EroticReverie

Epilogue- Four Years Later

Nicolette

Today was a big day and my nerves were getting the best of me, as I had to fan the sweat from my armpits as I put Nikolai in his ring beater suit and Carmen in her flower girl dress. 

“Let’s go, cmon” I say grabbing Nikolais hand as I carry Carmen on my hip into the church’s side door. 

The bridesmaids are there waiting and all coo and aww when I bring the kids into the room. 

“I just love your suit handsome little man” one of the bridesmaids says to Nikolai who just blushes and turns himself into me and wraps his arms around me. 

“Awww. So shy” she says and gives a little laugh. 

“He’s mommas boy” I say and pat Nikolais shoulder so I don’t mess up the styling of his hair that the hairstylist did free of charge for him. 

I set Carmen down who then takes it upon herself to start charging across the room to try to grab the bouquets laid out on the edge of a long table in the dressing room. 

“No Carmen” I say as I walk over shaking my head as she gives me a little pout and her lower lip trembles as if she’s about to cry. 

“Alright alright no tears” I say shaking my head and pick her back up. 

“Ten minutes till we’re on the move!” The wedding planner says and I look around the room and feel a pull in my chest. I hand Carmen over to the bridesmaid closest to me who is eager to get her hands on her. I smile with a thank you. 

“I just. Need a minute, I’ll be right back. Can you watch them?” I ask. 

“Of course” she says. “Go ahead” 

I grab the bottom of my dress as I turn and leave the room and make my way across the back of the church to the other side where the men are waiting. 

I knock on the door once and then open it to a room full of men sliding their tux jackets on and then my eyes go to him. The smile from his laugh softens as he sees me and then I step into the room. 

“Um fellas.  Can I get a minute?” Daniel says and all of them slowly clear out of the other door at the side of the room and I shut the one behind me. 

There’s a comfortable silence as we just stand there looking at one another. 

“So…” I say as I take a few steps closer and so does he until we’re standing in front of one another in the middle of the room.

“You ready ?” I ask him as he looks down at me. 

“Ready as I’ll ever be.” He says and I give a slight nod. 

“You look beautiful” he says just as I start to look away , making my eyes go back to his. 

“Thank you.  You look great too.” I say and he gives me a small smile. 

“Thank you.” He says. 

“Claudia here?” He asks. 

I give a nod. 

“Yes.” I say as he looks at me just like he did when we first fell in love. 

He takes a slow inhale and then exhales slowly. 

“I’m glad she came.” He says. 

“Me too” I nod. 

“Daniel..I…” I trail off. 

“I know.” He says. 

Because we’ve had this conversation a million times. There’s no need to have it again. 

“I love you too.” He whispers softly and my eyes well up with tears. 

“I’m sorry.” I start to cry. 

He smiles and his hands lift to cup my face making my eyes shut as I find comfort in the touch of his hands as he lifts my face to look at him. 

“There’s no need to say you’re sorry.” He says. 

I look into his eyes , hating how even after four years , I still hadn’t gotten over me and Daniel. 

But I couldn’t do it. I couldn’t let myself choose him. 

“I’ll always love you Nic” he says and that just makes my heart hurt even more and my breath hitches when he leans in and I feel it coming. 

“Daniel..” I say on a whisper. But he just smiles. 

“It’ll be my wedding gift.” He says right before he presses his lips to mine. 

There was a gorgeous bride on the other side of the church , getting ready to marry the man who had his mouth currently pressed to mine. But I couldn’t take my mouth from his. I wanted this as much as I could pretend I didn’t, I knew I was only lying to myself. 

So I lift my hands and wrap my arms around his neck as he deepens the kiss and our mouths part. His groan vibrating my mouth as I gasp and he grabs me by the waist and hips and pulls me against him. 

“Nic” he groans pulling back just the slightest bit and breathing heavily as he puts his forehead to mine. 

“I …I’m sorry” I say even though I wasn’t the one to initiate that kiss. 

“Dont be. I just….I had to taste you one last time” he says and I slide my arms from around his neck and my hands slip down over his tux. 

We stand there breathing heavily and he looks into my eyes as he lifts his head from mine and looks down at me. 

“Say it. Say the words right now and I’ll call the whole thing off Nic.” He says and I step back and shake my head. 

“No. Don’t say that” I say. 

“I’m serious Nic” he says and I swallow hard. 

“Daniel. You can’t. We can’t.” I shake my head. 

“I can.  You won’t.” He says and I turn from him. 

“Look at me.” He says. And I sigh as he grabs my shoulder and gently turns me and I look up at him. 

“You. Are the love of my life. I know it Nic. And it’s not that I don’t love Jenna, because I do. I’m even in love with her.  Because I believe you can fall in love with more than one person at a time. I mean. You did. “ he says and I swipe my tears. 

“But I would give anything for you to let me love you and be with you.” He says. “This is it Nic, this is our last chance” he says and I cry harder. 

“I can’t” I cry quietly. “I can’t” I repeat and he grabs my face and makes me look at him. 

“Why won’t you let yourself choose what makes you happy?” He asks his jaw clenching. 

“Because. It’s selfish. And it’s confusing to the kids and-“

“Nic.” He cuts me off. 

“Please.” I beg. “You have to let me go.”

Daniel looks at me , defeated and shakes his head. 

His mouth is on mine again and his tongue in my mouth as he pushes me against the wall and I gasp as his mouth ravages mine , as his hands find themselves all over me and I don’t protest. I only pant his name. 

“I need you Nic” he groans. 

“Daniel” I moan as his hands pull up my dress and I hitch a leg around him and his mouth kisses and bites at my neck as I gasp. Breathing hard and heavy right along with him as he whispers to me. 

“Just say it. Say you need me baby” he groans and I moan. Caught between how hot I was for him. While also wanting to cry. Because I had four years to change my mind. I couldn’t change it now. I wouldn’t. 

“I can’t” I cry. 

“Then let me have you…let me have you one last time.” 

———-

The wedding starts late as I slide into a pew. Claudia a few rows ahead of me, and I stare at the back of her head as I fidget in my seat. Wondering if anyone can tell I’m a fucking home wrecker that just fucked the groom. 

Claudia and I stayed together only three months after I got pregnant. We’d decided it was for the best. We’d tried therapy for a few months , but we knew it was a lost cause.  I let Daniel come to the obgyn appointments for Carmen.  And he had been there when I gave birth. 

Claudia was seeing an older woman now , and was still a mother to Nikolai and Carmen. She was also there for me during the pregnancy. Also going to appointments.  We didn’t want to have to explain to their parents the mess we’d gotten ourselves into.  So Daniel was still “uncle dan” and was allowed to see the kids when he wanted.  

Even after Claudia and I divorced . I refused to let myself be with Daniel.  I couldn’t hurt Claudia like that.  Couldn’t confuse the kids like that. Couldn’t have their entire family stare me down at get together and judge me for falling in love with both their daughter and son. It was easier on everyone. To just put it behind us. 

Claudia and I were civil and got along. And she was happy now with the woman she was currently engaged to. Sylvia. And Sylvia adored the kids , and was good to Claudia, so I had no complaints.  

Claudia turns in her seat and sees me and gives me a friendly smile. I smile back and nod and she turns back around in her seat. 

We’re all waiting. And my palms are sweaty as I wait for a sign for the start of the wedding. My knees bouncing as I lift my fingers to my mouth and chew a manicured nail. 

What I had done was terrible. But I keep telling myself that I did not go in there to see Daniel for that. I just had to…say goodbye. After the wedding and honeymoon. He’d be moving to his new wife’s home state , halfway across the continent , and I just had to see him. Because it would most likely be my last chance to see him for awhile.  

If he loved her. He deserved to marry her. I wouldn’t step in the way of it. Even though I may have back in that room, selfishly allowing myself “one last time” with him.  I’d ran out of the room as soon as we both came. Me all over his cock, him, deep inside of me. 

I’m almost half tempted to get up and leave , afraid that I’ll set on fire any second for the sin I just committed, when the pastor comes up to center of the altar and with a solemn face and monotone voice. Informs us that the ceremony for today’s joining, will not be taking place. 

My heart plummets as the entire church gives a collective gasp and voices start to murmur. 

I see Claudia sit up and she immediately looks back to me. The guilt must be written all over my face because her lips go into a thin line and she just shakes her head at me. 

Claudia had given me her blessing shortly after she met Sylvia, to “do what I want” , which meant Daniel. But even then. It didn’t feel right. 

“Excuse me” I say as I stand up and run to the back of the church to where I hear the room of bridesmaids calming the sobbing bride and I run past to the grooms room and open the door to find Daniel apologizing to the brides father. His eyes going to me. The father turning to look at me. And the room falls silent. 

Daniel excuses himself “for a moment” and walks out, taking me by the arm with him. 

“Daniel!” I tell as he all but pulls my arm out of the socket as he pulls me towards the limousine. 

He opens the door and points. “Get in” he says and I shake my head. 

“What? No” I say stepping back. 

“Get in before I throw you in.” He threatens. 

“Daniel I can’t” I say. 

“Enough.” His jaw ticks. 

“You’re telling me what we had back there was just a goodbye ?…That you didn’t fucking feel it?” He asks. 

“Of course I did but I-“

“No.  You don’t get to make the choice anymore.  Cause you’re shit and making choices Nic” he yells and my eyes widen. 

“Excuse me?” I say trying to sound offended. 

“You heard me. I’ve waited four fucking years. And fuck. I went through the motions of moving on. But god damnit Nic. There’s nothing I want in the world, more than I fucking want you. I need you. I love you. I’m fucking in love with you. So much. And I’m sick of taking your bullshit excuses. We belong together. You fucking know it Nic. I’m not gonna let you make both our lives miserable when we both know what the hell we want. But you’re too scared” he says and I jerk my head back. 

“I’m NOT scared” I say. 

“Then what? What is it then?” He asks and takes a step closer as people start to gather outside the church. 

“Get in” he says and I let him shove me in gently just to escape the curious gazes of the people outside the church and Daniel slides in. 

“The kids” I say. 

“Claudias got them.” He says as he also tells the driver to take us to the airport. 

“Daniel” I say. 

“You don’t get to run from me Nic. Not anymore.” He says and looks at me. 

“I can’t live without you Nic.” He shakes his head. 

“And I want to make more fucking babies with you, ours. We make such cute fucking babies Nic. And I want to keep making them with you. I want to be their father. Not just uncle Daniel” he says. 

I swallow a lump in my throat as i my chin trembles. 

“Tell me you don’t want that. Truly. Honestly. Tell me you don’t want to be with me. That you don’t love me. That you don’t want a fam-“

“Shut up!” I yell and then glare at him and my jaw ticks. 

“God!” I yell as I then fly across the seat locking my lips to his. 

“You’re so fucking …so…you” I say almost angrily as he gives me a smile and pulls me onto his lap , slipping up my dress, undoing his pants and then within seconds Daniel is inside of me again as I slip down on his cock and moan. 

“Tell me that doesn’t feel fucking right baby” he whispers.

“Tell me anything has ever felt better than us together, and you’re lying” he whispers. 

“Daniel” I moan his name as I ride him faster. Reclaiming him, riding him like I used to when we’d fuck all day trying to get pregnant. Ride him like I used to after we’d realized there was something else between us. 

“I love you” I whisper against his ear. 

“I love you too baby” he groans and thrusts up into me as I come down. 

“And I’m going to love you for the rest of our lives” he groans. 

I pant and moan and nod against his neck as I ride him. 

“The rest of our lives” I agree. 

-the end-