EroticReverie

Shayna Sellars

We all go back to the hotel. The guys order pizza, and Finch, Aamon and Cas, go with Lauren to pick up beer and then the pizza, leaving me with just Rio.

"I'm sorry." Rio says. They've all said it more than once on the way back to the hotel.

"whatever" I say shaking my head. 

"I didn't mean to make you feel stupid." he says.

"didnt you though?" I ask as I kick off my boots and then walk to the bed and lay myself down and curl up onto my side. 

"We were mad for you." Rio says.

I say nothing as I listen to him undo the laces on his boots and then walk over and his weight moves onto the bed and he slips up behind me, hand on him hip, his thumb resting on the sliver of skin between my jeans and hem of my shirt. 

"I swear to god if you try to fuck me right now, I will kill you." I warn him and he slides his hand over my stomach and pulls himself tighter to me, while pulling me into him. 

"You make us crazy....and youve been making us crazy for two years....i cant fucking explain this shit Midnight...I dont know what the fuck it is, but you've got us hooked around your pretty little fingers, and we're all ready to fucking do anything for you...you say jump...we're gonna fucking jump....we werent thinking clearly....we heard someone did something shitty to you...and wanted to fucking pay him back what he deserves." he says and then scoots down a little, tucking his chin onto my shoulder. 

"I'm sorry for not listening to you...for making you upset." he says and kisses my shoulder through my shirt. 

"I think we all just wanted to prove that we're in it. That we're taking this seriously with you. If we just heard that bullshit, and didnt react...would you know how far we're willing to go for you?" he whispers and I swallow. 

"I found out from his wife. She was the one who told me. She showed up at my job. Called me every name in the book.....because he blamed it on me." I say, Rio stays quiet, just listening. 

"He told her that I seduced him. That he'd told me he had a wife." I say, my voice cracking, and a tear rolling down my cheek.  

"He lied to her...made me out to be someone I wasnt...to save himself....his marriage...to save the life he promised me we'd have...but he'd already had it with her.." I say, closing my eyes and remembering how betrayed I felt by him.

"I felt so stupid for falling for him....when he was nothing like the man he pretended to be....all if it was lies...and I bought every single one....not once...not fucking once did I think that he wasnt he man he said he was...no once did I think he was playing me." I say and Rio wraps me tighter in his arm.

"I got fired from my job, because of her...because of him." I say. Rio is still quiet as he lets me talk. 

" I really am over it...but...the thought of you all going in there...me beside you...him thinking I still cared for him, he doesnt deserve to have that fucking ego boost...and it would just make me feel little all over again." 

"I understand." he whispers. "I'm sorry." he says and then is gently turning me onto my back and he props himself up, resting his head on his hand as he gently touches my cheek. 

"I'm sorry Shayna...for what he did....and for not thinking deeper on it, and just wanting to react....even with you screaming it in our faces,....we were fucking assholes..I'm sorry." he says and then strokes my tears away with one knuckle gently. 

"did you love him?" he asks and I shake my head. 

"I thought I did." I admit. "But I think it would have been harder to get over him if I had." I say and he nods and then cups my face. 

"I still want to kick his ass." Rio says and I let out a soft laugh and sniffle.

"I appreciate you all for wanting to defend me...but I dont need you to....at least...not with him." I say.

"but i get to defend you against anyone else who hurts you right?...I get to play bodyguard and over protectie hot headed boyfriend right?" he asks and I feel a small smile on my lips. 

"Maybe...if it truly calls for it." I say and he smiles and then leans down, kissing my nose. 

I reach up to his face and then pulls his face back to mine and kiss him, pushing my lips to his. 

"I changed my mind" I say against his mouth as he kisses me back.

"About what?" he asks, tilting his head, his hand on my face still, his thumb under my chin as he tilts my head back into the pillow and kisses me deeper.

"About killing you...if you try to fuck me right now" I breathe and he grins against my lips. 

"Yeah, it's safe?" he laughs softly. 

I nod. "for now" 

He laughs again. "Guess I'll take my chances."