EroticReverie

Asher

I smile at the white blonde hair and faded blue ends of Arie's hair fanned over the pillow behind her as her head rests in the crook of my arm. 

It was almost Spring, and soon the little slice of heaven of having her all to myself, the bubble would be burst. The snow was melting, and the trail from here to the house and into town would be more than passable. 

I  know she still misses the others. Westlan and Cade...and my dad. I know that to matter how long we're away from them, she'll always love the three of them too.  We'd made a mess this Winter, and I'm not sure a single one of us could ever regret it. Not even Cade who took Ariella's decision the hardest. I didn't blame my brother for his anger and hurt feelings. We all fell hard for her. I was just the lucky one that got to hold a bit more of her heart. 

I lift my hand slipping my fingers through her hair, into the light brown roots growing in and massaging her scalp lightly. I constantly worried that I wouldn't be enough for her. That the little blue haired firecracker that came into our lives, would forever have too much love to give. That her body wouldnt be sated by just me alone. We'd spoiled her with our love and attention, spoiled her body, giving her everything and anything she wanted and could handle. 

"morning" she mumurs as her body stretches beside mine, her arm thats already laying over my chest, reaches over further and she pulls herself into me. Her soft body, her perfect breasts pressed to my side and my chest as she wiggles herself up slightly and kisses on my neck like she does every morning. The same soft hum as she inhales me.

"love you" she says, just as she does every morning, and just like every other morning, my heart swells in my chest and quit breathing for just a few seconds, when it all feels to surreal that I'm the one that has her, that I'm the one she chose. 

"love you" I answer back my voice a bit more gruff than normal and extra scratchy from sleep. 

She hums at the sound of it, and her mouth trails down, and down, and Ariella Donovan makes good on her promise yet again. To wake me up with a blow job each morning. Sometimes I beat her to it, going down on her, or slipping inside of her before she has the chance , but this morning I just lay back, and I watch as my future wife gives me one of the best blow jobs I've ever had. 

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I return the favor and go down on her until she cums, and then we're both up and out of the bed, pulling on clothes. I start the fire in the fireplace as she puts together breakfast. We sit at the small little nook on the side of the room, sharing silence in the early morning as a soft snow fall takes places outside the window , the sun rising, catching on the snowflakes, her eyes on them as they fall. It's just a small flurry, the other snow is still melting, and that snow that's falling wont be enough to trap us up here for longer. 

"We'll be able to go back soon." I say, drawing her eyes from the window to me. 

The truth was, we could have gone back at anytime. The snowmobiles could have taken us back, the same way they got us here in the first place. But we both knew...my brothers and father knew. We were staying her for the remainder of winter. That me and Ari needed the chance to build our relationship, without the others there in the way. 

"Or we can just stay up here forever." she says, and sips her coffee making me smile. 

"Or that." I say and she returns a soft smile. 

We just look into each other eyes, the time up here, making the silence between us so comfortable, and I dont know how many times we've just laid in bed staring into each others eyes, our connection unbreakable and more strong than it was when we left. 

"you miss them though." I tell her. I see her deflate a little, her shoulders dropping. 

"Of course I do. Don't you?" she says and I give her a small assuring smile and I nod.

"Yeah" I answer. 

"I dont think i'm ready to go back Asher." she says and I nod once.

"alright." I say and she chews her lip.

Ari and me were open and honest with each other. There were days she missed them terribly, days she seems unaffected, and days where she fell in between. And honestly, there were days I missed her being with them too. I just wanted this girl to be loved as much as she could be, and I knew all of us had, and I missed her having that. All of us. But I knew more than anything, we couldn't go back to it. Hearts were already broken, there was no need to do it all again just because our hearts were a bit selfish at times. 

"What do you think they're all doing right now?" she asks and I give  a little smile, rubbing my thum along the warmth of the coffee mug. 

"Dads probably losing his mind....mainly because Westlan is probably bitching about needing to get into town and find himself someone to have sex with.." I say and she doesnt flinch at the idea of him with someone else just just lets out a small little laugh.

"yeah, that's probably true" she says. 

Cade's probably still depressed, but I don't say that. Because I'm not trying to upset her or hurt her feelings. 

"Cade's probably shaving his face..and making a list of all the tattoos he's going to get the second he can get into town." I say and she giggles, because she knows we sometimes teased Cade about his "Baby face". The only one of us Stone men to not have any facial hair. 

"Do you think they miss us?" she asks and my brows pinch.

"You know damn well they miss you princess" I say and she bites her lip, her eyes watering and she looks down. 

"It's okay that you still love them." I assure her. "You always will. There's no reason to be sad." 

Ariella struggled with her feelings constantly. She felt as though I expected her heart to just shut down and shut everyone else out but me, but that's not what I wanted, not what I'd expected. No matter how often I tell her I dont expect her to ever forget this Winter, or to ever lose the feelings she has about all that happened, she still doesnt believe that it's okay for her to still care for them or still miss what took place between all of us. 

"I just hate that anyone had to be hurt." she says her voice cracking. 

"babe...come here." I say, turning in the seat and she gets up, walking around the small table and placing herself in my lap . 

As she does every so often, she cried against my neck as I hold her. Her feelings and emotions to high for her to control, too strong to handle and she falls apart against me. 

I really wasn't sure what was the best idea. Returning and letting her see them again, knowing she missed them and that maybe being around them would help her realize that everything was okay, that lifes werent ruined by the choices we'd all made this Winter. Or if it was better to keep ourselves locked away just a bit longer. I didnt care which we did, as long as it fixed her broken heart. She'd broken the hearts of dad and my brothers, sure...they all loved her, would do anything for her..of course each of us wanted to be the one that would end up with her. But i think she broke her heart the most in all of it. Because she loved all of us too much, her new family. Her lovers. 

It was clear to me that we were all selfish when it came to her. We should have known better than to make ourselves her harem for the Winter. Should have known the choices and decisions we'd all have to make at the end would be too hard if we were all involved. But...she was Ari. It was impossible for us to stay away from her, impossible for us to not want her and love her. 

"I'll do whatever you want to do baby" I tell her as I hold her. "you want to wait...we'll wait...you wanna go back...we'll go back....you just tell me what you want Ari...you know I'll do whatever you need baby" I whisper to her and she cries a little harder. 

"I think it might be good to see them though..." I say. 

"I think you miss them a lot....and not being able to see them...and that they're okay...is just gonna make it harder for you" I tell her and she sniffles and nods.

"Yea" she says quietly. "maybe"