EroticReverie

Beau Brooks

We spend the rest of the evening at the fesitval, sharing kisses and more I love you's as if now that we've said it, all the ones we've held back are spillin right on out. I've never been this happy in my fuckin life. I've never looked at anyone the way I look at Savannah. I meant what I said to her, it was on sight. It wasnt just the fancy clothes and big sunglasses and that cock tease dress. Any pretty girl can get a mans attention, but she took a hell of a lot more than that the second I laid eyes on her. And Savannah, she wasn't just pretty. She was so much more than that, so fucking much more that there aren't words to describe what I feel layin eyes on her everytime I see her. Other than, she's the most beautiful fucking thing I've ever seen in my entire life. And theres more than just her looks, there's just something about her, that knocks the fucking air out of my lungs and my heart into my damn ass. They always say, sometimes you just know. And I knew, the second I saw her. I wanted to make her mine for the rest of my life. 

We're sitting on a brick wall near the small library, the festival still going on further down the street, families walking to cars and getting ready to take peach filled bellied kids home to try to put them to sleep while hopped up on sugar.

I watch a mother roll her eyes and a father laugh to himself as their kid runs in literal circles around them back to the car. 

"You want kids Savannah?" I ask, not realizing how jarring the question is, just thinking out loud. 

"Um..now?" She asks and I turn my head. The look of horror on her face makes me laugh.

"No Darlin, not tonight." I smile at her. 

"Um..." she licks her lips as she holds a piece of plucked cotton candy from the giant bag  of it I bought her. She said she wanted the small one, but I bought her the twenty dollar bag with eight different large ass clumps of the sugar clouds for her. And her excited little smile that she tried to hide when I handed it to her, was worth it. 

"Darlin, relax...I dont mean anytime soon. But...do you see kids in your future?" I ask. Because she could say no, or she could say yes, or maybe. Any answer wouldnt make a damn difference. Because I'd sacrifice whatever I needed to , to be her man. But, I liked growing up with my family, we're close, and crazy, but they're my family. And I want that for myself one day, and I just pray to fucking god , this girl wants it one day too. 

"...i...yeah, i think so." She says and licks her lips and looks down at her lap. 

"You're unsure though." I say, not judging or trying to sound like I am. 

She shrugs. 

"Being responsible for another human, is ..terrifying." she says and looks at me. 

I nod. Because I dont disagree, and it's better than other reasons she could have given for not being sure. 

"..I...I want kids...yes...but...that's a selfish thing to say, isnt it?" She asks and I cock my head. 

"How so Darlin?" I ask. 

She looks at me, at my mouth a moment, and I let my lips curve into a little smile.

"God its so hard not kiss your mouth when you call me that" she sighs. 

"Aint nobody stoppin you Sweetheart" I smirk and she sighs loudly. 

"You're sucha tease" she huffs. 

I laugh and she's holding back a little smile and then pops the little cloud of sugar into her mouth and then looks out towards the festival down the street. And Im glad she'd rather continue to have this conversation that sweep it under the rug with a kiss. Because Id fucking let her. 

"It's selfish because....kids are...it's a selfish thing to want for yourself...you just WANT a kid,...you bring them into a world that's.....well...trash basically" she says and I frown a bit. 

"It aint all bad" I say. 

"Enough of it is." she says and looks at me. 

"I take it you want kids, no question." She says. 

I nod. "I do." 

"So....if...say we...stay together..." she says.

"What the hell do you mean IF...we're STAYIN together Savannah, aint no damn if." I say and she bites her lip and swallows.

"Jesus cowboy, okay" She says, as she lets out an uneven breath.

I grumble slightly and shake my head. "IF...fuckin IF..." I mutter and she grins at me. 

"You're hot when you get all mean and angry" she says. 

"I aint being mean...but yeah, i'll get angry anytime you try to tell me there's a chance you aren't gonna be mine forever" I huff. 

"okay....when we're together...." she says and narrow my eyes at her and she smiles, melting my fucking scowl off my face.

"What if I decide , I dont want a kid?" she says.

"Then we won't have one." I say.

"It's not that easy." she says.

"How come? Seems pretty simple to me." I answer. 

"Because you clearly want kids...plural im guessing...and you'd give up having any at all and be just fine with that?" she asks. 

"Listen to me Darlin....ain't nothing you can do, not do, say or not say, agree to, or not agree to that would keep me from lovin you....so yeah..it's that simple to me. If I have kids, they're gonna have parents that BOTH want them. Im not gonna have a kid that I begged for, or talked my wife into out of selfishness. If I make a family with you, it's gonna be because it's what we both want." I say and she takes a deep breath.

"God, you're hot" she sighs. My lips turn up on one side with a smirk. 

"Back at ya Sweetheart." I wink at her and she leans over.

"I need to kiss you before I scream" she says, lifting her hand and pulling my mouth to hers. I groan  and taste the sugar on her lips, on her tongue, letting my New York dream girl, kiss me just as much as she fucking wants and needs. 

A handfull of minutes go by of us trading angles and tongues and making out slowly and passionately right there on the side of the street.

She pulls back and looks at me, her lips looking fucking hot as hell, swollen and plump. 

"I dont know if I'll decide I want kids, but I know you'd make such a good father, and that would make it a hell of a lot easier for me to say yes, knowing i was making them with YOU...would make alot of my worries and reservations disappear....and...if i was purely selfish, if the rest of me worries and reservations didnt exist Beau....i'd let you get me pregnant so fucking fast ." she says and my dick fucking rages in my fucking jeans. 

"Jesus Darlin, you cant say that to me right here" I groan at her. 

"why not?" she asks. 

"Because you have me wanting to bend you over and make our first time together with half the town watchin" I say and she bites her lip.

"Wouldnt be the WORST first time, would it?" She cocks a brow.

"Darlin, im gonna need you to reel it in, that New York withcraft is workin too fuckin hard right now" I say and she laughs and pushes her lips to mine.

"I love you Cowboy" she whispers. 

"Love you too Darlin"