EroticReverie

Kitty

I don’t tell Royce about any of the shit Natalie “whispered” under her breath during class. 

“What does he see in …that” she’d huffed as if I wasn’t a person , as if I was some fucking disgusting rabid animal. 

“His parents will lose their shit, there’s no way THAT is gonna be allowed to date Royce.”

“Probably just using him for his money”

“Probably hoping he’ll get her pregnant so she has a meal ticket, but she’ll end up a single mother white trash piece of shit just like her own mother” 

“You gonna make your kids take care of their siblings to Kitty?” She tainted me directly. 

I could have gotten up and punched her right in the fucking mouth for the things she said about my mother. But it’s only get me into trouble and her cruel fucking words did exactly as she intended them too and ate away at my insecurities that I wasn’t good enough for Royce. I’d grabbed my shit and my teacher has yelled at me as I flew out the door and out of class, asking where I was going. Oblivious to the bullshit that was being said to me. 

We go to Royce’s house instead of my own, his father is at work, his mother in the hospital still and he feeds me lunch because I hadn’t eaten mine today. The stares and whispers had made me too nauseous and nervous. 

Then we go to the pool and Royce kisses me as he undresses me. Leaving me in only my black bra and panties. 

“Get in the water baby” he smiles and I shake my head and wrap my arms around him and press myself to his bare chest , his boxers already rented and he grabs my ass and lifts me and Carrie’s me down the steps and into the water. 

Nothing else mattered when I was with him. It never had. I felt good when I was with him. He’d always been my escape and now he was so much more than that. He’s everything. 

“Fuck me” I pant against his mouth as our kissing grows rougher and more passionate. Our tongues going deeper in each other’s mouths and my body writhing against him. 

“Yeah?” He groans. “In the water?” 

I nod. 

“It’ll hurt” he whispers. “I don’t want to hurt you” 

“Yes you do, fuck me Royce” I moan and he groans. 

“Fuck me hard like you did the first time, use me like you used to” I pant and he stops.

“I never used you” his brows pinch and I whimper.

“You know what I mean” I argue and he shakes his head. 

“Don’t think I do Kitty” he says and then stops and pulls away. 

“Stop, come here” I say and pull him back to me and wrap my legs around him. 

“Fuck me like your dirty little secret” I say and again. It’s the wrong thing to fucking say. 

“Jesus Kit” he growls.  “You were the one that always wanted it a secret. Not me” 

He’s right. I never let him in. I was the one that told him it was just sex. I was the one that felt not good enough to considered more than a body for him to use to get off. 

“Please” I beg. “I need you to fuck me”

“No” he says and then is pushing me off him and tears sting my eyes. 

“Royce” I plead and he shakes his head. 

“Maybe we should hold off on sex till you realize it’s not why I fucking want you Kitty”

“No” I whine and shake my head. 

“I really don’t know what to do sometimes Kitty, I’m so fucking into you , but you’re always gonna make yourself feel like you’re not good enough or some shit”

“Because I’m not!” I yell and slap the water like a petulant child. 

He glares at me. 

“Yes. You are.” He grits through his teeth as he flowers at me. 

“I’m not good enough and everyone knows it!”I say as my lips trembles and tears fill my eyes. 

“Fuck that. Is this about whatever Natalie said to you?” He says and grabs me by the arm and pulls me to him and slips his hand under my chin and lifts it.

“I’m not good enough for you Royce” I cry , and fuck Natalie. Fuck everyone for making me feel this way. I know all I should care about it what he thinks. But it’s hard not to when being his girlfriend makes me the center of their cute attention. 

“I told you not to listen to what they say” he says and kisses my lips. 

“That’s easy for you to say! You’re the golden boy, you’re not the one they’re calling a gold digger or white trash, you’re not the one that they’re focusing on, you don’t get it” I shake my head and he grabs my jaw and kisses me. 

“Tell me who I need to take care of. Is it just Natalie? Who else bothered you today? I’ll fucking handle it.” He growls through his teeth and I shake my head. 

“They’re right though, your dad won’t let you be with me, not when you’ve got so much going for you, he won’t let you be with the girl who’s mother can’t even afford to keep the lights on half of the time”

“My dad , and everyone else, doesn’t get a say in who I love Kitty. I don’t give a fuck about what anyone else expects. You’ve been the only person that makes me happy. You are so important to me, don’t you fucking see that? You’ve always been my happiness.” He says and I feel my chin wobble and my tears slip down my cheeks. 

“It doesn’t mean I’m what’s best for you, you deserve better than -“

“Stop, please” he shakes his head and kisses me. Both hands cupping my face. 

“I can’t handle listening to you say you’re not good enough for me, because you’re so fucking perfect for me Kitty, I’m in love with you, nothing else matters. Fuck how much money I have , fuck how much you don’t have, fuck our stations in life or the shit that doesn’t even fucking matter , you’re mine, I’m yours , you love me, right?” 

I close my eyes and nod. “So much” I choke the words out. 

“Then what the fuck else matters other than that? Huh? Why give a fuck about anyone or anything else if this is what we both want?” 

“People are gonna talk shit, let them. I’ll take care of every single person that has shit to say about us being together. It’s highschool Kitty, they’re all fucking morons alright?” He asks and I half laugh and half cry. 

“I love you, and I’m already planning the rest of  our lives in my fucking head , I’ve even got the white picket fence planned for us Kitty, let me fucking give it to you, let me just fucking love you the way you’re meant to be loved , and don’t let anyone else ruin that for you. You deserve to be so fucking happy. And I want to be the guy who makes you happy. So can I fucking do that ?” He says and kisses me and I whimper. 

“Hmm, can I do that baby?” He whispers and kisses the corner of my mouth and to my ear as I nod.

“Yes” I answer. 

“I know that you’re gonna get shit more than I will from people, and I’m sorry I didn’t consider it more when wanting to go public today, but fuck, you’re mine, finally , and I selfishly wanted everyone to fucking know it , I’m proud to have you be my fucking girl Kitty, so fucking proud, you have no fuckin idea how proud I am that I get to call you mine”