EroticReverie

Daniel

Sitting in the dining room of their home, watching them as they both sit with one another hand in hand. I watch my sister get up, kiss Nic on the cheek and tell us she'll be upstairs with Nikolai. 

I sit in silence at the other end of the table, so close and yet so far away and I already know why I'm here. It's plain as day that Nicolette has made her choice. It's been a week since we'd had sex after her finding out the positive result of her pregnancy test.  She never did show up at my office the next day after that. 

"Just rip the band aid off Nic." I say and she lifts her eyes, and I watch her swallow, her eyes looking right into mine. Killing me slowly with that beautiful gaze. 

"It's over for us." she says matter of factly. 

"I'm choosing to stay with Claudia. To work on repairing what I broke in our marriage." she says. 

"Nic, you didnt break-"

She holds up her hand and I stop talking. 

"I owe you the truth." she says. 

"I am in love with you." she says and my heart squeezes itself. 

"Nic.." I say sitting up reaching across the table even though it's long for us to touch hands. She shakes her head. 

"I fell in love with you. And I can't say it's going to be easy to fall out. No matter how much I love Claudia. And she knows that. We're going to work on moving on." I say. 

"And moving on means..." I say, afraid of what she'll say to me. 

"It means that ...you and I ...we can't see each other anymore." she says. 

"Ever?" I ask , my heart breaking. 

She shrugs. "Until we're both moved on, and, over this." she says. 

I sigh. "To be honest, Im not sure I'll ever be over you Nic." I say. 

she chews her lip. 

"You have to be. That's the only way you get to stay in our lives. We have to forget whatever it is that formed between us and-"

I slap my hand down on the table. 

"Dont talk about it like you dont know what it was! What it is! I love you! YOU love ME. It's that fucking simple, dont act like I can just fucking forget that Nic, don't fucking insult me." I say angrily. 

"I'm...im not...I just mean...this cant continue...if were going to coexist...if you're going to still be in Nikolai's life...and ....the babys" she says as she rubs her stomach slowly. 

"We have to put this behind us...no matter what...it's not fair to Claudia...to the babies....or to us...if we dont try to move on, it only makes things messy, for everyone. " she says. 

I let out a sigh. 

"So I never get to hold you, hug, you, kiss you, make love to you, ever again?" I ask and she looks away while shaking her head. 

"I don't accept that Nic." I say and she looks back to me. 

"You HAVE to Daniel. It's my choice." she says.

"Bullshit. What about MY choice? You think you get to make me fall in love with you and just tell me to fucking forget about it? uhuh." I shake my head. 

"no fucking way." I say and push up and walk around the table quicker than she get up and I get down on my knees beside her as she turns. 

"Please Nic" I say, begging for the woman down on my fucking knees. 

"Daniel, dont do this..please" she cries and I push my hands to her knees and up her dress. 

"Baby, cmon" I say as my hands move quickly up her thighs and she grabs them shaking her head. 

"daniel stop it" she says and my nostrils flare. 

"I cant....I cant fucking move on Nic....you're what I fucking want..." I say as I slip my hands up the back of her calves. 

"Stop it" she hisses as my fingers graze the back of her thighs a bit and then slip over to the top of her thighs. 

"I mean it!" she hisses and pushes my hands away. 

"Let me taste you one last time Nic, let me fuck you real good one last time...let me kiss you one last time..let me fucking have you one last time." I say, desperate, knowing she wont choose me, cause Nic was good, she wasnt a bad person. Me on the other hand, I wasnt sure I was either, but I couldnt get the woman off my brain, I was consumed and didnt care that she belonged to my sister. I'd put two fucking babies in Nic, and wanted to keep making them with her. As many as she'd let me put inside of her. 

"No Daniel" she whispers. "This is it....we're done." she says and even though she says it, and shes holding true to her word. I can see it, I can fucking feel it, the attraction between us, the need for each other. I didnt doubt her love my sister, but I knew the way we made love together, there was no match to what we shared when I was inside of her. she was just doing what she felt was right.

"Youre making the easy choice" I snarl half disappointed in her, half just angry with her. 

Her brows pinch. 

"You think ANY of this is EASY?!" she yells at me. 

Claudia comes around the corner, and jerks back at the sight of how close I am to Nicolette. I stand from my knees and look to my sister. 

"Take your seat Daniel." she says, walking back over to the table and sitting beside Nicolette.

"Stay away...from my wife. She's made her decision. Respect it. If you love her at all , you want her happy. She'll be happy, with me, with Nikolai and our baby." she says as she reaches over and loving rubs nik's stomach that's not even showing yet. 

"You're allowed to visit Nikolai. But not when Nicolette is home." she says and I scrunch my face. 

"Eventually she'll be here when you're visiting...but it's for the best if you two just don't have contact with one another." she says.

"Afraid she'll change her mind?" I ask and Claudia's jaw tightens. But Nicollete grabs her hand. 

"I'm afraid that this will only be made more difficult, if you two are constantly seeing one another. The choice is made Daniel. So stop being a prick and accept it. " my sister says and I take a deep breath. 

"I think it's best if you don't see each other during the rest of her pregnancy at least." Claudia says.

"what?" I ask and look to Nic. 

"Nic..baby" I say and go to reach out again. 

"Stop it!" Claudia screeches with a yell making Nic jump.

"she is NOT your wife! She's mine! So id refrain from calling her any fucking pet names if you plan on leaving this house with a tongue still in your mouth" Claudia say making me even angrier. 

"Sit down!" Nicolette yells at me as I start to rise out of my seat. But I sit back down with anger brewing inside of me. 

"We're all going to take this a day at a time. As far as you and me Daniel....there's nothing more that's going to happen to between us. That's just...that's the final decision." she says and see a proud little smile on Claudia's lips. 

"In time, I hope that you'll be able to come around like you used to...at least once in awhile...where we can all hang out with the kids." she says. 

Even I know that's not possible, and Claudia does too by little eye roll she hides, but gently pats Nic's hand in support. Both of us not wanting to burst her optimistic bubble. 

"I dont think it's a good idea." I say. 

"What isnt?" Nic asks. 

"Me coming around." I say, swallowing the rock in my throat. Thinking of Nikolai, what he'll think when I stop coming around.

"Daniel." she says softly.

"We WANT you to be a part of Nikolais life ...AND a part of this ones too." she puts her hand on her stomach. 

"You're an amazing uncle." Nicolette says and I huff. I am their fucking father. 

"Talk to me, when you come to your fucking senses Nic." I say getting up from the table. 

"I'm not going to live my life pretending im not fucking in love with you." I say glaring at Nicolette whose cheeks are heating to pink. 

"Im not going to pretend everytime Im in a room with you that I dont NEED you Nic." I say. 

"I cant do it. I cant fucking pretend , or hide my feelings." I say. 

"I dont want to, even if I could." I tell her. 

"I'll give you what you want Nic....I'll let you make your choice. I'll let you live with that choice. Let you pretend that doing what's "right" is what you actually want" I say making Claudia grimace. 

"I think it's time you just go." Claudia says. 

"Why, because Im right because we both know her well enough to know she's only choosing you out of fucking guilt and trying to do what she thinks is the "Right" thing?!" I yell.

"enough!" Nic yells and glares at me. 

"You need to leave." she says shaking as she stands up , her hands balled in little fists at her side. 

"Now." she bites out, tears in her eyes. 

I walk back a step and then another. 

"You know where you belong Nic....and I'll be waiting when you're done pretending." I say, walking out of their house for the last time.