EroticReverie

Jace

“If you give a shit about her , her mother, or me, you’ll fucking leave and you’ll leave her alone. I trusted you. I fucking trusted you to come here and turn yourself around. And why do you do Jace? You put your hands on Olivia?! Your step sister?! What the hell is wrong with you?!”

My father had lit into me driving me to the airport the next day after finding Olivia in my bed. Olivia was a good girl. He’d made sure to drive that point home. And my father said shit to me that made me feel even worse about falling for her. That even if she wasn’t my step sister, that Olivia deserved better. Better than me. His own son.  He’d made me feel worthless and I’d believed every word. Maybe he was right. Maybe I didn’t deserve here and maybe I still don’t. But I’ve been going fucking crazy.  So I figured out where she was going to college and brought my ass here. I’ve been here for two months. Too damn scared to show up. I was scared she wouldn’t still be mine. I was scared that what I’d get for her wasn’t truly reciprocated from her. That maybe she was over me. I knew I had a lot to make up for. I’d fight with her if that’s what she wanted , but right now I needed to taste her. To have my hands on her. 

“Jace” she whimpers as she stands in the small shower with me on my knees licking and sucking at her clit. Panting and moaning as she grabs my hair and grinds her clit on my mouth. I groan deeply. She’s still mine. She’s fucking pissed, and rightfully so. But Olivia is still mine. 

“Oh god, yes Jace” she moans as I slide two fingers inside of her. Pumping them slowly as I lick her clit. Dragging my tongue over it, around it, up and down and groan as the water  pelts my back and she keeps grinding her clit on my tongue. Her hips moving quicker, her breathing louder as she chases my mouth. 

“Fuck, fuck, I missed you” she cries. “I missed you so much, I hate you” she whimpers and I groan. Curling my fingers and fucking her pussy with them as lash my tongue at her swollen clit. 

“Jace, god, oh god, I hate you, I hate you” she pants and I groan loudly against her pussy as she clenches around my fingers and curses as she cums. I groan at the sound of her breath catching, at the sound of the small scream of release that falls into the air around us as I make her cum. 

“Oh god!” She cries. Legs shaking as I kiss on her clit and her hips twitch and she whimpers as I keep fingering her.  Kissing back up her body and then sucking one nipple. Then the other. Groaning at how much I’ve missed her and her body. 

“You’re mine” I tell her and she whimpers and nods and kiss up her neck. 

“You ever let anyone lay a fuckin finger on you again and I’m going to remove their fucking hands from their body, you’re MINE” I growl in her ear and she pants and her hands grab my sides as she nods. 

“You can hate me…as long as you still love me too” I whisper and draw my fingers out of her pussy and I pull back and look at her. 

“Do you? Still love me?” I ask lifting a brow and taking my two fingers and sucking them clean as she watches and her breath draws in deep and then she exhales shakily. 

“You know I do” she says , her brows pinching and I can tell she doesn’t want to still to love me. She wants to punish me for the way I punished her by disappearing just when I’d made her promise to be mine.  

“Then say it” I say and place my hands on the shower wall , caging her in and hovering in front of her. 

Her mouth parts and she whimpers as I let my hard cock push against her lower stomach and she arches her back. 

“Fuck you” she exhales making me smirk. 

“That’s not very nice” I grin and she scowls. 

“You’re not funny, you fucking HURT me” she glares at me and my smile falls and I Leroy my hands from the wall and to her face. 

I cup her face in my hands. 

“I know. I’m sorry.  But I never stopped caring about you. I know I hurt you. I hurt myself too. Doing what I thought was best. I thought about you everyday, every second.” I say and she just looks at me. 

“Did you fuck other girls?” She asks and my eyes fall. 

“You were pretty comfortable letting that guy touch you, how many guys have-“

“Answer the question!” She yells as the steam fills the small bathroom. 

“Yes.” I answer. 

She clenches her jaw and her nostrils flare. She’s masking the hurt with the anger. 

“How many?” She asks. 

“Olive” I say and she shakes her head and shoves my chest a bit to get me to stop touching her and crowding her. 

“How many?!” She yells at me. 

“I don’t know. I fucked every girl I could get my fucking hands on. I fucked every single girl that wasn’t you!” I raise my voice making her head jerk back. 

“I hope you had fun. I hope you enjoyed yourself.” She says through gritted teeth. 

“I didn’t” I growl through my teeth. 

“Did they make you cum?” She asks , her eyes fierce and her chin lifting. 

My nostrils flare. “Some of them.” I answer her question. Unsure of why she wants to torture herself with specifics. But I know better than to not answer her questions. For whatever fucking reason. She needs to know. 

“Good for you.” She hisses and I glare at her. 

“Are you done?” I ask her and she lifts her hand and slaps me across the face. She flinches harder than I do. 

“Fuck you” she cries and pushes at me. 

“Get out, get the fuck out!” She screams and then is pushing out of the shower. Dripping wet as I call for her and she’s already out of the bathroom and slamming another door shut. She left without her clothes or a towel. I grab a towel, throwing it around my waist and going to the door of her room. Hoping her roommates aren’t already back and hoping if they aren’t, that they don’t come back to find a half naked man , dripping water in their hall as I plead to Olivia to open her fucking door. It’s locked. My hand turning the knob again and again as I pound on the door. 

“Get the fuck out!” She screams at me and I can tell she’s right on the other side of the door. 

“You don’t love me! Not the way I love you!” She screams and she’s sobbing now as she yells at me through her door. 

“Because I tried! I tried to reach you! And I fucking tried to erase you from my fucking memory when I knew you weren’t coming back! I tried to fuck other guys! I tried to give myself to them , just so I could fucking breathe again! And I couldn’t! I couldn’t let them do anything to me that you hadn’t already done! You fucking ruined me! None of them! None of them could touch me the way you could! NONE OF THEM!” She shrieks as she cries and my heart twists in my chest. 

“Because I fucking loved you! Because I still do! I couldn’t get off with them, I couldn’t enjoy anything they fucking did!” She cries. “Because they weren’t you!” She yells and slaps the door. 

“I fucking hate you!” She cries. “I fucking hate you! Fuck you! Fuck you for coming back here! Just go! Just fucking go!” She cries louder and then slaps the door and I hear her fall to the floor on the other side of the door. 

“Olive…..” I say gently. My throat tight and a fucking boulder in my throat as I choke on my emotions. 

“Please…open the door”

“No” she cries. 

“Let me hold you. Please.” I say softly and she cries with no response. 

“Youre the only good thing that’s ever happened to me.” I say to her, talking to the fucking door. 

“I can’t take it back. If I could, I would. But I can’t. All I can do is be here now, and I’m not going anywhere this time. I can’t stand that I hurt you. And I want you to be mad. I know I deserve it. But you have to know that I love you Olivia. I started falling for you the second I saw you. You took my fucking breath away, and I still…can’t fucking breathe.” I say and listen to her sniffle as she listens to me. 

“I fucked other girls. Because they weren’t you. Because I tried to tell myself I needed to get over you. Because I was a fucking idiot for thinking it would even be possible.  I thought if I  could just find someone who made me feel even half of what I felt when I kissed you…that’s I’d be okay. But I felt nothing. I haven’t felt anything at all since the day my father drove me to the fucking airport.  You’re mine Olive. And I want to be yours. I only ever want to be yours. I fucking miss you. So god damn much. So be mad at me. But just let me hold you. Please”

“I need to fucking hold you baby” I say softly. 

I wait and I listen. A minute goes by as I lay my forehead on the door. 

“Olivia. Please.” I beg. 

“I’ll do anything baby. I’ll stand here all night. All day tomorrow. I’ll stand here till you let me in. Let me in Olivia. Please.”

I hear her shuffle and stand and then hear the door unlock and sigh with relief as she opens the door. Her lower lip trembling. 

Immediately I step inside so she can’t change her mind and lock me out and I pull her into me. Wrapping her in my arms. 

“I love you” I say and kiss her cheek. Then grab her chin and lift it slightly and kiss her mouth and she cries and I take her cheeks and wipe them with my thumbs and kiss one and then the other. Closing the door behind me with my foot and then kissing her again. 

“I’ll never hurt you again. I’ll never fuck up again. I promise. I’ll do whatever you tell me to do to make it right. Let me try to make it right.” I whisper to her as I look in her tear filled eyes and she nods. 

“I’ll do anything for you” I tell her and kiss her again. 

“I’ll let you slap me as much as you want if it make you feel better” 

“It doesn’t” she wince and shakes her head and cries some more and I smile softly to myself as she looks down. 

“I’m sorry I hit you” 

“Dont be. I definitely had at least one good one coming. I deserved it.” I say and she lifts her eyes. 

“I hate you” she says her voice trembling and her lip quivering as she sniffs. 

“I know. That’s okay. I hate me too.” I say and kiss her mouth. Olivia whimpers and wraps her arms around me and buries her face in my neck as I slip my hands around her waist and gently push her back towards the bed. 

“Lay with me” I whisper to her and gently, then take my towel and dry her off and then myself. 

“You can’t leave me again” she says as I lay her down and pull the covers over us. 

“I really can’t.” I say. “There’s no way I can leave you again Olive. Nothing is keeping me from you ever again. I promise” I say and pull her into me.