EroticReverie

Jax 

I watch Jade as she dotes on my workers. Walking around with the box of pizza, putting more slices onto their plates even when they assure her they’ve had plenty. She brings new bottles of water to the guys who have already finished their other. All of them thanking her again and again. She’s so fucking sweet. How can her parents not adore her the way everyone else does? How could she be as perfect as she is with parents like hers? I guess it had a lot to do with George and Lizzie, they’re the ones that truly raised her , so it makes sense she’s as kind as they are. 

I’m so fucking attracted to her. More than I ever have been to anyone else. At first it was that body, that gorgeous face and her sarcastic attitude. But seeing her constantly want to befriend my guys , to take care of them, feed them and make them feel important. That’s what has me falling in love with her. Her heart. 

I probably wasn’t going to last until her birthday. It’s been just a few days of getting to know her , but it feels right. Her being mine. Me being hers. I feel myself smiling as I drink my water and watch her make one of the guys nervous as she places a casual hand on his shoulder while she talks to him. Brian’s eyes find mine and go wide and I just give a little laugh. 

I kiss her once lunch is over. And I do it in front of the guys without even thinking.  But it already feels like second nature, kissing her mouth. I give the guys a look as a few looks at me with raised brows and questioning stares. They know better than to ask me about her. 

“Get to work” I grumble and then walk off to get back to work myself. 

And I spend the entire afternoon thinking about Jade. How the tip of my dick was inside her. I think about how on earth I managed to not sink into her when she felt so fucking right wrapped around me. I spend the afternoon thinking about her with Leo. How my best friend knew what my girl felt like , had fucked her when he knew how much I liked her and was trying to wait with her. 

I was still pissed. Still didn’t want to fucking hash out what happened with him. It’s partially my fault though, what happened. I should’ve never had her naked in that pool with me Leo and Pix. When she’d all but told me how badly she needed sex. How much she’d been trying to get me to have sex with her. I was supposed to be looking out for her, but needed up putting her in a position that made it all the more difficult for her to say no. 

I think about her and Pix together. How fucking hot she looked getting eaten out by Pix and fingered. And how hot she looked returning the favor.  I think about how I shouldn’t have allowed that either. But was too damn turned on by them together to say no or to stop it. Then watching her suck Leo off. God she looked so good. That mouth was magic and I have to admit I enjoyed watching Leo experience her mouth. But I hadn’t wanted him to fuck her. He knew that. And he fucking did it anyways. I should’ve known he was going to the second they drifted away into the grotto area of the pool. 

Pix stops by where I’m working before she leaves to beg me to talk to Leo tonight. She doesn’t bother making excuses for her boyfriend , just begs me to talk to him about it. I just give her a kiss on the forehead and tell her I will talk to him when I’m ready. I’ve ignored his calls and texts all night and morning since it happened. 

Pix leaves for the day and I’m still working long after I’ve sent the men home. Working out my frustrations with my tools. Sweating my ass off and clenching my jaw as I keep picturing Leo with her. 

“Aren’t you tired?” Her voice interrupts my rage and I lift my arm. Wiping sweat as she stands to the side of me in a yellow bikini. 

“Come swim with me.” She says as she walks over. As if she’s reading my thoughts. Knowing I’m thinking about her and Leo. 

“Youre angry” she says and walks closer and I move over, grabbing her gently and stepping her back away from the work area. 

“You shouldn’t be barefoot over here. There’s nails and shit on the ground.” I say and she smiles softly.

“Well I want to be near you” she says and I smile softly at her. Letting my rage over Leo dissipate as I push her back a few more feet and into the grass. 

“I’m falling in love with you.” I say and she parts her mouth, eyes going wide. 

“Think I already am.” I say and she sucks in a breath. I know she doesn’t want to hear it. I almost said the words the other night and she stopped me. 

“Jax” she says softly and I shake my head. 

“It’s okay if you’re not on the same page yet Giada, I’m not saying it for reciprocation. I’m saying it so that you know how easy you’ve made it to love you.” I say and she swallows as she looks up at me. 

“You shouldn’t love me” she says quietly. 

“Nice try. Too late.” I say and then grabs her gorgeous face in my hands and lean down and place a soft kiss on her mouth and hold my sweaty forehead to hers as I take a deep breath. 

“Youre so fucking beautiful, but that’s not why I love you” I tell her and her breath hitches. 

“I love you because you care about people the same way I do…I love how kind you are to my guys…I love how you do things for them…how you care about George and Lizzie and everyone else that works here. I love the way everyone adores you because you’re too damn sweet not to” I say and kiss her again. 

“I love you baby” I tell her. “Whether you want me to or not, i fucking love you”

“I…” she pauses and I just kiss her. 

“You don’t have to say anything Jade. Trust me. You really don’t. I’m just being honest with you. And I love you. And I want you to know it. Doesn’t matter to me if you don’t love me yet.”

“Jax” she breathes. 

“Shh” I whisper and shake my head. “You have every right to be scared , or unsure, or whatever else it is…I’m not gonna push you Jade…and I can slow down the physically stuff we do as much as I possibly can…but I can’t slow down how fast I’m falling in love with you.”

“But…I…What I did with Leo..” she winces. 

“Doesn’t matter. We’re not dwelling on that when we both know that I should’ve never put you in the position that I did. It’s just as much my fault as it is his.” 

“Mine too” she says and I shake my head. 

“Not your fault” I say and she sighs. 

“I’m serious. You’re vulnerable and you’ve got…shit to work out…I’m not gonna hold it against you Jade…I’m not mad at you, not even a little bit. I love you. And I’m not going anywhere.” I say and her eyes water. 

“I don’t deserve you” she says with tears slipping down her cheeks. I swipe my thumb over them. Kiss one cheek. Then the other 

“You deserve everything baby” I whisper. “And I’m gonna be the one that helps you learn that.”

“You deserve love Jade Giada, and I’m gonna give you every bit of mine” I say and she sniffles and her lower lip quivers. 

I brush my thumb over her lip. 

“No crying. Let’s get in the pool.” I say trying to relax her and steer the seriousness in a different direction. She nods and I smile and kiss her again. 

I strip down to my boxers and get in the pool with her. Pulling her to me and her legs wrap around me and her arms around my neck as she just rests her head on my shoulder near my neck. 

“I’m sorry for over reacting earlier…in the closet” she says. And I rub her back and kiss her head. 

“No apology is necessary. I went too far and it wasn’t fair to you.” I say and she sighs. 

“Stop letting me get away with everything. Just cause I’m…just cause I have…just cause I can’t say no to sex…and have a problem…doesn’t mean I shouldn’t be held accountable for my actions.” She says. 

I disagree. But I don’t say that. I don’t tell her she’s still only seventeen and still has a lot of stuff to figure out. It’ll only upset her. So I just hold her against me and dip us down further into the water in the shallow end and move my feet against the floor as I walk low in the water , slowly moving us to the side of the pool.  

She lifts her head as I back her up against the edge and place my hands on the cement outside the pool as we look at each other. 

“If you think it’s a good idea….maybe we should …go all the way tonight” I say and her eyes widen. 

“What?” She exhales. 

“Would it help you?” I ask. 

“I…I don’t know” she answers. 

“You want to wait” she says. 

“I want to make you happy.” I say and she shakes her head. 

“I don’t think we should” she says and I feel a bit of relief. Because I wanted to wait. Maybe not the entire two months. But I wanted to wait to make love to her. But I’d give her what she wants and needs if it meant it would help her. If it meant she was happier. 

“If you need me….I’ll give you what you need. Just tell me. And not in the heat of the moment. Because I want you to be sure. But I just want to take care of you.” I say and she nods. 

“And I want to take care of you too, and I don’t want only my needs to be the ones being considered. Yours are important too. And if you need to wait….then I want to wait. It’s just. Hard.” She says and I nod. 

“I want you. All of you. I’m all in Jade Giada. I’m in love with you and I’m sure you’re what I want. What I need. The reason I want to wait is because I want to be more to you than just a fix.”

She winces. “You’re not a fix” 

“Sorry. I didn’t mean it to sound like that. I just…I want to be everything to you. Not just sex.” I say softly and kiss her. 

“You’re not just sex” she says and kisses me back. “I want this. Us.” She whispers and kisses me again. 

“I’ve never wanted anything the way I want us to be together” she says and I groan , lifting her higher so my dick growing hard doesn’t press against her. 

“Me either baby” I say quietly and she kisses me again. And again. Our mouths parting and our tongues moving as she moans into my mouth and I groan and lift my hand into her hair and gently pull. Guiding her head back and I groan as my mouth slips down her neck and kisses her softly and slowly. 

“Youre so fuckin sweet baby” I groan. Unable to get over how much I adore her. “I’m gonna be so fucking good to you”