EroticReverie

Natalia Parisi

The sexual tension was dampened by my confession. I knew Luciano meant it though. That he'd find the man who molested and raped me , and then kill him. I had no doubt he would, I just had no idea what made me share that with him. I could have easily just said I wasnt a virgin and be done with it. I could have finally fucked someone by choice, and not because I was helpless and scared. 

"I should probably get some work done." he says and runs a hand through his hair , stepping back. 

I step forward and slide my hands up his torso, over his chest, letting my fingers graze over the wounds he has on his olive skin. I lift my eyes to him as my hands slip behind his neck. 

"I'm not broken you know." I tell him, and he tilts his head. 

"Because of what happened to me...I'm fine...I don't need you to wait...or take things slow...I'm ready...so ready" I say as I press my body against his. 

"I don't think you're broken." he says and lifts a hand to the back of my head and grabs my hair gently and pulls it softly. The slight sting of my scalp racing through my body all the way to my toes, but making a pit stop low in my belly that makes me moan slightly. 

"I think you're unbreakable actually." he says and hovers his mouth near mine. 

"Let's have sex..." I say quietly and he smiles slightly. 

"Right now." I add. 

"I'm going to kiss you." he says and I bite my lip and nod as I look into his brown eyes and slip my hands from behind his neck, and let my fingers graze his sharp jaw line. 

"We're going to make out." he says. I smile and nod. 

"Then I'm going to go get some work down." he says and then I pout.

"But tonight...whatever you want...it's yours." he whispers and I smile again and nod. 

"Ok" I say softly and he cups my face. 

I lose my breath the second his lips brush mine and then push against them. I put my hands to his chest as we kiss softly, our head each tilted slightly in opposite directions. Our lips pressing sofftly, lingering before we part them , just to push them together again. My nose pushes against his as we each trade angles and his tongue is the first to grow impatient as he slips it along my lips and parts them. 

The heat of his mouth, the softness of his tongue against my lips and then my tongue makes me whimper as he keeps holding my face just as he wants it. His tongue exploring my mouth and his breathing going heavy, and just as excited as my own. 

I'd never been kissed like this. I'd made out with plenty of boys, I'd done plenty of giving pleasure, from hand jobs or blow jobs, but I never let them have me. They could look, but they couldn't touch. I didn't want another man to touch me ever. I like weilding that power, taking that power back and holding it over the head of horny men. Id never wanted to have another man touch me or be inside of me, until Luciano. 

I wasn't even sure what it was, but even when he was being a dick, I knew I wanted him to have me. That he was a man that I wanted to give myself to. 

His hands drop from my face to go to my waist and then he pushes them up my sweater and pushes his fingers and hands up over my breasts and grabs them. His hands moving in small circles as he rubs and squeezes them, our mouths still panting. 

I want to beg him to do it now. I want to plead with him to take me right now. I can't wait a second longer. 

"dont ever stop kissing me" I moan against his mouth and he groans. 

His hands slide down and one slips down the front of my legging and right to the spot that needs his attention most and I gasp. 

"yes" I whisper as I wraps my arms around his neck and kiss him harder as his finger rubs my clit and I buck against his hand. 

"jesus" he mutters into my mouth as his finger slips through my pussy lips and then up inside of me. 

I let out a satisfied hiss and then grab his face and push my tongue against his. 

"yes" I moan as I roll my hips and his finger pumps, and then a second one. I gasp and my legs shake and he groans. 

"fuck Natalia" he groans. 

"I can't wait to put my cock in this.." he grunts and he thrusts his fingers. 

"I'm going to  make it so good for you Bambi" he smirks and I moan and grab his face again and kiss him harder. 

"Do it now...please...i want you inside me" I pant pathetically. 

"No way in hell am I rushing your first time Natalia." he says and kisses me. He slows it down, moves his tongue lazily and groans. 

"It's not my first time" I tell him. 

"If youre talking about that fucking irishman, he doesnt fucking count." he growls. 

He holds my jaw as his fingers curl inside me and he fingers me slowly, making me feel the pull of his fingers as he draws them out slowly and then sinks them back in. 

"Your first time belongs to you. It's yours to give away. You did not give it to him Natalia. He fucking took. Your first time, does not belong to him. It belongs to you." he says and I moan and hold onto him as he fingers me a little faster. 

"If you want me to....I'll give you the first time you deserve Natalia." he whispers on my mouth and I kiss him and nod. 

"Yes" I answer and he slides his fingers out and then rubs my clit and I squeak, my hips jerking at the contact and I feel my orgasm build. 

"I'm gonna cum" I pant quietly and he groans. 

"yeah you are....and it's all mine.....all mine Natalia"

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No matter how bad I wanted it, Luciano had not given into me. But he left me with the promise of giving me my first time. My first time. Even though it wouldnt be my first. He was adamant about the fact that what that man had done to me did not count as my first time. It was quite abnormal for a man of "The Family" to be so ...decent. 

It pissed me off that something as simple as man acknowldeging a woman should have control of her own body, put him in a "good guy" category. Wasn't that basic decency? I rolled my eyes to myself , hating the world I was in, where I'd let myself get all swoony because a MAN had granted ME permission to be able to GIVE permissions to my own body. It wasn't his fault of course, as he was the one who made me see it that way. That, yes, that man took something from me, but not by any will of my own. I did not give him permission to my body. Therefor what he took, was still mine. I still owned my first time. 

I spend time with Leo and Luca throughout the day, all of us hanging out in Leo's room watching a movie. I make them each lunch, and they check their phones several times throughout the day. I don't ask what it's for when their faces screw with disgust or anger, or they punch thier large thumbs at the screen typing replies. 

I wondered if Luciano would tell them what happened to me. I didn't specifically tell him not to tell anyone, but I could only hope that was a given. I pull out my own cell phone. 

"You won't tell anyone about what happened to me , right?" I shoot the text.

A minute later I get my reply. 

"I would never. That's not my information to share. It would however make it easier to find him, if I could." he replies.

"No. It's not a big deal. Just worry about finding the guys who broke in." I reply. 

"Sure." he says. 

I chew my lip and then type out another reply. 

"When will you be back?" I ask. 

It was getting late, not extremely late, but it was about seven pm and as comfortable as I was hanging out with Leo and Luca, I wanted what I was promised. It was all I could think about. 

"Late.  Don't wait up." he says and I feel myself deflate. 

"Okay. Be safe." I reply. 

"Always. See you in the morning." he replies. 

I dont reply as I toss my phone to the bed and sigh and sink back against the head board with the boys on each side of me. 

"How does that happen anyways?" Luca asks. 

I turn my head to look at him, then to the tv where he's looking.

"How does what happen?" I ask. 

"How do you two go from wanting to bite each others heads off to messaging each other like domestic partners?" he asks.

I gape at him and then go to slap his arm, but remember his injuries and stop myself. 

He laughs. "Thanks for showing me mercy. How'd that happen as well? You tried to shoot me, and here you are cuddling up to me watching a movie." he asks. 

I roll my eyes. 

"First of all, I did NOT try to shoot you, the gun going off was an accident. Plus, you were being a total pig. Second, i am NOT cuddling up to you. I'm ABOUT to push you right off this bed and let you crawl back to your room without my help." I say and he laughs, Leo does too from beside me. 

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A few hours later after another action movie, with Luca explaining to me all the things that were wrong, and the moves the killers SHOULD have made, reminding me that these guys LIVED this shit. That my life, well , more so their lives, were like the movies. The bad guys you think only live in hollywood movie screens, actually exist, and my house was full of them.  And one of them had made me cum multiple times this morning. 

I helped Luca back to his room, and then jumped when the door opened and one of the brothers escorted a skinny brunette in a short tight skirt and halter top into the room. 

"Perfect timing." Luca says clapping his hands together as the girl pops a piece of gum in her mouth as she chews and thanks the brother who escorted her and looks at me. 

"You didn't say the princess was part of it" the girl smacks her gum giving me a half snarl and dirty look. 

"she's not. And play nice." Luca warns her. 

"Part of.." I start and then grumble as I realize why she's here. 

"Gross Luca" I say and shake my head and walk past the groupie whore with the bad attitude. 

I close the door behind me and scrunch my nose and look at the guard who hides a slight grin and shrugs. 

I shake my head and go to my room. 

Since Lucky won't be back tonight, I decide to burn some of my energy in the gym. Changing into hot pink work out pants and a sports bra, I put my hair up in a tight pony tail and throw on some socks and sneakers and then make my way to the gym. 

There's a guy stationed in every room downstairs, some rooms two. 

Anthony, Lucky's best friend is in the kitchen when I stop to grab a bottle of water. 

"Gym?" he asks and I nod. 

I don't say anything else as I walk back out and towards the hall to the gym. I look over my shoulder and see Anthony following me. 

"There's plenty of men guarding the house, I dont think I need a baby sitter." I say. 

"Better safe than have a bullet in your ass." he says and I roll my eyes and push open the doors to the gym. 

I start on the tread mill, working up a good heart rate and then hop over to the elliptical and throw my ear pods in as I watch myself in the mirror, starting to sweat. 

I ignore Anthony's eyes on me, even when they go to my ass. Pig. 

After about ten minutes, I start to work with the machines. Using the leg press, pushing my feet forward as I feel my muscles start to work and Anthony still has his eyes on me. 

After my reps I move to the weights and then see Anthony, suddenly move and sprint out of the room. 

My brows pinch and I pull my ear pods from my ears and listen to his feet retreating and more movement. 

I throw my ear pods on the floor and with my heart beating loudly I hear voices of all the brothers yelling and when I should run to hide , I don't , I run towards the noise, and towards the kitchen. 

The kitchen is full of brothers, one on the phone requesting a paid medic to come. I push through the taller bodies and then gasp when I see three men standing there with blood covering their suits, their faces and their hands. 

His eyes lift to mine, the one in the middle. Lucky. 

I open my mouth to ask what happened, and feel like I might start to cry, but he gives me a subtle shake of his head. 

I can't run to him. I can't act like he's mine now. One of them could report it back to my father. I watch take off his jacket, then his shirt , each of the men doing so as the others assess their injuries. All of them are standing so it can't be too bad. 

I let out a tiny cry when I see blood soaking Lucky's shirt. His eyes come to mine but the others are looking at the wounds of the men. 

"Just a flesh wound" Lucky says as I watch him pull off his shirt and wince. I clap a hand over my mouth as I see where the bullet struck him. 

"We got two paid doctors on the way" one of the brothers says and Lucky and the two men wounded with him nod. 

"I need to piss" Lucky grunts and moves to walk around the men.

I watch him walk away and then push past the others to follow him, 

"Lucky" I say his name and he groans and looks over his shoulder. 

"You should go upstairs Natalia" he says. 

"No" I shake my head and follow him into the bathroom and shut the door.

"What happened? where were you?" I ask as he walks over to the toilet and unzips his pants, groaning. 

I turn as he releieves himself. 

"Taking care of business." he says and I huff. 

"What business, the cartel ?" I ask. 

"It doesnt concern you Bambi" he says and I feel my lips tighten. 

"Doesnt it though?" I ask when he zips up and flushes and then walks to the sink. 

"No. It doesn't." he says calmly and washes his hands. 

I sigh, and keep my mouth shut as I look at him in the mirror.  I know he's not supposed to talk to me about what they do, or their plans, or their moves. 

"I told you to be safe." I say and a small smile tugs at his lips. 

"I was. Only have a little flesh wound." he says and turns to me. 

I shake my head and grab a washcloth and run it under warm water and start to wipe the blood from his chest and torso. 

"Did any of you get killed?" I ask quietly. 

"No" he answers.

"did you kill someone?" I ask. 

He lifts his hand and grabs my chin and makes me looks at him. 

"I missed you." he says and I pull back. 

"Dont change the subject" I say my eyebrows pinching together and he smiles a little and then slips his hand behind my head and pulls me towards him gently. 

"I couldnt wait to get back here and kiss you" he says quietly and I look him in his eyes. 

"Did you kill someone?" I ask. 

"Shhh" he whispers and brushes his lips over mine and I grab his sides gently at the waist where he's not hurt. 

His tongue slips over my lips and then he kisses them and parts them with his tongue and angles my head how he wants it as he deepens the kiss and I whimper into his mouth. 

"You did" I say against his mouth. 

"Shut up Parisi" he groans and pulls me into him. 

"You're hurt" I moan as he kisses down my neck and his hand slides down into my workout pants. 

"You're not." he says. 

I bite my lip and lean back on the sink counter and spread my feet slightly as he grins and his finger finds me and pushes up into me. 

I gasp and he captures my open mouth and his tongue pushes in and over mine. 

"I'll always be safe Natalia, and I'll always come back for this pussy...i'll always come back to you"