EroticReverie

Fitz Saint

“Let it go man” Devin mutters as I take a drink of beer later that day. We had another set to do tonight and I for the first time ever, didn’t want to get on that fucking stage. None of us have seen the girls since breakfast this morning when I’d let Laney walk away all pissed off. 

If her brother was fucking smart he would have just let them keep the vip passes or stay on the tour bus. She wasn’t going to leave just cause Brock and Gus told her to. While they could take the VIP Passes from the limiting them only to regular grounds , they couldn’t make them leave the festival.  You’d think her brother would rather have her where he could see her. 

Brock also hasn’t said a word to me all day. Not that I really blame him. Laney is his baby sister. She might be nineteen but she’s still his fuckin “kid” sister in his eyes. 

I spend all morning and afternoon trying to tell myself it’s for the best. Tell myself I can’t give Laney what she wants. Watching and listening her drunkenly tell me she loved me the other night after all that shit with the guys from Paraphernalia, I couldn’t stop thinking about it. Of course I loved Laney. She’s been a part of my life ever since I met Brock and the guys. And if I wasn’t such an ass maybe I could be good for her. But Laney is too jealous, it would never work. If I tried to have a relationship with her ,Shed constantly wonder if I was cheating on her , and for good reason. Because I wasn’t even sure I could resist the temptation of gorgeous girls throwing themselves at me. Even if Laney was all I wanted , I was too scared I’d fuck it up. 

You don’t want her like that, I keep telling myself. Shes hot and your horny for her. That’s it. Get over it. But fuck, I liked Laney. She was way too young when I’d first known her. When her brother had shown me her little scribbles of our names. I’d just thought it was cute. I was totally flattered by it, but I’d had no attraction to her like that before. But a small part of me always knew. Once she was older , Laney would be the kind of woman I could see myself with. 

It’s hot as fuck out today and I can feel the sun baking my skin as I walk around in just a pair of worn black ripped jeans. My hair is pulled back with a tie and I’m stopped in my tracks as I spy Laney and her two friends sitting in a grass patch towards the back of the crowd between the stage area and the rides. They’re sitting and laughing , eating food and sipping bottled waters. 

“No man, just leave them be, let’s go” Devin says as he tries to lead me in the other direction back to where we were walking from. I shrug his hand off my arm and keep walking towards them. 

“Fuck” Devin mutters. “Your funeral!” Devin calls as I keep walking. Leaving me to make my own decisions. He doesn’t follow , because he doesn’t want to be involved. And I don’t blame him. There was no point in making Brock pissed at all of us. 

When I’m halfway to the girls Sheena looks right at me and watch her say something that makes Laney turn her head and start to look around. She’s wearing a black bikini top and black shorts with sneakers and her half silver and half black hair is piled in messy little arrangement ontop of her head. She’s leaning back on her hands, those god damn tits of hers looking even hotter than they did naked as the triangle piece of fabric only cover a selected portion of her breasts. Her eyes land on me and she smiles softy and then her face scowls. As if she forgot momentarily that she’s mad at me. 

I keep walking and she looks away as I approach. 

“You guys doing alright?” I ask. Sheena and Flora answer me. But Laney doesn’t. She ignores me like I’m not even there and I take an  un offered seat on the grass next to Laney who is still avoiding my gaze.  She sips from her water as the other two stand. 

“We’ll be back” Flora says and I watch Laney send them a silent glare as if she’s marking them traitors. 

“You really aren’t going to talk to me?” I ask after a few moments of silence as she looks in the opposite direction. 

“I have nothing to say” she says with a shrug and brushes her hands off of from the grass as she sits up straight. 

“Not gonna even look at me?” I ask as I just look at the side of her face. Then down her body as she cries crosses her legs. 

“What’s the point?” She asks and I sigh. 

“Laney” I say her name but she just keeps looking away and out towards the stage. I sigh again and shake my head. 

“I just wanted to make sure you’re alright, after last night” I say and she huffs a little laugh. 

“You could have asked me this morning” she says and I wince. Cause she’s right. All I did was scold her this morning. 

“I was angry Laney.” I say. 

“Yeah. Gathered that.” She says and drinks more of her water and I get lost in how hot she looks with the sun beating down on her skin , and wonder how fucking hot she’s going to look with the tan lines forming on her chest before I shake the thought from my head and focus back on what matters. 

“Listen, you can be pissed at me all you want, I should have handled it better this morning.” I admit. “But I won’t apologize for being pissed.  You did something stupid Laney”

She clenches her jaw and her pretty little pisses of face whips towards me finally and she’s glaring daggers at me. 

“And how many times exactly are you going to remind me of that? I know I was stupid. I was also drunk and mad at you, so fucking get over it. I have “ she says and it’s a lie and I know it and she looks in my eyes and her cute little nose flares as she turns her head away again. 

“Maybe we made a mistake” I say and she rolls her eyes and looks back at me. 

“Sure. How convenient to call me a mistake when it puts a cramp in your easy little rock star life.” 

“I didn’t mean it like that” I stare at her my own jaw clenching. 

“Then say what you mean Fitz” she says and cocks her brow in challenge. 

“I just mean that no matter what I want , what either of us wants, that maybe it’s not what is best for either of us.” I say and she rolls her eyes. 

“Whatever” she shakes her head and looks away again. 

“I fucking want you alright. That much is fucking clear. But I’m not gonna be able to give you what you want” I say. 

“And you think you know what I want ?” She huffs glaring back at me again. 

“You said you loved me Laney” I say and she blinks and then looks away. 

“I was drunk” she answers. 

“So then you didn’t mean it?” I ask and she huffs. 

“Does it matter now? I’m a mistake right?” She says and I want to fucking growl at her. 

“You could never be a mistake Laney. You know what I meant. Quit being a brat.” I bite out and she whips her head at me. 

“Excuse you?” She asks in a high pitched squeak. 

“You fuckin heard me” I say glaring right back at her. 

“You’re an asshole” she seethes. 

“And you’re a brat” I counter again and her hot little mouth tightens and her chest rises as she breathes hard and even though we’re both angry at each other , the tension I’m trying to deny is slapping me right in the face , cause all I want to do is kiss that hot little angry scowl off her pretty face. 

“Fuck you” she she hisses. 

“Fuck you too” I say giving it right back to her. I catch a slight little smirk and then she schools her face and looks away from me as I smirk to myself. Both of us considering that we’re being idiots and that we can be mad all we want. But something is happening between us. 

“God, I want to fucking kiss you” I growl and she inhales and then looks back at me. 

“Pretty sure you shouldn’t. Wouldn’t want you making anymore mistakes Fitz” she says. 

“Youre a pain in the ass” I grumble as I look at her.  

“I can’t promise you anything Laney, the only thing I can promise is that I want to fucking kiss you right now and take you somewhere so I can put my fucking hands on you” I say and she swallows. 

“And what about my brother?” She asks. 

“I don’t fucking care” I say and she licks her lips. 

“So you only want to kiss me? And then what? Regret it later on and call it a mistake when you realize you don’t want me beyond fucking me like a groupie?” She asks and growl at her and then reach my hand up to her face , grabbing her jaw and she gasps as I lean in and bring my noses hers. 

“You know what I want ? I want you. I want you so fucking bad that I haven’t stopped thinking about you all day, and since you showed up the other day. That I want you to be mine. I want to fuck you, yes, but god I fucking want you for more than just that.  But I know I’m not good for you. And I’m afraid I’d fuck it all up. And I know that you deserve someone that won’t have you feeling jealous when you’re not around. Someone that won’t have you worried about if they’re being faithful. And I can promise that Laney , I could offer that to you, but I’m scared I’ll fuck it up somehow and the last thing I want is to hurt you. Because I fucking care about you. And you know I do” I say and her exhale comes out choppy as her breath stutters. 

“I may not have been into you this way before. But I always knew , that you’d end up being the kind of girl I could see myself with.” I say. 

“You don’t mean that. You just want to sleep with me” she exhales and I groan. 

“I do want to sleep with you. I want to fuck you worse than I’ve ever wanted a fucking woman before, but I mean every single thing I said too” I say. 

“I don’t want to fucking hurt you Laney. It’s not about it not being convenient, it’s about the fact I’m fucking trying to be a good guy and be honest with you. That even if I’m a hundred percent faithful, and I know I can be , that you’ll still be jealous , like last night, and if you were to go off and try to fucking piss me off over it”

“I’d never cheat on someone” she scowls at me and pushes my hand from my jaw. 

“And last night was different” she says. 

I sigh. “Tell me what you want then. Tell me what you want me to do or say and I’ll fucking do it”

“I can’t help being jealous” she huffs and I smile softly. 

She scrunches her nose. “Dont fucking smile at me”

But it only makes me smile more. 

“Sorry” I say. 

“If it helps. You getting jealous is hot as hell. Just not the way you handle it.” I say and she glared at me.

“I can handle it any way I want when I’m not with the guy” she argues. 

“Maybe I should have punched the girls like you did Bones?” She quips. 

“Fuck you, don’t say that fucks name” I growl and she bites her lip. 

“I’m sorry.” She says. “For how I handled it”

“And I’m sorry for not making sure you were okay before I went off this morning” I reply. 

She sighs softly. “You’re forgiven” 

“And I’m sorry if we end up hurting each other” I say and she blinks. 

“Why are you so sure that we will?” She asks

I shrug “cause I feel like we’re already off to a bad start”

“We haven’t started anything” she says. 

“Well, I want to” I say and she just looks at me. 

“Do you want me just because you’re not supposed to want me? Because I’m forbidden ?” She asks. 

I shake my head. “I want you because I’m attracted to you. Because maybe I knew deep down I was just waiting on you to be available. Maybe I knew that eventually. When you were older , the girl that scribbled my last name next to hers would end up being someone I could see myself with” I say and she scrunches her nose. 

“Who told you that?” Her cheeks flush. And I feel my mouth curve up on side. 

“Brock did”

“That asshole” she huffs and rolls her eyes. 

“How long have you known then? That I liked you?” She asks and I smile and she flushes even more pink in her cheeks. 

“You must have thought I was a loser” she says and I shake my head. 

“I thought it was adorable. Of course you were way too young then. I had no desire for you like that back then” I say and she nods. 

“I know that” she says. 

“But you were always so sweet Laney. You were always fun to have around. And you’ve always been important to me.”  I tell her and she nods. 

“I didn’t even know I could feel attracted to you till you showed up the other day. You’re not the little girl who scribbles my name next to hers in her notebook anymore” I say and then touch her face and she blushes further. 

“Or are you still writing our names together?” I ask , teasing her. 

She scrunches her nose. “I stopped doing that” she says with a little glare. 

“I wouldn’t mind if you hadn’t” I whisper and bring my face closer. “Laney Ainsley Saint has a nice ring to it” I say and her breath hitches. 

“Maybe I’ll write it for you with my tongue Laney” I whisper and she lets out the softest little sound and I groan. 

“Want me to do that babe?” I nudge her nose and brush my lips over hers. Just hovering them over hers. 

“Write my girls name with mine over her pretty little pussy?” I whisper and she nods her forehead pressed to mine. 

“Then tell me we’re gonna do this Laney, tell me that we’re gonna make the choice to say fuck it and that you’re mine” I whisper. 

“I’ve been yours for four years Fitz” she exhales and I groan and take her mouth. Making it mine and kissing her hard and then soft. Her mouth parting and my tongue slipping between her lips. The fucking taste of her mouth so god damn sweet. 

“Then I’m yours Laney Ainsley” I breathe against her mouth. “I’m yours”