EroticReverie

Liviana Love LaCroix

I see their faces. All of them. They come in flashes. I hear their voices, but I cant open my eyes. My eyes strain to open, and I can't. I hear the beeping, hear the hiss of the oxygen mask on my face. Oxygen mask? I force my eyes to open.I wince against the fucking awful flourescent lights.

"You can't ALL be in here at once, rules are one FAMILY member at a time, and you're not family, we can't let you-"

"She IS our fucking family." I hear an annoyed voice growl. 

"And I dont give a shit about your fucking rules. Get the fuck out of here." Another voice says.

"yah, get out!" A tinier voice says.

"Yeah! Get out!" A squeaky little girl voice says and my eyes open wider. I shoot my hands to the bed and push up, my head pounding and everyone looks to me. But I look for the tiny little voice. My eyes welling with tears and I see her. Posted up on one of Jaggers knees, opposite Mick on his other. Light green circles around her lips or dried up ice cream. I cry harder. 

"You're okay, lay the fuck down" A deep voice says beside me and pushes on my shoulder to hold me down. My eyes shoot up to Axl. Oh he's pissed. He's scowling at me. While also looking at me like he's ready to kiss my face off. It's a skill only he posesses . 

"I'll..get the doctor" the nurse says and tucks his head down, apparently giving up the fight of clearing out my hospital room. 

I look back to Violet though. 

"She's fine too." He says. "Other than her toothpaste breath." Axl says and I look back up to him, my eyes filling with tears. 

"I love you." at least that's what I try to say , but my voice doesnt come out , it's barely there.

"You're not going to be able to talk for a few days." Axl says. "Doctors orders." 

I wince at the soreness from trying to speak and lift my hand to my throat. Remembering my fathers hand strangling me. So many questions. Did he get to her? She didnt look hurt. But some scars are left in other ways. 

"He didnt touch her. We got there just in time." Gibson whispers from my other side and I turn my head, my eyes water and I smile at him. I nod at him. A small thank you for reading my mind. He smiles back softly and lifts my hand. 

"Love you, yeah?" he asks and kisses the back of my hand and I smile and nod at him. 

I let my fingers curl around his and hold his hand. 

"Can I sit on her bed now?" Violet asks. 

"yeah." Axl says.

She beams and hops off of Axl's knee and walks over to the bed and Axl helps her up into it as I lift my arm and wrap it around her as she snuggles up to me.

"I dont like Daddy anymore." she says and I place my hand on her head, stroking her hair. 

"He cant hurt you anymore Livvy, uncle Axl promised." she says and I look at Axl who is looking at her with a small smile on his lips. 

"We dont have to see him never again neither!" she says and hugs me tight and I wrap my arm tighter around her. 

"Nope . Never." Sid says and my eyes lift. His smile is wicked. But its not for me. Its a smile for my father. Either they "took care of him" or were going to soon. 

A doctor comes in, check my vitals. 

"When can she come home?" Jett asks and I look at him.

"Yeah, when can we take her home?" Cash asks. 

"When can Aunt Livvy come home?" Mick pipes in and Jagger chuckles and rubs his head. 

"Tomorrow most likely, we just want to keep an eye on her. But....we DO have to ask you to limit it to one person at a time. Im willing to break the family rule but-"

"We are family!" Violet chirps from my side. 

"That's my uncle!" She points to Gibson. 

"That's my uncle too!" She points to Crue. 

"That's my uncle, and that's my uncle!" she points to Jagger and Cash. 

"Him too!" she points to Sid who smiles and winks at her. 

"Damn right kid." he says. 

"And uncle Jett!" she squeaks and points to Jett who smiles at her and nods.

"yup." he says. 

"And thats my cousin! Mick!" she points to Mick.

"Hey toothpaste breath, you forgetting someone?" Axl asks her and she turns her head and giggles and cups a hand over her mouth. 

I smile as he shakes his head at her and sighs. 

"I buy you all the ice cream, and you just forget about me? Im supposed to be the favorite" he teases her. 

"No, uncle Sid is my favorite!" she chirps and I blink several times, so does everyone else.

"Hell yeah Vi, put er there" he says and holds out his hand and she sits up and smacks her tiny on it and she giggles. 

"traitor" Axl says to her as he tickles beneath her chin and she giggles and then cuddles up back beside me. 

"Okay well...yes."the doctor says. "Like I said. Doesnt matter, we're letting that all slide..but we DO have to limit the bodies in the room, for safety....so please...decide who gets to stay...and the rest of you can go to the waiting room." he says and smiles at me. 

"Nurses will be back to check on you in a little while." he says and I nod. 

Jett, Jagger, Cash, Crue, and Sid all either stand or push off the walls they're leaning against and get ready to make their exit, as if they know they're definitely not going to make the cut of the one who gets to sit here with me. And probably dont even want to be honest. Im well past believing they dont care, I know they do. They've proved it over and over again. Watching over Violet. Watching over me. And dropping the names on my list to only fourteen. Maybe thirteen if they killed my dad tonight. 

I look to Gibson, I loox to Axl, both of them sitting still by my bed. 

"I'll stay." Violet says.

I smile down at her as she lays her head in the nook of my arm.

"Kids cant stay in the hospital overnight. Plus who's gonna watch a movie with Mick tonight in the fort?" Jagger asks. It's the middle of the god damn night, but I know he's just winning her over. 

"it's okay" I say, forcing my voice out no matter how much it hurts. 

"love you Vi...gimmie a hug goodnight" I croak so she can hear and she hugs me tight. 

The others clear out and I look to Gibson, who is looking at Axl, who when I look to Axl is looking at me. 

"We got it down to two. That'll have to be good enough." Axl says to me and I smile at him. 

I look to Gibson and he smiles. "Im not going anyhwere, I'll fight him if I have to." 

"Me or the doctor?" Axl huffs.

"Both if need be." Gibson says and I laugh slightly as Axl blows out a breath.

"Yeah okay. You'll need your own damn hospital bed if you even fucking try it." Axl says and I squeeze both of their hands. 

"Love you.....both of you." I say and look from Gibson, to Axl. 

"Love you too Liviana." he says to me and I smile, my eyes watering all over again.

"But Im still fucking pissed at you, so , dont forget that." he says and I laugh a little as a tear slips and I nod. 

I close my eyes, and drift back to sleep. 

When I wake a few hours later, both of them are laying their heads on a little bit of the bed, with their hands still around mine, fast asleep and I immediately feel my eyes fill with tears. Because I know I have a family now, a real one. The realest kind there is. Blood may be thicker than water...but water cleanses...it purifies.....it soothes.....and the Shaw brothers may be "Water" to me.....but they're exactly what I need. They take away the bad. Cleaning my life of the evils that I had to keep secret for so long. They soothe me, and touch me softly and wash over my skin with their hands to erase all the past touches of men who werent given permission by me to do so. 

I close my eyes again, and smile as I fall back asleep.