldn’t have wanted you to be good” I say shakily and he nods. 

“I know” he says and sinks into me fully and stays there and I let out a long sigh as my back arches and he dips down and kisses my breasts and then rolls a tongue around one of my nipples and sucks gently. 

“I want to be good to you Fallon.  But I also want to fuck you like the little slut you love to be” he says and I moan as he tongue trails up to my neck and his mouth brushes my ear. 

“I can’t explain it” he groans. 

“I want to make you better , but I want to treat you like a dirty little whore and fuck this cunt like I own it at the same time” he groans and starts to thrust again. 

“And it’s not something I’ll ever want to stop doing. Even after you graduate , even when you’re in college , when you’re thirty , when you’re forty, im going to want you. Because you’re always going to be you. And I want to ruin you and put you back together as much as I can” he says and I kiss him hard and pull him into me.  My hands go to his ass as I try to have him fuck me even deeper. 

“I’m keeping you” he says. 

“So if you think after you graduate , that it’s gonna end …you’re so fucking wrong” he tells me as he looks down between us and then pushes up and then pulls me into his lap with his cock still inside of me and I wrap my arms around him as I rock in his lap.  My tits brushing against his chest as I pant. 

“I’ll never want to stop fucking you” he says and I moan and we look at each other as we both breathe heavily and I move faster into his lap. 

“Your secrets, your body, your heart, all of it is mine now” he says. And I moan and throw my head over his shoulder as I hold onto him tight as I grind on his cock and he groans. 

“You’re my fucked up girl, and I’m your fucked up man” he whispers. 

“I’m gonna punish you even after all your confessions are gone. I’m gonna punish you for making me so god damn hard for you everyday. Punish you for getting off on your trauma , and punish you for letting me get off on it” he groans. 

“Punish you for being so generous with this pussy for so many years” he says and I moan.  

“Punish you for letting daddy make you a whore for his friends” he groans and feel my cunt tighten.  

I couldn’t explain why I hated the trauma I’d gone through but at the same time got off on it. I couldn’t explain why he wanted to kill the men who touched me, but the idea of them violating me turned him on at the same time.  I also couldn’t explain how much I loved hearing him degrade me for something we both know wasn’t up to me. 

“More” I beg as I ride him and push him to his back so I can straddle him and fuck him harder and faster. 

He groans and plants his feet to the bed and grabs my hips. 

“You tell ME” he growls.  “Tell me how much you miss it” he groans and I bite my lip. 

“I miss having my pussy touched by him” I moan. 

“I miss my father watching his friend use me” I cry and he groans and grabs my hips even harder and fucks me viciously from underneath and I scream as I close my eyes and go back to the memory.  So scared. So fucking helpless and afraid. 

“It hurt so much” I confess. “I cried so much” 

“I begged him to stop” I dig my nails into his chest as I feel my orgasm building closer and closer. 

“He didn’t stop” I moan. 

“He made me a little fucking whore” I cry and then I’m thrown off him and onto my stomach and pulled up by my hips as he slams his cock back into me and spanks my ass and I fist the sheets as I beg him to fuck me harder. Beg for it to hurt like it did back then. Beg for him to remind me of the trauma that fucked me up and made me a slut for anyone who would have me. 

“Fuck Fallon” he growls as he breathes heavy and digs his fingers into my flesh. 

“Your pussy must have felt so fucking good” he grunts. 

I Push back into his thrusts and he slaps my ass again and then another time as the grabs a fist full of hair and I can’t help how much I love how fucked up it is that we’re both getting off to me being raped by my fathers friend, no matter how sick we both know it is. But what’s done is done as I refuse to feel sorry.  I refuse to let it make me the kind of broken than doesn’t allow me to enjoy pleasure.  Instead I’ll be the kind of broken that finds pleasure in it.  That finds the fucked up shit that was done to me as a catalyst to the orgasm that starts to take over me as I scream out. Fuck the man who took my innocence. The guys who used me and the ones who forced me. I was in charge of my body now and in charge of my own way of dealing with my past. 

“I wish it was you” i cry out as my cunt spasms and I flood all over his cock with an orgasm that shakes my entire body and I cry real tears. 

“I wish it was you that fucked me first” I cry as he cums inside of me with a growl that lets me know a depraved part of him wishes the same. But I’m thankful that deep down I know he never would have. That even though the man who owned me now was the owner of a dirty fucked up mind like my own, he’d never have hurt me the way other men did.  

I breathe shakily as he lays over me , his cock buried inside of me. 

“I’m sorry” he breathes. 

“Don’t be.” I say when I know he’s apologizing for how hard he just came thinking about fucking a too young version of me. 

“I need you to be as fucked up as me” I say and he huffs slightly and slides out of me. 

I whimper at the loss of him from inside of me. 

He rubs my back as I lay there then I pick up my head and turn it to look at him. 

“You’re the only one who understands me” I say quietly and he leans in and kisses me as his hand rubs down over my ass softly. 

“I do” he says. “And I think you understand me too” 

I nod once and kiss him back. 

“We should shower” he says and I let out a little laugh. 

“I don’t know if I can move” I say and he smiles. 

“Do you want to sleep in this bed full of cum?” He asks and I laugh.  

“Yes” I say and bite my lip. 

He smiles. “Filthy”