EroticReverie

Hudson Holliday

“Fuck, you smell like gingerbread” I groan as I push open my door with her legs and arms around me, her hot fucking body squirming all over me and her sweet mouth kissing on mine as I grow painfully fucking hard. 

I had to be in a fucking dream. The girl I let get away was in my fucking arms , kissing me like those four years never happened. 

The night I kissed her at my brother birthday party, I’d fallen for her. She was the most beautiful fucking girl I’d ever seen and I’d seen her around a few times before that but that night. My god she was so fucking gorgeous it took my breath away. She’d been a bit young. Only being eighteen , but nothing could stop me. I’d seen her and it was love at first sight. Then kissing her? My fucking good she had the softest lips and she kissed so fucking slow and sweet and that kiss had me so fucking hard. 

When she’d told me the next day I was her first kiss , she’d also told me she was a virgin. I didn’t make a big deal about it. Because it wasn’t. Did it add a bit of intrigue? Sure. But I didn’t see it as a challenge or anything. Her virginity didn’t make my dick ache. She did that with her flirty little smiles and hot little mouth stealing kisses left and right. For two fucking months I stayed hard. Every fucking day. I spent hours with my cock hard for Sydney Snow. We spent everyday together and maybe I was a fucking bastard for waiting till the clock ran out to tell her I was leaving. Something I’d known the entire time I was with her. I’d been selfish. I’d been in love and just wanted to fucking have her company and her adoration without the threat of it all ending looming behind every kiss. Or maybe I was afraid she’d save her heart the trouble and not get involved with someone she knew was leaving. The fact that the connection is not only still there , it feels like those years apart have multiplied how god damn bad I need her. 

Still a virgin. Fuck. Maybe back then her virginity didn’t do anything to turn me on, but knowing she’d dated other guys after I left and none of them got to have her. Yeah. That turned me on. Maybe it makes me a fuck boy, or a fuck man to have my cock leaking precum over the fact she’s still a virgin. But I don’t care. It’s hot as fuck that’s she’s still never had sex. Especially when I know what a horny little thing she is. God. I’d never had my dick dry humped so fucking much in my life than I did in the two months I was with her. And no ducking complaints here.I’d gladly spend the rest of my life with nothing else but Sydney Snow rubbing her horny little body against me. 

“Youre never kissing anyone else but me ever again Snowflake” I groan against her sexy fucking mouth. 

“Hudson” she pants on my mouth and I groan. Sitting on the edge of the bed. Letting her kneel on my lap as she holds my face and kisses me. Her warm pussy , pushing against my dick through the thin fabric of her leggings and the thin fabric of my plaid pajama pants. 

She moans with the little fucking whimper I’ve tried to reply in my head for the past four years everytime I beat my fucking cock to the memory of her. 

“Fuck, that’s my favorite sound” I groan as I grab her ass and pull her harder against me and her mouth parts as she gasps. 

“Hudson” she breathes as her horny little fucking pussy eats that shit up. 

“Yeah, this is your favorite seat , isn’t it Snowflake?” I groan and then dip my head down and kiss her jaw line and reach up with one hand. Pulling at the neck of her turtle neck and kissing on her neck.

“Take your pants off Snowflake, I want nothing but your panties and my pajamas pants between me and your hot little pussy” 

She whimpers and shake her head and I don’t argue. Because I’d never make her do anything or try to talk her into doing anything she didn’t want to do. 

“Fuck, you smell so good” I groan. Inhaling the smell of her gingerbread soap or lotion or whatever the hell it was that made her smell like a fucking Christmas cookie. 

I wanted to take her clothes off. I wanted her naked and wanted my tongue buried inside of her and then my cock. I’ve never wanted anyone the way I fucking wanted her now and back then.  

“Your dick is so hard” she whimpers as her head goes back and her leggings brush hard over my groin and that warmth between her legs teases my fucking dick. 

“I’m not trying to fuck you I swear, but god, I want your fucking pussy Snowflake, I want it so fucking bad” 

“Hudson” she gasps as she keeps grinding and panting looking like the hottest fucking little Christmas gift in her thick red cableknit sweater. 

“Fuck, you’re still the prettiest damn thing I’ve ever seen” I groan as I look at her and her mouth parts and she whines as she grabs my face and lifts up and kisses me again. I grab her hips. Pushing her warm cunt back down on my dick where she belongs and curse my back and dip my mouth back down to hers as she whimpers. 

“I’m so wet” she whimpers against my lips and I clench my jaw. Breathing hard and pushing my forehead to hers.  Apparently Sydney Snow has gotten a little more vocal than she was at eighteen. 

“Fuck baby” I groan. “Have a little fucking mercy on me. Don’t say that to me” 

“But I am” she moans. “My pussy is so fucking wet Hudson” 

I was going to die.  I was going to die with my dick harder than ever and never knowing what it felt like to have it inside of the one girl who had always made it so fucking hard that it hurt. 

“Where’d you get that dirty little mouth?” I groan and kiss her. 

She moans. “You don’t like it?” 

“It’s gonna fucking kill me, I love it” I admit and she moans. 

“Put your hands on me, I want your hands on my body” she moans. 

“Tell me where” I say. Always afraid of crossing a line. 

“You know where I want them Hudson” she says and I groan and drop my hands onto her breasts and nearly cum as I get to feel them again. It didn’t matter that her bulky fucking sweater was between my hands and her tits. The fact I got to touch her at all was a fucking blessing. 

“I never thought I’d get to touch you ever again” I groan and squeeze her tits through her sweater. “God you fit so fucking good in my hands Snowflake” 

She moans and then slips her hands into my hair and grinds me harder.  I curse and she bites her lower lip. 

“Nobody’s hands fit my body like yours do” she moans and I’m so fucking hard for her I could cry. I could fucking weep hearing her tell me that while rubbing her horny cunt all over my tortured cock. 

“They fit you perfect, don’t they baby?” I groan as I keep her tits in my hands and grab them harder and massaging them with my hands and she nods. 

“They fit all of you so fucking good” I groan and slide my hands to her sides and down the curve of her waist and over her hip and down to her ass. Grabbing that too before sliding them over her thighs and grabbing those next. 

“This body was made for my fucking hands Snowflake”

“I haven’t forgotten a single inch of this fucking body or how good it feels to touch you” 

“Hudson” she moans and I know she’s about to cum. 

“Im sorry for fucking it all up Snowflake, but there wasn’t a single day, not a single fucking minute in the past four years that I didn’t think of you”

“Hudson” she cries. Her eyes watering. 

“I should’ve done better, I should’ve said it then Snowflake, but I fell in love with you that night at the party and never stopped, I still love you, god I fucking love you” I groan as she cries out. Her hips rolling and bucking against me as she cums, and the second her orgasm hits her. Mine follows. My cum making a mess inside of my flannel pajama pants. My toes curling in the fucking reindeer slipper i never took off. 

God damn. God fucking damn. I haven’t cum like that in four fucking years. My cock throbbing and spurts of cum still spilling for the tip and creating wet stains in my pants as she slowly stops and breathes hard , panting. Catching her breath. Her hands in my hair fall away and I look at her. 

Fuck. No. No. 

She turns her head and pushes slowly off my lap. Silent tears streaming down her cheeks. Fuck. No.  

“Snowflake?” I ask softly as my hands reach for her. She pushes them away gently as she removes herself from my lap. Her face flushed from her orgasm and she swipes at her cheeks and takes a deep breath to keep anymore from escaping. 

“We …I can’t….I shouldn’t have let this happen…”

“Snowflake” I whisper. My heart in my fucking ass and a knot in my throat. 

I’ve never seen her cry. And god. I fucking hated it more than anything in the world. 

“This…I can’t do this again Hudson” she says. Her voice wavering and ready to crack. She takes another breath. 

“Snowflake don’t ..we should talk..we should..”

“You left me.” She says. And fuck my heart shatters hearing her voice crack with those words. More tears slipping. 

“Snowflake-“

“Dont, don’t call me that anymore” she shakes her head and it feels like a knife is being twisted in my chest. 

“You’ll be leaving at the end of the week…going back to work…and where does that leave me Hudson? Alone. Again. I can’t.  I can’t do this to myself. Not when I …”

“I love you” I say. Because it’s true and it’s all I’ve got. 

She doesn’t say it back. And I don’t expect her to. And don’t need her too when I know she still loves me. 

“I understand why you married her. I get it. But if you loved me. You’d have told me. You wouldn’t have let me go four years thinking that I wasn’t enough for you” 

“What?” I ask , god I was going to throw up. 

“How could you even think that? You were everything Snowflake, you ARE every-“

“I said stop calling me that!” She cries and I wince. 

“I’m sorry.  I’m sorry for everything I did and didn’t do.  For everything I should’ve said and didn’t. I never meant to make you feel like you weren’t enough for me. You were all I wanted. All I’ve ever wanted since we met”

She shakes her head. “Then you should have said something. Four years ago when you broke my heart” she says and fuck. That’s the final blow. My heart shatters into a million pieces. 

“Sydney. Please, I can’t lose you again” I say shaking my head. 

She shrugs. “We’ll I can’t let myself keep falling for a man that cared more about getting someone’s niece a green card than he did about my feelings.”

Ouch. 

She winces. 

“You might have been doing something good for her. And I’m not mad about the marriage now. I’m mad that you didn’t think I was owed any explanation whatsoever. I’m mad that for four years I missed you even when I thought you didn’t love me. I’m mad at you Hudson. I’m so fucking mad at you. I shouldn’t have come here. If I had known…I wouldn’t have. And should’ve left as soon as I knew you’d possibly be here” 

“Sydney..” I say. My own voice cracking. 

“I should go. I’ll have Jeeves-“

“No” I say making her head lift and her tear filled eyes look at me. 

“I won’t….I won’t bother you…..just….god….don’t fucking go Sydney” I say and she looks away again. 

“Sleep on it. If you still want to go. Then I’ll  be the one to leave.”

She rolls her watery eyes and swipes

Her cheeks. 

“It’s Christmas. And it’s your family. I’m not letting you leave because of me” she says. 

“Can we just…talk ?” I ask her and she shakes her head. 

“There’s nothing to talk ab-“

“Don’t say that” I cut her off. “There’s everything to talk about.”

“I don’t want to.”

She says simply and a bit coldly. And fuck. I deserve it. But I hate it. 

“I know you don’t want to talk. But I’m hoping you’ll change your mind Sno-..Sydney. If you don’t. Then I’ll….I won’t push. I’ve never pushed you to do anything. “ I say and she nods once. 

“I just….I need some space.  I…I got caught up …I’m sorry…I shouldn’t have done any of what we just did and I should t have let it happen” she says and I shake my head. 

“I’d do it again in a heartbeat Syd.” I say and her eyes lift to mine and it’s there. I fucking feel it. And we’re both seconds away from mauling each other once again before she shuts that shit down and looks away from me. 

“I need to ..go” she says. 

“Don’t leave” I say and she shrugs. 

“I can’t anyways. Nikki would kill me.” She says and then turns and leaves me in my bedroom. And even though I hate that I hurt her. Hate that she’s gone four fucking years thinking that I didn’t love her and knowing it’s all my fucking fault. My cock is still fucking hard and the scent of her still lingers on my fucking clothes and I shove my pants down and grab my cum covered dick and stroke it till I finish again.