EroticReverie

Bryan Brenna

Sadie removes herself from my lap and says no more than five words to me the rest of the fucking day. We needed to have a conversation, a fucking big one. Because I have no idea why she's pissed at me or why she was acting this way over the whole "orgy" thing. She'd hooked up with plenty of guys before me, and I know for a fact she's had threesomes and gone fucking wild. We ALL did. We were all a bunch of horny fuckers in highschool and afterward too, hell, we STILL were. 

The sun is setting when Griffin docks the boat back at camp, and Sadie is the first one off the boat, not waiting for me, taking off like she's got a firecracker up her ass.

Jason laughs and claps me on the shoulder. "Someones in the dog house." he chuckles.

My jaw ticks. Of all our friends in our friend group. Jason was my least favorite. Probably because he's hooked up with Sadie before. Once, our sophmore year at a party. That, and the fact he tried to hit her up in her Instagram DM's shortly after we got together at the Cabin. Asking her questions, telling her how hot she was and that THEY shouldve been the ones to hook up at the Cabin last summer. Sadie never responded, and showed me the messages. It pissed me off. Jason was a fucking man whore, but the worst kind. The slimey kind that went after taken women, married women, he seriously got off on it. He's a piece of shit. I never got mad at her though, so the fact she's getting upset of shit I did before we were ever even together, is kind of pissing me off. But I fucking love her, and hate when she's sad, or angry, I hate when she's anything but fucking smiling and happy. 

"I'll take her off your hands if you need to me to. I don't mind." He says with a laugh. 

He's drunk. But I don't fucking care. I stop mid stride towards the cabin, turn around and grab him by his muscle shirt and watch his eyes go wide and all of our friends stop in their tracks.

"Talk about my girlfriend again....and I'll take an axe to your dick and use it for fish bait in the lake. Make another fucking comment about MY fucking Jason, I fucking dare you." I seethe. I was done, so fucking done with him. Nobody disrespected Sadie. Nobody. 

"You're a fucking pathetic leech, that goes after women who want nothing to fucking do with you. Go stick your dick in a fucking blender and keep your eyes off my girl, and keep her name, any shit you ever thinka bout saying about her, out of your fuckin mouth, am I fucking clear?" I say as our friends all gather around, hands on me, trying to calm me down. 

"y-yeah man, chill, it was a j-joke" Jason stammers. Fucking coward. Disgusing his comments as a "joke" when he gets called out, unable to admit he's a fucking sleeze. 

"Bry, easy baby" Lydia says and rubs my arm, I jerk it away from her and glare at her. 

"And YOU...stop trying to piss off my fucking girlfriend...whatever you think you're doing...fucking stop it..."

"I...I wasnt trying to do anything" she says, brows pinching. 

"Don't fuckin come near me, or Sadie. Don't fuckin talk to her. Don't talk to me. Don't even fuckin look at me Lydia. And don't you dare, fucking call me baby unless you want Sadie ripping your fucking vocal cords out....cause I'll hold everyone back while she does it." I say, teeth clenched as I glare at her. "You're not fooling anyone, so wipe your face befuddled look from your face, and take your shit stirring elsewhere."  I say, everyone looking at me. 

But nobody says a fucking word as I look back at Jason , then at Lydia, snarling at the both of them. 

"Got it." Lydia says, her nose lifting, her ego bruised, but I dont give a fuck. I watch her cross her arms, dropping her little sweet girl act. She hasn't changed a bit since eight grade summer camp. She was manipulative and sneaky then, and she's the same now. Which is why her ass is single. 

"It's not my problem your relationship with her has no trust." Lydia huffs as I turn. 

"Jesus Lydia, shut up" Maddie hisses at her. 

"If shes got a problem with your past with me, that's HER problem, not mine. And if she's so scared that I'll take her man, maybe she needs to do better satisfying y-"

"LYDIA! SHUT THE HELL UP!" MAddie squeaks. 

I clench my fists. If Lydia wasn't a female...I swear to god. 

"You should probably go home Lydia. I wouldn't want to be within a mile of Sadie when she decides to go off on you." Griffin says, and I'm thankful someone else is sticking up for me, for Sadie, so I know Im not out of line or being crazy. 

Lydia scoffs. 

"Like I said, it's not MY problem, it's hers. Clearly if there's an issue, it's because she knows I can take her man from her." Lydia says with all of the words delusion.

I snort , and keep fucking walking. If I stayed and listen to this shit. I was going to pay one of the girls to throw the fucking psycho off the dock with a cement block tied to her foot. 

I listen to Maddie trying to shut her up, and a few of our friends also scolding Jason for being a fucking tool. 

I walk into the cabin, and jog up the stairs. 

I walk into the bedroom, and find Sadie in a pair of panties, pulling on a neon pink sports bra. 

I wait for her to look at me, and she doesnt, as she pulls on a pair of neon pink workout pants to match her bra.

"We gonna talk?" I ask her, standing in the doorway still. I move in, shutting the door behind me. She says nothing as she pulls on a long sleeved white shirt and yanks her hair up into a high ponytail, her hands moving angrily and yanking the hair tie so hard it snaps.

"shit" she hisses angrily to herself and I hear her frustrated whimper. 

"Chipmunk" I say softly. She was seconds away from crying, I could feel it, and it made me fucking hate myself, even though I wasn't sure what the hell was happening, or why she was so mad at me. 

She grabs another hair tie and pulls her hair back up. 

"Talk to me." I say as she grabs her sneakers and pulls them on. Yanking her shoe laces hard as she ties them, not even looking at my or acknowledging me. 

She's clearly about to go for a run, so I snatch a pair of socks, and sneakers. 

"Don't follow me." She huffs, the only thing she says as she walks out the door. 

Yeah, fuck that. I was following her. After last year , and her terrible sense of direction, and she thought I was going to let her go for a run in the woods on a trail, or anywhere in the fucking woods alone? Not happening. Last year I made sure I went with her on her morning hike, because I wanted to make sure she was safe from creepy mountain men, because, in my mind, they ran rampant in the woods. To keep her safe from snakes, or bears, or whatever the hell else could bring trouble to her. I'd lied and said I liked hiking. So she wouldnt know I just wanted to make sure she was okay, because Sadie wouldve chewed my ass out, because she's stubborn. 

I snag a shirt , throwing it in my teeth. Following her out of the room, stopping to put a sock on, walk a few more steps. Hearing the front door to the cabin slam shut and cursing. I jump the last four fucking steps on the stairs and throw the door open. 

"God damnit Sadie, wait" I yell at her as she takes off running. 

She doesnt stop, and I growl, pulling on my sneakers and tying them as fast as I fucking can while watching the hot pink clothing disappear into the woods. 

I take off, running as I pull on my shirt. God, I was gonna get a fucking tick on my legs or something, wearing god damn shorts in the woods. 

"Chipmunk! Get your ass back here!" I yell into the woods, as I break into them. Stopping to listen when the trail breaks off into two. The flat trail around the lake, or the more advanced one of having to go up the mountain and climb rocks and shit. My girl was pissed, so she defintely chose the difficult one. Stubborn ass. I take off, thankful when I see her pink clothes a second later.

"I said not to follow me!" She yells back at me.

"Too fuckin bad!" I yell back at her.

I catch up to her quickly enough. Both of our feet stomping over the beaten bath through trees on the uphill climb. 

"Will you slow the fuck down, you're gonna hurt yourself" I growl. 

She keeps charging forward.

"You're going off the path." I growl at her. 

"No i'm not" she argues. I roll my eyes and shake my head. 

"Why are you so god damn stubborn, get back on the fucking path Sadie!" I say raising my voice to her. 

She stops and turns and I exhale hard, breathing a little heavy, half from cahsing her down, half from how worked up she has me right now. 

"Quit yelling my name at me like that!" She says angrily, her jaw clenching, her perfect face all screwed and twisted, and seething. Fuck, she was so god damn hot all the fucking time. 

"Then quit being a pain in my ass!" I huff at her and she growls at me, narrowing her eyes.

"I'm tired of you!" she yells. Um, fucking ouch. My head rears back, and even her own eyes widen, and I see the regret on her face a split second, but then she's being stubborn again, throwing her little mask on. 

"Then take a god damn nap Chipmunk, because i'm not fuckin goin anywhere." I say , as I step forward and she stands still , her face scowling at me while also looking like she's about to cry , her big brown eyes looking up at me. 

"Are you really tired of me Sadie?" I ask. Standing there looking down at her.

She blinks, and opens her eyes, tears forming in her eyes. 

"no" she says in a small voice that cracks, the tears welling as she shakes her head. 

"Chipmunk." I sigh and then step closer, and pull her into my arms and she cries.

"I didnt mean it." she cries even harder. 

"shhh" I whisper, as my hand cups the back of her head. 

"i love you" she cries as she wraps her arms around me tight, holding me for dear life. "I'm sorry, i didnt mean it, i swear i didnt mean it" she says and I rub her back and kiss the top of her head. 

"please, i didnt mean it, please dont break up with me" she cries. 

What the fuck? What the hell was going on with her?

"Chipmunk..." I say and gently take her ponytail and tug it gently, making her tear soaked face look at me. Her arms still wrapped around me. 

"Please, i'm sorry" she sniffles, lower lip trembling.

"Babe...What is going on with you?" I ask as gently as I can and then release her ponytail and gently wipe her tears with my fingers. 

"You....she......I was embarrassed. I've never felt stupid like that before." She sniffles, and I keep wiping her tears as they fall.

"If I thought playing the game embarrassed you, then I wouldnt have done it, but...our friends know us Chipmunk, they already know most of the shit I've gotten up to in the past, I didnt think it was a big deal to play along with the game." I say.

"When did it happen?" she asks. 

My brows pinch. "When did what happen?" 

"The orgy" she sniffles and I sigh. 

"It was the summer after graduation." I answer. She flinches and turns her face away.

"When is the last time you had sex with her? Did you have sex with her after the orgy?" she asks. My brows draw together. I was getting lost here. 

"Who? What?" 

"Camp cunt!" She squeaks. 

I look at her and shake my head. 

"Uhhh...I already told you...in eighth grade." I answer. 

"You just said you had an orgy with her after graduation!" She says and pushes at my chest. 

"What?" I shake my head. "No I didnt" 

"You just said y-"

"Had an orgy, yeah, when the hell did I say Lydia was a part of it?" I ask , so fucking confused. Was I losing my mind? Was SHE losing HERS?" 

"On the boat!" she squeaks. 

I lift my hands to my face and drag them down. 

"I never said that." I say, shaking my head. 

"You drank with her! And then she looked at you, and looked at Maddie!" She says.

I blink several times, shaking my head again. 

"You....you assumed because she looked at me while I drank, that meant...I had an orgy...with her..." I say slowly, hoping she understands what she's just done. Assuming something from nothing. Making her own version of what she thinks a look from Lydia meant. 

"I ...i...." she stammers and then shuts her mouth, and swipes her own tears and I exhale slowly. 

"But..." she starts. "Maddie wouldnt look at me after either..." 

I shrug. "Okay, so....you think...I also had an orgy with Maddie?....Maddie...our friend..who's a lesbian?" 

"Dont say it like im stupid!" She bites out and I throw my hands up, palms facingher in surrender.

"Sadie, im just trying to figure out what the fuck is going on and clear shit up." I say and she crosses her arms and turns slightly, looking away from me. 

"So...you didn't have an orgy with them?" she asks. 

I roll my eyes since she's not facing me. 

"No Sadie , I didnt not have an orgy with Lydia and Maddie. 

"Why wouldnt Maddie look at me then? Why was Lydia eyefucking you and smirking like you three had a secret?" 

"Babe....I dont fuckin know why MAddie wouldnt look at you...or maybe you're imagining she wouldnt look at you, because you were already aboard the crazy train of thinking I had an orgy with Lyd-"

"Dont call me crazy!" She turns back to me and scowls at me. 

"Chipmunk....c'mon now....you KNOW you're being crazy." I tell her and she clenches her jaw. 

"Who was the orgy with then?" she huffs. 

"my god Sadie" I shake my head. 

"WHO..WAS..IT..WITH?" she bites out each word. 

"It was guys from the basketball team, and girls from Wind Park, I couldnt even tell you their fuckin names Sadie, I dont know , alright? Shit got carried away at a party, we were all wasted and each had been making out with our own girl, and then, just started...fucking joining together." I say and throw my hands in the air. 

"If I knew a drunk summer orgy was gonna get me in this much trouble with you in the future, trust me, i'd have stayed home and fucked my hand to your photos like every other night of my fuckin life." I say and drag my hand over my face. 

I look at her , her arms still crossed. 

"I'll tell you every hookup I've ever had, right down to my first kiss, if that's what you fuckin want Sadie, you're the one who said you never wanted to bring up past hookups, that it didnt matter, but CLEARLY it fucking matters, cause you're pissed off and being real god damn mean to me right now, telling me shit like you're TIRED of me" I say and she looks away.

"I said I was sorry" she sniffs.

"I know babe, but what the hell is going on right now...I mean, I get you don't like Lydia, and I took care of it, but is something else going on...with us? Because I dont know why you'd be jumping to these conclusions based on looks, or think I'm even remotely interested in anyone but you...I thought we we're doing so good...I mean...do you...do you want me to move out, is living together, making you tired of me?" 

"I said I didnt mean it!" She cries and then grabs my shirt. "And we ARE good, we're better than good, I love you!" 

"then why are you losing your mind over a girl that doesnt even matter to me?" I ask. 

"Because! I'm crazy, alright?! I was being crazy! She made me fucking want to fucking - ARGH!" she growls and she fists my shirt, as she looks away and scowls in the direction of the camp.

"Well she wont make you want to ARGH anymore, I took care of it...I think I did anyways, who knows, she's ACTUALLY crazy, I think. " I say.

She pinches her brows together and rears her head back.

"What do you mean you  took care of it?" she asks. 

Because I dont want a fight later on, for "keeping things" from her, I tell her word for word what happened on the dock, between me and Jason, then between me and Lydia. and all the words exchanged from Griffin, and Maddie as well. 

"BABY?!" She shrieks when I get to the part where Lydia called me baby. 

Her long blonde ponytail whips and she starts to take off running towards camp and I grab her arm. 

"Get back here you feral little thing" I snatch her around the waist. 

"Im gonna fucking murder her and leave her fucking corpse in the woods for the animals to fucking eat" she growls. 

"Jesus Chipmunk" I half laugh. 

I finish the rest of the story, watching her smile and nod and her cute fucking nose scrunch with a devious little grin as she listens to me tell her that Griffin warned Lydia not to be around when Sadie decided to go off on her. 

"Oh that fucking bitch" She growls when I tell her what Lydida said about it being Sadies problem, not hers. 

"I'm going to tie her to the back of the fucking boat and start the engine and let the fucking propellers make her chum" 

"Fucking, shit...you little psycho, easy there. That's a little scary.....and...a little hot" I tilt my head side to hide.

She looks at me. 

"You are MINE." She hisses.

My brows lift. "Uhm, yes." I nod. "I'm aware. Don't kill me." 

"She better pray she's fucking gone when I get there." She scowls at the path. 

"So....we're good now?" I ask her. 

She flinches with guilt. "yes, i shouldnt have let her get to me, but YOU said it too! She manipulative!" I just nod. Letting her go off, because I was still worried there was something else going on between us, I didnt like that Lydia was able to have THAT much of an effect on her. I liked her a little jealous sometimes, just like she liked me jealous when guys hit on her. But, this just felt like something else was going on, and it made me uneasy. We're fucking crazy about each other, and I havent had any feelings that things were off kilter, until coming to camp and the whole shit with Lydia. And hoenstly, we argued and fought sometimes, but we never said shit we didnt mean. And even though I forgive her for saying it, I believe that she thinks she didnt mean it, but...why the hell would say that? Was I suffocating her? I could forgive it, but now that was going to be nagging my own brain, making ME crazy and wondering what the hell I was doing wrong.  

"I love you" she says and hugs me again and I wrap my arms around her. 

"I love you too Chipmunk" I say and kiss the top of her head and she leans her head back. 

I cant help the smile on my lips, as the corners pull slowly as I look down at her. 

"I'm sorry for being mean to you, and I'm sorry for being crazy....I just....I'm crazy...about YOU...YOU are what makes me crazy... I dont know what I'd do without you...and I should know better than to be threatened by anyone...but I just...I let her get to me...and the thought of anyone even TRYING to get with you, even if  I know you'd never cheat on me, or leave me, it STILL makes me mad thaat they'd even try...you're MINE...and I love you more than anything....this past year is the happiest I've ever been , because im with you...someone threatening that....or trying to....is going to make me crazy, every single time, because Im not letting you go, not ever." she says and I nod, and lift her chin slightly and dip down.

"I'll go to war for you everytime too Sadie...every damn time...and I can handle you being crazy if it means it's because you love me....because , I fuckin get it baby....but I dont want us to start throwing around words we dont mean when we fight...cause i know you didnt mean it Sadie...but shit...that's got me fucked up if I'm being honest." I say and her eyes water.

"I know..I'm sorry...I don't even know why I said it...I was...just so mad...at her....at you...i thought you were purposely not telling me something, and i realize, i fucking fabricated an assumption in my head that didnt even happen...i was wrong...I know that...but, before realizing i was wrong...I thought the man I was madly , crazy, in love with...was lying by omission...and hiding something...and i know it's not an excuse for saying that to you. I shouldnt have said it...I-"

I kiss her. I shut her up,because no matter what she says, it's gonna bother me anyways. And I dont want her to waste her breath trying to fix it right now. I just want to kiss my fucking girlfriend.