EroticReverie

Caine Copeland

I groan against her pussy, the pussy I've spent several fucking weeks needing on my tongue. Did I want to fuck Leona? Of course , but would I? I wasn't sure. Not only was she a virgin, but she was so god damn vulnerable, and at times I hated myself for the way I continued to mess around with her. Could I see myself making her mine? Making her my girl? Of course. But should I? When she's seventeen and just recently lost both of her parents and had yet to have any experiences other than the ones she let me share with her when we were alone? I didn't want to get into deep with her, because I was already pretty sure, I was falling in love with her. I loved her being here, she was cute as fuck and sweet as hell, and she was nice to talk to. I know I pushed her to talk about her parents, but I liked being that person for her. The person she could cry in front of, or say what was on her mind. From the instant she showed up here, I was automatically protective of her, we all were. Even Cillian, and Connor who were rarely ever around. I heard them asking about her at random times, all of my brothers making sure nobody was fucking around and giving her trouble in school. What the fuck would they think if they found out, I'd been secretly making out with her? It felt wrong at times, but I couldnt stop myself. 

Normally I'd be sexually frustrated at this point, not getting any. But I surprise myself everyday, because the first thing I think about, isnt having sex with her, or even kissing her, it's making sure she's okay. Texting her first thing when I wake up to make sure school is going alright, texting her throughout the day and checking in with her. I havent touched another girl since the night she kissed me. And surprisingly, I havent even wanted to. The fun part about being single, was I could kiss whoeever, fuck whoever, whenever I wanted to. But I found myself wanting to spend time with Leona, wanting more of those fucking sweet kisses she gives me, or the blush of her cheeks when I call her pretty girl, or sweet girl. I shouldnt have begged just now to taste her, I should have let her be the one to initiate it, but god, I just want to make her feel good, and I want to take care of her, in, every fucking way. 

"Caine!" she gasps as my fingers tug her panties to the side and my tongue draws up through her pussy lips. Fucking. Incredible. 

"God , you taste sweet" I groan as I lap at her pussy again, tongue dragging slowly. I wanted to drown in pussy. I wanted the wetness currently coating my tongue and my chin to fucking drench me like it currently was. My mouth shoving to her pussy, my mouth parting as I suck at her wet cunt, her clit, my mouth all fucking over her, my tongue going fucking wild. My cock throbbing, more than ever as I fucking taste, the best fucking pussy I've ever had in my life. 

"oh..god" she pants and whimpers, her hips shaking slightly as she keeps gasping with each lick of my tongue. 

"do you want me to stop?" I groan, checking with her, making sure Im not totally crossing a line she doesnt at least want to tip toe on. 

"n-no" she she breathes, fucking trembling. Her hands grabbing the headboard and I groan as I look up at her. 

"take these panties off baby" I groan as I grab the back of them, and pull them down. She shifts, moving from over me and then I shift and pull them down her legs as she sits on her ass. Her legs quivering and she whimpers as I toss them to the side. 

"are you sure you're alright? You're shaking Leona" I say, and let my hand gently graze the side of her leg. 

"we don't have to do this..." I tell her. But god, I fucking wanted to keep tasting her. 

"If you want me to stop, just say it...I'm not going to get upset Leona...trust me...you trust me don't you?" I ask, wondering if she was too nervous to say no after I'd begged her not to tell me no. 

"I know I told you not to tell me no...but you get to say no....whenever you want to Leona...it doesnt matter where we are, or what were doing...you can always tell me no...i dont want you to be uncomfortable" I tell her and then lean over her as she looks up at me. 

"I don't want you to stop...but i..." she looks away and bites her lip. 

"Pretty girl" I say softly. "Look at me." 

Her eyes come back to mine. 

"Talk to me." I say gently as I hold her cheek and stroke her hair behind her ear. 

"Can't we just...keep going?" she asks and I smile softly. 

"As soon as you tell me what's going on in your head, cause you seem nervous, and I dont want to keep going if you're not enjoying it." I say. 

"I am enjoying it." she says and I nod.

"But?" I ask as I cock my head, my mouth watering for more of her, but I couldnt in good conscience keep going when she was visibly not a hundred percent on board. 

"I slept in your bed last night." she says. I nod. 

"yeah you did" I smile, but then it fade to a slight frown.

"Did you not like sleeping with me?" I ask. 

"I did." she says and I let out a sigh of reilief.

"But...it's confusing....I don't want to be......I don't want to get my heartbroken at the end Caine...I know im just.....that were just....having fun i guess....I know that you're still seeing your girl friends probably and -"

"Hey...wait a second" I stop her, my voice remaining soft and she looks at me. 

"Leona...I dont know what you think i've been doing....but I haven't touched anyone since we kissed that night." I say. Her eyes are visibly shocked as they pop open.

"w..what? why..why not?" she stammers. My brow raises.

"Because. I havent wanted to. I've been preoccupied being obsessed with your company" I say and dip down, kissing her mouth softly, and nudging her nose with mine.

"And I care far too much about your heart to break it , sweet girl" I say and she sighs, and looks at me. 

"but you could anyways, without trying to...I could....you could.....i dont know" she says and I kiss her again, and know that Im not about to be going down her any further right now, so I lay beside her, grab the blankets and pull them over us. 

"Talk to me pretty girl" I whisper to her, kissingher forehead as she slides into my arms. 

She dips her head, tucking it under my chin, her hand on my chest. 

"Are we really stopping? I liked it, i swear, it felt good Caine...really good" she says and I smile to myself and kiss the top of her head. 

"We're stopping. Till we talk about this." I say and she sighs. 

"I like you." she says. 

"I like you too. Very much." I tell her and stroke her hair and slide my hand over her back and rub it gently, slowly, rubbing circles on her back. 

"I know we're ...a secret...and that's fine...i think it's best that we are....but...i dont want to just be....someones make out partner.....at first...it was fine....and then....i dont know....you made me open up to you....you know more about me than anyone else at this point....and it feels....what were doing feels a lot like..." she trails off. 

"Like im your boyfriend?" I ask and she freezes just slightly. 

"maybe" she barely whispers. 

I slip my hand from her back and slip my finger under chin and she lets me raise it, but her eyes are downcast. 

"Look at me Leona" I say quietly and her brows pinch for a second, but then she looks up at me. 

"You're right....what we're doing...it feels like a relationship...beyond just friends....and don't think that I haven't felt that way too , sweet girl, because i've felt it ever since you kissed me."  I say. 

"You kissed ME" she argues , teasing and the corner of my mouth lifts.

"Mhm, sure" I say and she rolls her eyes, both of giving small laughs. 

"The only reason I havent pushed for anything is because I've already been so selfish with you...I shouldnt be sneaking your sweet mouth and kisses, or putting my hands on you, or stealing you away in the middle of the night just to hold you... I should have never done any of it." I say and she frowns. 

"Oh" she says and her eyes lower, her chin dropping and I lift it back up. 

"No...not like that... I dont regret it...I just worry about you...that's all....and....I may have been selfish....i'm STILL being selfish...because I know you're still dealing with losing your parents....and that you're vulnerable right now...and maybe you ....I dont know baby...maybe you're just not in the head space to be doing this all right now....and it's just an escape from whats really going on......maybe it's just not what you need right now, you know?" I ask and her brows pinch. 

"You're the one who asked me to stay over night." she says, getting defensive. 

"I know, and I..."

"You're the one who made me open up to you... you're the one always stealing touches around everyone...the one texting me all the time, and flirting with me, kissing me! .....and now you're saying...i dont need any of it?" 

I sigh. "Fuck, that's not what I mean baby" 

"God, don't baby me" she says and give a little shove. 

"Leona" I say , not daring to grab her right now as she sits up and moves across the bed. 

"Please Pretty girl, don't do this, sit down and talk to-"

"Dont pretty girl me Caine!" She says, her lips tight as she searches the floor for her clothes. Snatching them up off the floor. 

"'Damnit Leona, just sit back down"

"Dont swear at me!" She glares at me, and fuck I want to laugh, because it's fucking adorable she considers damnit a curse word. But now, is not  the fucking time to laugh or tease her.

"I'm sorry." I say, because to HER it IS a curse, and disrespctful. 

I sit up and move off the bed. 

"Leona, please" I say calmly. 

"Let me finish before you storm out of here." I say and she huffs, throwing on her shirt, grabbing her shorts. 

"I'm just trying to be a good guy, you're not even letting me talk Leona" I say as I try to stay calm. 

"you know what!?" She raises her voice as she pulls up her shorts and zips them and buttons them. 

"I don't need you to baby me! I don't need you to make me feel like a child or protect me! You make it sound like I'm just some sad little girl who needs some attention, and that's the only reason that I like you! The only reason im here!" she says as tears build in her eyes. 

"Don't cry Leona, fuck, please dont fucking cry" I say as I move toward her and go to gently grab her to pull her to me, the sight of her eyes filling with tears is nothing new to me, i've seen them enough since we started talking, since she started confiding in me, but for ME to be the reason for them? That was a knife in the fucking gut. 

"dont" she cries, stepping back and glaring up at me as two fat tears roll down her cheeks. My god, it's the worst fucking thing I've ever seen. 

"I trusted you! I let you wipe my tears, because you said you wanted to! And now...now you're holding it all against me? Telling me that because im sad, that's the only reason I like being around you? Basically telling me , Im USING you to fill some kind of hole in my heart, or...what did you say...oh yeah...to escape." she says and her lips tremble and more tears fall down her cheeks. 

"Leona...i know you're upset....but i'm just trying to figure out what's going on here baby...im not trying to-"

"Stop calling me baby!" she yells at me and I take a breath and nod. 

She crosses her arms. She's dressed. But not leaving. That's a good sign I guess. 

"can we sit?" I ask and gesture to the bed. 

"I dont want to." she says and steps another foot back from my bed and I sigh, and close my eyes. So I sit instead. 

I look at her. 

"I don't want to be something you regret Leona."

"Who says Im-"

"Baby...let me finish" I say and she scowls at me. 

I hold my hands up. "Sorry...Leona...let me finish..please." I say and she just stands there. 

"I care about you. I'm pretty sure I took one look at you, and just knew you were going to be something special to me. You're not a child, but you've been through a lot. And asking me not consider what you've gone through, to consider the state your heart was already in when you got here, the state your mind was in...that's not fair baby." I shake my head and she tightens her lips slightly, but doesnt scold me for the slip of calling her baby again. 

"I'm not saying that I don't want you Leona. Because I do. Clearly. I do. I can't keep my fuckin mind off you. All Im saying is...you said you dont want your heartbroken...and i dont want that either....so im trying to figure out...where your head and heart are at...with everything else going on....and I didnt say that you were using me Leona....but sometimes we dont realize that were coping with things in the wrong way...because the way we choose to cope, feels so fucking good, that it makes you think you've got all your shit squared away, you know?" I ask and she looks to the side, listening but not looking at me or answering. 

"I just want to make sure I'm what you want, really want Leona...because you're heart isnt the only one on the line baby." I say and she lifts her eyes back to me. Her lower lip quivering.

"I'd never hurt you." she says, her voice cracking. 

"You might...without trying to baby, same as what you said to me." I say and her lips keep moving, as she curls them inward and bites them shut and sniffles, and purses them trying not to cry. 

"Come here baby" I say and lift my arms and hold them out to her. 

She looks at me, at my arms, contemplating. 

"Please let me hold you pretty girl" I say and she lets out a little choked cry and drops her crossed arms and walks to me, and I pull her onto my lap sideways and wrap my arms around her. 

"Im not using you" she cries. 

I stroke her hair.

"I never meant it like that baby, I know you're too sweet to be that cruel" I say and kiss the top of her head. 

"I'm scared" she shakes slightly as she cries and gently pet her head and kiss the crown of it as she lets me hold her. 

"Of what baby?" I ask. 

"losing you...losing everyone...like I lost them." she says and shakes a little harder, crying more. 

"shhhh" I whisper. Kissing the top of her head harder. 

"i want to...do stuff with you...more than...what we've done..." she sniffles. "But...it'll make me fall in love with you....and i dont want to love anyone else....because it hurts too much when they leave....when they die" her voice cracks again and I cant help but squeeze her so fucking tight.

"Baby" I groan , as if in pain, because hearing that, that she was afraid not of the act of being intimate, but what it meant afterwards, of losing me. 

"Im scared to love you...to love your brothers...your parents....because something..b-bad could happen...and then...then i'd lose more people....i dont want to lose anyone else Caine, i c-cant" she sobs and I hug her tighter and pull her onto the bed, laying with her as she cries into my arms. 

"I can't promise nothing bad will ever happen again Leona...but I can promise you....we all already love you baby....and i hate to break it to ya...but worrying about that kind of stuff...means you love us already too....so how about we dont borrow troubles that we can't control....and we'll all just be here for as long as we can, okay?" I say and kiss her head again, and she shakes her heard.

"but i love you m-more than th-that..not like i love..th-them." 

I swallow hard.

"I love you Leona." I tell her. "I'm in love with you baby, have been from the second you laid that kiss on me" I say, trying to bring our little joke back and tease her gently and I smile as it works slightly, she laughs through her tears and burries her wet cheek against my chest. 

"i'm in love with you too" she sniffles. 

"guess i should start calling you my girlfriend then, hmm?" I ask and she lifts her chin. Her soaked cheeks and eyes are so fucking adorable, yet still tugging at my heart strings. 

"You wanna be my girl friend , sweet girl?" I ask as I gently swipe a strand of hair from her cheek and she nods. 

"yes" she answers and I smile. 

"No matter what Leona...you'll always be my girl, alright? No matter what happens....you kick my ass to the curb....you'll still be my girl....and i'll always be here for you, got it?" I ask and she nods. 

"Let's clean your pretty face" I say and gently wipe her tears that are drying on her cheeks. She nods and I smile. 

"I love you pretty girl" I whisper to her. 

"I love you" she answers back.