EroticReverie

Cherlynn

I'm somehow sleeping peacefully until something tells me to wake up. As if my body can sense something off, I open my eyes to the partially dark room, Maddox's chest no longer underneath my face, but he's still there, sitting up in bed. 

"Maddox?" I ask my voice scratchy with sleep as I move onto my side and look up at him, resting against his headboard and he looks over and down at me. 

"What's wrong?" I ask and I push up slightly. "Can't you sleep?" 

He doesn't answer me , so I sit up and wipe my eyes and blink a few times to see him better in the dark. 

"Maddox?" I question him again softly and then see him look down and then look away from me. 

"Maddox..." I say, his silence scaring me. 

"What is it?" I ask, looking around the room, looking for another wall painted with the word whore, I look for a sign of intrusion or anything out of order, but the room was just as it was when we fell asleep. 

"Maddox ..you're scaring me" I say and he turns his face back to me and I'm stunned by what I see. With the faint light glowing from his alarm clock, along with the moon pouring through his window , I see his eyes are full of unshed tears. 

"Maddox" my voice cracks and I slip from under the covers and over them and onto his lap. 

"Maddox, talk to me" I whisper and take his face in my hands. 

"What happened?" I ask. I would've bet every cent I had that I'd live my enitre life, never seeing Maddox shed a tear. But here he was, this rough man, was audibly swallowing and looking up at the ceiling to stop whatever tears were building in his eyes. 

"Maddox." I say his name again and he won't speak to me. Won't look at me. 

"what did I do?" I ask and his eyes finally come to me. He shakes his head. 

"Nothing." he says, and I can feel his jaw clench. "You never did anything. Ever." he says and I blink and my eyes search his face and I look in his eyes.

"I'm so fucking sorry" he says and lets out a shaky exhale and lifts his hands to his face, pushing under my own and making them slip from his face as he hides his face and groans as if he's in pain. 

"Sorry ?" I ask, and I grab his hands and pull them from his face. "Sorry for what?" I shake my head not understanding. 

"Everything." he says.

"Maddox, what happened yesterday isn't your fault" I say, thinking he's talking about the stalker. 

"Not that" he says and sighs and I'm so confused that I don't know what to do or say. 

Suddenly he slips his arms around me and burys his face into my chest and holds me, hugging me tightly as I slip my hands behind his head, and grip the short hair at the nape of his neck and then slip my finger nails along his scalp and cradle his face to my chest. 

"I love you so much" he says and I can hear him still trying to fight the tears. 

"I love you too" I whisper and kiss the top of his head and gently scratch his scalp doing what I can to soothe him and whatever is bothering him. 

"I'm so fucking sorry" he says and hush him as he grabs me tighter, his face squished against my breasts.

"I dont know what you're apologizing for" I tell him. 

"I was such a fucking bastard to you" he says and my brows pinch as I try to recall any recent thing he did or said that could possibly be taken as being bastardly. 

"when baby?" I asks softly and he lifts his head slightly and moves it from my chest to my neck and his hand slides up my lower back. 

"always, I was always a fucking asshole to you" he says and I take a soft breath when I realize what he means. The past , and every day up until we started to fall for one another. 

"baby" I shush him and push his face gently from where he hides it in my neck and I hold his face and bring my mouth to his, I press my lips to his and he groans as if the kiss causes him physical pain and he pulls back, but I follow his mouth, refusing to stop. 

"baby" I whisper with a soft moan and slide my hands down his chest and I lift slightly as he lets me part his lips with my mouth, groaning slightly as I push the covers back off him and then sit back down on his lap. 

"why do you love me?" he says as if wanting to punish himself , as if he doesnt deserve it. "how can you possibly love me ?" he asks and I reach down and wrap my hand around his cock, he was soft, but I feel him respond to me immediately as my strokes harden him and I speak to him quietly.

"Because you're not that boy anymore...you're not that person...because you make me feel so fucking safe Maddox" I say and he groans and his mouth pushes back to mine finally and his hand comes up and grabs my hair. 

"I dont deserve you" he says. 

"yes you do" I whisper against his mouth as I jerk him , gripping him a bit tighter and lifting up. 

"you deserve me Maddox" I say as I guide him to my center. 

I wasn't sure if now was the best time to have sex, but I knew I needed to remind him what we did last night, how we made love, how it felt so different from anything else. 

"i dont" he groans as I sink onto him and I gasp slightly at how incredible his cock feels pushing up into me. Every time, every single time he enetered me was like a brand new experience and I knew he felt it to, because he grabs my hips and pushes up into me and groans. 

"Fuck, I dont deserve you" he says. "But I fucking need you" 

"I need you so bad Cherlynn" he says and I moan as I rock on his lap as I move up and down and push my mouth to his. 

"I'm yours Maddox" I tell him and he groans and grips my hips harder.

"I'm so sorry baby" he says and then is sliding his ass forward, making himself slide onto his back, and then rolling us over so he's on top.

"i'm so fucking sorry" he groans as his hips thrust, and he braces his forearms near my head and shoulders as he digs into me, his hips connecting to me, his cock driving deep and claiming the deepest parts of me as I arch my back and cry softly. 

"I'll never deserve you" he groans. 

"But I can't let you go" he says and thrusts harder and I let out a loud cry as i grab his ass and pull him into me. 

"Im sorry cherry"  he says. "fuck, im so sorry"

"I know" I breathe, "I know you are"

His mouth comes to mine and he kisses me hard and then his hips slap harder into me and let out a tiny scream into his mouth. 

He groans into my mouth and does it again, and again, harder each time and I dig my fingers into his flesh as I grip his ass and buck myself into the torture of the sharp pain that courses through my insides with each hard thrust. 

"yes" I cry. "yes Maddox" I whimper as he groans and his face moves and his mouth goes to my shoulder and he bites down as I gasp and then my chest heaves as his hips pump viciously and my tits bounce on my chest and his mouth goes to those next and he groans. 

"I dreamt about the first time I saw your body..." he groans and sucks my nipple into his mouth and I moan as I bite my lip and close my eyes and think back. 

"The first time i tasted you" he says and licks over my collar bone, biting that too. 

"I hate myself for what I did to you back then Cherry" he says and I moan , because I remember the day vividly. How scared I was, how angry I was at Hunter for letting him and Zane use me. But I also remember, the guilty pleasure of how good Maddox had made me feel when he had his face between my legs. 

"I know" I moan. "but.." I gasp as he groans and bites my neck. 

"But, ...it felt so good" I admit and he slows, lifting his head and looking at me and I look up at him. 

"It was wrong Maddox, but I'd be lying if I said I didnt always hate the things you did to me....even if I should have..." I say and he groans. 

"I hated how hard I was when I woke up." he groans and his hips thrust into me. "Hating what I did, but remembering how fucking much I loved watching you....how much I loved your body and looking at it, touching it, licking your pussy,...fuck..." he groans and I moan. 

"yess" I hiss as he drives into me hard again.

"your tongue felt so good Maddox" I admit. 

"I loved it" I whimper. "I loved it so fucking much" 

"Cherry" he growls and I pull him closer. 

"It wasnt all bad....I wasnt always scared...or always hurting...you were good to me too...in other ways" I say thinking of all the times he'd made me cum back then. All the times him and Zane had touched me and forced me into being submissive to them as Hunter watched it all happen. 

Maddox was mean. There was no justifying what him and Zane did while Hunter let it happen. They were all mean to me, and sometimes he had been rough, done things that physically hurt me, but there were also times , like that first time he went down on me, where i felt nothing other than the guilt pleasure of good it felt for him to lick me all over my pussy and taste me on the inside when he'd fucked me gently with his tongue while wearing a smirk on his face as I whimpered and cried. He'd enjoyed my tears, as much as he'd enjoyed my pussy. I couldnt pretend to excuse the cruelness that went along with it, but ..I was honest when I'd said it wasnt always bad.  If I thought about it, the popsicle day was least of his offenses. But I wouldnt say that, because he already knew. Im sure he remembered every single thing he did, every degrading word he spoke and degrading act he did, every tear he made fall from my eyes.

"I'll never hurt you again" he says. "I promise"

"Unless it's like this" he says as he thrusts into me. "and as long as you want the pain" he says and I groan and nod. 

"I do" I whine and he groans. 

"Maddox" I moan his name and he slides out of me and turns me over and then grabs my hips, straddling my thighs as my legs lay together and he pushes into my pussy and fucks me faster. 

I push my hands out against the head board as my body is fucked into the mattress.

"spank me" i moan and he groans. 

"please spank me master" I beg and Maddox growls loudly.

"Duchess" he snarls and rubs my ass, then his hand lifts and comes down with a loud crack and I cry out. 

"fuck!" I cry. "Yes!" I bury my face in the pillows and feel my ass push up , to offer him more and he slaps me again as he fucks me. 

I scream into the pillow. He was not showing me mercy, he knew I was not breakable. He knew what I wanted. We'd spent all last night slowly making love and I now needed this, the side of him I'd already known. The side of him that crept from the darkness and liked to cause me pain when we had sex. But he'd made me dark too, he'd made me a willing customer to his brand of intimacy. 

"hurt me, fucking hurt me" I beg as I turn my face to the side and he slaps my ass so fucking hard I wail loudly and he groans. The headboard slamming to the wall as he thrusts and then yanks me up by my hips onto all fours, my ass in the air, with my face down as the aggressive slap of his balls against my cunt, and his hips against my ass fill the room and I scream. 

He was so deep, so fucking deep and I turn my face and scream into the bed as I feel my toes curl to the point of breaking as my body Is jerked harshly with each forward thrust of his hips, his cock punishing me and rewarding me at the same time.