EroticReverie

Nicolette

A few weeks later...

We'd all talked that night. Together. Lots of tears were shed by Claudia and me. And some even from Daniel.  

Daniel confessed he was in love with me, confessed that he wanted to be with me. 

Hours and hours, we talked, even arguing. Everything was laid bare. Daniel had told her what we'd been doing. Sneaking around, trying to not get pregnant. Claudia's early statement about never being able to hate me? I was pretty sure I'd proved her wrong. 

I could have been mad at Daniel for exposing everything, but I wasn't. Well, I was, but I also wasn't at the same time. I was glad everything was out in the open, that way Claudia knew and there were no more secrets. But I was mad because I knew he only told her the compelete truth, in an effort to push me apart from Claudia for himself. He wouldnt have told her otherwise, I know it. 

My stomach has been in knots all week, and I've been sick to my stomach with the stress, with Claudia barely paying attention to me. And I don't blame her. She still blamed herself for it too. But also realized that regardless, I'd betrayed her. 

As of right now, we were still together. As of right now, the mission of having sex with Daniel to get pregnant, has been paused while we all dealt with our emotions and the fall out surrounding what came to be, between me and Daniel. 

I'd avoided all his calls and texts, telling him I need time, that we all needed time. 

Claudia wasn't letting him come to the house to visit with Nikolai. 

I sit on the toilet, the pee stick sitting on the counter. 

I was late. And realized that maybe my upset stomach wasn't only due to stress. 

I take a deep breath as it comes time to check it. I swallow nervously , lifting the stick. 

Clapping a hand to my mouth. 

Two lines. Two pink lines. I was pregnant. 

The joy I should have felt, was over shadowed by the fact that, ...did Claudia even want another baby with me right now? After what had happened? Would me being pregnant, make it easier on her? Since we got what we wanted? 

I pick up my phone. 

But Claudia isn't the first one I dial. 

When the phone picks up and he answers. 

"I'm pregnant." I blurt out. 

Silence. 

I wait. "Daniel?" I ask. 

"yeah...I'm here." he says, sounding sad. 

"I'm pregnant" I say, unsure if I should cry of excitement, fear, happiness or something else entirely. 

"Congratulations Nic." he says. 

My brows pinch. 

"Daniel." I say. 

"Aren't you happy?" I ask. 

"To have another child with you? yes." he says.

"To know that there's no possible excuse for us to continue, unless you leave Claudia. No." he says. 

I swallow. Way to make this about yourself, I think. 

"Daniel" I say. 

"Nic. I miss you." he sighs. 

"You've shut me out for weeks now. If we're not going to happen....I need....I need you to not call me." he says. 

"Daniel..." I say, pleading in my voice. 

"Nic...I can't do this with you. I can't hear your voice, or see you, and not fall more in love with you. I was pretty clear with you about what I want....I cant be just uncle Daniel....I can't." he says. 

I swallow hard. 

"Daniel" I whisper. 

"Come see me." I say. 

He pauses, and there's silence. 

"Please." I sigh, tears falling silently. 

"I need you right now." I say. 

"What did Claudia say about you being pregnant?" he attempts to change the subject.

"I.....I havent told her." I say quietly. 

A brief pause. 

"You called me first?" he asks. 

"yes." I answer quietly.

"Why Nic?" he asks. 

"I dont know. I just...i thought you'd be happy...and...I missed your voice. I needed an excuse to hear it." I say and he lets out a heavy sigh. 

"Please come see me. She won't be home until six tonight. I just...I miss you so much." I breakdown. 

"I dont know what to do anymore" I say. 

"I'll be there soon" he says softly. 

"I love you" I whisper. 

"I love you too." he says and hangs up the phone.

--

I put myself together, putting Nikolai down for a nap, and just when I get downstairs, he pulls into the drive. 

I go to the front door and let him in. The tension is there, the attraction, the lust, the need for one another. Ghosts of his hands and his lips still linger on me weeks later, as I imagine him kissing my body and touching me. The hot sex we had in the garage before the talk that broke us all.  The sex we'd had days before. 

But it'd been two weeks now of nothing, nothing from him because I'd shut him out, and nothing from Claudia, because it seemed each day we were growing apart. Not that she still wasnt understanding, but I could tell she resented me as a partner.  That regardless of my intentions in the beginning , I'd kept things from her, lied to her and went behind her back. I wasn't sure if she'd ever forgive that part of it. And we hadn't even kissed in two weeks.  My body was yearning for that physical connection. I could tell just by his eyes, that Daniel wanted to allow it to me. That he was more than willing to touch me, to kiss me. 

"I cant believe you're pregnant." he says quietly as he shuts the front door behind him. 

I nod. "Yeah." 

He sighs and swallows hard. 

"Nic...i cant be here.." he says and I shake my head and reach out to grab him before he turns to leave. 

"Don't go" I plead and he looks down at me. 

His eyes going down to my hand on his arm. 

"Please....stay." I whisper. 

"Nic..." he says, pain evident in his voice. 

"I miss you Daniel" I say, dropping his hand, my heart pounding in my chest. 

"So much" I add as I move closer, my hands reaching to his chest and he looks at my hands. 

"Please.." I whisper quietly and he groans slightly as I slip my hands up around his neck and into his hair, pulling his mouth to mine, barely touching. 

"Stay" I whisper. 

"Nic." he breathes shakily, and I push my lips over his, brushing them against his lips and then to them, pushing my kiss to his mouth as he grabs me, frantically, all at once, our bodies coming to life, the tension grabbing both of us, forcing us together, as he pushes me back with his body, then lifts me up behind my legs, making them go aroundhim. 

"god Nic" he groans as he pulls my shirt off, I pull at it too , throwing it, my hair going down my back , as he groans, setting me down by the stairs as he pulls off his own shirt. 

It's a mess of kisses and hands on one another as we undress each other, leaving a trail of our clothes to my bedroom.

Daniel lifting me and bringing me to the bed, on my back. 

"Nic" he groans. 

I nod. "Please Daniel...I need you so much" I cry. 

Hating myself for giving in, for begging him to bring our bodies back together. For begging him to be inside of me. For betraying Claudia again.