EroticReverie

Zade

I've seen plenty of awful shit being a Devil's Son. None of it could compare to seeing Evangelina abused and raped by all of Buck Chance's men, and Grady. Grady had stared at me the entire time he was inside of her. I'm not even sure if she knows he was there, she'd been out of it for most of the shit they did to her. Eyes open, but just, not there. I think that's the worst part, to know that she'd been just a shell of herself, in order to survive what they were doing to her. But Grady had kept his eyes on mine, as he'd taken her from behind as she was laid over that table. Grunting and grinning at me like the sick fuck he was. I did lots of shady shit for Grady, for the Devils. But raping women, was never something I did. If I was a better man, I'd have left the Devil's long ago. Because while I'd never witnessed the way they were prone to treating women....treating teenage girls....I knew it happened. All of that was hush hush to the younger Devil's. But we knew better. I knew better. And I stayed anyways. 

My stomach turns with disgust and I wine as I shift to try to find a comfortable way to adjust my body with Evangelina asleep by my side, her body clinging to mine in her sleep. She deserved better than all of this. Deserved better than me. She didn't deserve a coward. She said she didn't mean it, but I know it's true. I've been a coward. Too fucked up and needing of a "Family" that I let myself fall into the warped shit of the Devil's, because it meant I had "family".  "Brothers". People to "look out" for me. 

Evangelina lifts her head, her sleepy eyes parting and she looks at me. 

"You okay?" She asks. Me? Am I okay? 

"Yeah baby, I'm fine." I say and she sits up carefully and I hate the bruises on her. I hate the tired bags under her eyes, and the wince in her face as she shifts, unable to sit up, because it hurts too much. Because putting pressure on where they abused her, hurts her. I will myself not to fucking cry. It's my fault. This is all my fault. 

She lays back down on her side. 

"Need me to get you something?" She asks and I grit my teeth, because of course she'd be willing to wait on me even when her own body was a mess. Because that's Evangelina. Again, I dont deserve her. Not even close. 

"no" I say and she moves her head side to side and hisses and then settles her head and places her hand on the pillow and slips it under her cheek. 

"You sure?" she asks. I close my eyes.

"Stop being nice to me." I say as gently as I can. 

She huffs. "shut up." 

I open my eyes and look at her. She narrows her eyes at me, her cheek bruised, her lip cut. 

"Last thing I want right now is your bullshit. So knock it off." She says, and her tone is gentle, but doesnt give any room for argument. The fact she's giving me hell after what she went through, just proves she's stronger than any of us ever grave her credit for. 

"Do you need me to get you something or not?" she asks. 

"No, thank you." I say. 

She's silent and I open my mouth, then shut it. I stare at the ceiling and then close my eyes. 

"I don't deserve to have you being nice to m-"

"I said knock it off. We're not doing that right now. We can throw our pity parties later." She says and I sigh and turn my head and look at her. I wince. 

"You dont look so good yourself." She says when I react to the sight of her again. 

"How are you joking right now?" I ask. 

"Oh, I'm not. You look like shit Zade." she says and I huff and it makes everything fucking hurt and I wince. 

She pushes up. 

"Lay the fuck down." I growl. 

"shut up" she hisses as she forces herself out of bed. While they took turns raping her, they took turns beating the shit out of me. I deserved to be worse off than her, but my body would heal. It was the mental shit that had her worse off all around. How she was even speaking right now, and not locked in a catatonic state was beyond me. 

"Evie, get back in bed." I groan, trying to fucking reach for her but I seriously cant move, everything hurts, and when i move the slightest bit, everything aches a million times more. 

She walks to the side of the room, and grabs a bottle of pills and pours a few into her palm, then grabs the glass of water and walks around to my side of the bed. 

"Here, take these" She says as she lifts her arm and drops the pills into my mouth and then lifts the glass of water to my lips as I open my mouth and look up at her, as she focuses on the glass and my mouth and tipping it just enough. 

She sets the glass down on the bedside table. 

"I love you." I say and she pauses. Her body pivots slowly.

"Wow, those drugs work fast." She jokes. 

I shake my head, and wince at the pain. 

"I'm serious. I love you." I say. 

Evie smiles, but barely. 

"Get some rest Zade." she says and limps away from the bed. 

"Evie, don't fucking leave, come back." I say and wish I had the strength to make my fucking body move. 

"I love you too, okay?" She says. 

"But I also would love not to pee all over the floor or the bed. I'll be right back." she says. I exhale. God, the worst proclamations of love ever. I tell her I love her after I was the reason she was raped last night by a bunch of men. I tell her I love her when I can barely fucking move, and she's covered in bruises. Fucking great job Zade. 

When she comes back, Arrow is with her. She also has on a pair of oversized mens pajama pants and a hoodie. I growl, because they aren't mine.  I also growl because Arrow is with her. i want to tell her I love her again, but not with him in the fucking room. She must notice because she smirks slightly as she limps over to her side of the bed. 

"We have a doctor coming." Arrow says. 

"I dont need a fucking doctor. I dont want his fucking doctors." I say, assuming they have one of Grady's fucking paid on the low doctors coming. 

"Were not stupid. It's not one of his. It's my cousin Jemma." Arrow says and I grumble. 

"Can you trust her?" I ask. He just nods. 

"She'll take a look at both of you." Arrow says and I nod as I look to Evie who is trying to slip back onto the bed. 

"Help her." I growl. 

"I've got it." She hisses, but Arrow is already around the side of the bed and gently helping her onto the bed. She whimpers slightly and my nostrils flare.

"Dont fucking hurt her! Be fucking careful!" I growl. 

"Jesus man! I am!" Arrow says and Evie, reaches her arm over and swats my arm. 

"Quit being a dick. I'm fine." She hisses as I wince and then glare at her. 

"That hurt. A lot you know." I growl through my teeth. 

"Yeah. Good." She says and Arrow just huffs and laughs under his breath as we stare at one another while he lifts the covers and pulls them over her as she lays back. 

"you two love birds need anything?" Arrow asks.

"Food." I grumble.

"I just ASKED you if you needed any-"

"Im not having you fucking wait on me." I growl at her. 

"Im going to smack you again if you growl at me again." she warns and raises her hand like she's about to back hand me. 

Arrow just chuckles. 

"Food. Got it. God, you two are...i dont even know." He says and shakes his head and leaves the room. 

"you're such an ass" she sighs as she shifts to get comfortable. 

"I love you." I tell her and she turns her head and looks at me. 

"You sure?" She asks quietly and I nod as much as I can. 

The smallest of smiles is on her lips. 

"I love you too." she whispers.

"thank you for saving me" she says. 

I feel my stomach drop. "I didnt." 

"yes you did." she says and then shifts and whimpers again in pain and then turns on her side and kisses my arm. 

"I got you hurt." I say , my nostrils flaring. 

"You're not responsbile for what happened last night. Or before. What any of them did to me, is on them. Not me. Not you." she says and kisses my arm again and gently runs her fingers over it. 

"I couldve...done something more to stop it." I say. 

"Me too." She says and I huff angrily. 

"Theres nothing you-"

"shut up." she says and kisses my arm again. "Just shut up and tell me you love me again." 

"I love you." I say because, she makes the fucking rules, and i'll do whatever she say from now until forever. 

"I love you too Zade." she says and brushes her cheek on my arm and slides her hand down to mine, and gently weaves her fingers through mine. 

"Take me far away. Promise?" she whispers. 

"Yeah baby. I promise." I whisper back.