EroticReverie

Anna 

After cleaning the grill, Hawk , Shane, Brandt and I go around the woods collecting kindling and sticks for future fires. They had a ton inside of crates outside the cabin but were basically teaching me how to gather them and what made for the best kindling. 

Then they take me foraging. Each of us collecting edible mushrooms and edible plants. They teach me about what ones to avoid, which are poisonous and tell me that they’ll show me the book at the cabin that they have that has all sorts of information, remedies you can make with them and what not. 

It’s overwhelming. But I think of earlier. How I thought in that half an hour of trying to start a fire that I’d never fucking be able to do it. But I had. And I can’t explain the feeling that I felt when I’d actually done it. Thanks to Roman pushing me. I wanted to be angry with him for the way he’d been with me at the river. But if I was going to make it here, I had to grow up. Sure, he could’ve easily been gentler and nicer with me. But life clearly wasn’t a fairytale. It was currently an apocalyptic shit storm and I’d do best to erase all notions of fairytales from my head. There was no point in fantasizing about anything other than living another day. And Roman wasn’t , THAT bad otherwise. He seemed to at least care. He wanted me to learn. Didn’t want me to have to depend on him or the others. When he could easily just have not bothered and allowed me to be a helpless damsel in distress whose only survival  instinct was to spread her legs for men in exchange for their help. 

After we bring the things we foraged back to cabin , we placed them in the underground stock of the cellar that Hawk tells me took them weeks to dig. 

It was, impressive to say the least. Yes. It was small and consisted of nothing but dirt walls , but they’d done this. And I’m not sure if even think of digging an underground storage space. I wouldn’t have even had anything to put in it with my inability to hunt or forage anything other than the few berries that I knew were edible. 

“Can I talk to you for a sec?” Hawk asks as the others carry on around the cabin and I nod and wipe my hands on my pants. 

“So , listen, I know Flynn is a dick” he says and I just give a little laugh. 

“Understatement” I say and he smiles softly. 

“I don’t know who you’re going to choose tomorrow.” He says and I frown because it was such a fucked up arrangement. 

“You want me to choose Flynn.” I say , gathering all the information I needed with the fact he mentioned the fact he’s a dick as a disclaimer before continuing the conversation.

His brows lift as if surprised I knew exactly what he wanted to say. 

“I might not be wealthy in the knowledge of survival , but I’m not dumb” I say and he frowns. 

“I don’t think you’re dumb Anna” he says and I chew my lip. 

I kick the ground and look down. 

“He won’t be gentle. Will he?” I ask. 

“I couldn’t tell you. Picking him might soften him up a little.” He says and I lift my eyes to his. 

“If I didn’t pick him. I’d choose you, you know.” I say and he smiles and lifts his hand to my face and it’s so gentle and soft that it makes me feel like maybe fantasizing about happily ever afters isn’t so dumb after all. 

“You’d be gentle. You will be. Right?” I ask him and he nods just once. 

“Even if you pick me, when you do, you don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do, I want you to want to do it. So if you don’t, that’s okay with me.”  He says and it’s probably about as sweet as one of them could be to me. 

“Thank you” I say and he nods and then smiles softly as I look at his mouth. He’d kissed me earlier. Just a soft peck and I Mmmm not even sure I should want to be kissing him or any of them. But he makes it easy to want to. 

“Will you take me for a walk?” I ask and he licks his lips. 

“Sure” he says and then stares at my mouth and then drops his hand and gestures towards the woods. 

“Lead the way” he says and I give a little smile and start to walk. 

“Where you going?” Shane asks walking around the cabin. 

“For a walk.” Hawk answers.

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“How do you all know each other?” I ask Hawk as we walk. 

He tells me about how a few were friends before hand, how most of them went to the same gym , and had the same interests and just ended up becoming the group of guys who hung out together. 

“What about your families?” I ask and Hawk slows and stops and turns and leans his back against a tree. 

“None of us had our own families, as far as. Wife and kids or anything like that.” He says. 

“What about you? A father? Mother?” I ask as I think about my own family. 

Hawk looks out into the woods and through the trees. 

“My mom…and a sister” he says. 

I’m quiet. Unsure of what I’m going to hear. 

“Did they..” I pause and he nods. 

“My sister got it first. I didn’t want to leave you know. And my mom wouldn’t leave…I wouldn’t expect her to. But I think…I think while it might have been selfish for me to leave my mother-“

“It’s not selfish” I say and he smiles softly at me. 

“I couldn’t just stay there and die. You know? They were everything I had, and without them, I wondered if it’s even be worth it to survive. Knowing I have to live with that loss.” He sighs and my eyes water. 

“But. If I stay alive, then they do too, even if only in the memories I have of them.” He says and my tears slip from my eyes and I nod. 

He looks at me. 

“So, I talked to the guys. We all decided , to come out here. It’s a cabin of one of my friends. I knew it was here. Told the guys about it. Made the plan to leave and some of them left behind family, but , they all, had hope you know? That everything would get under control. But I knew…seeing my sister. How fast it took her. It only took four days.” He says and I let more tears fall. 

“I’m sorry Hawk” I say and he looks at me and smiles. 

“Thank you” he says and then reaches out his hand and I take it and he pulls me towards him and my feet move till I’m toe to toe with him and he gently slips an arm around my lower back so I’m leaning on him and looking up at him. His other hand lifts to my face and he gently slips little hairs behind my ear. 

“What about you? Your family?” He asks. 

“My mom and dad.” I say. 

“They were ..sick when I left” I say. 

“My dad…he told me to go. And I didn’t want to. I really didn’t.” I say as emotion clogs my throat and I look down and let tears run down my cheeks and I can feel my lip quivering. 

“He was right. You know that don’t you? That you deserve a chance to live. We all do.” He says and I nod. 

“It’s just not fair” I say angrily , hating how stupid the world is. How cruel. How some fucking biological warfare made me a fucking orphan and had killed so much of the population.

“It’s not” he agrees and then wipes my tears and I lift my eyes to his. 

“I left. I didn’t know where to go. But knew that I couldn’t stay around. I would have probably gotten myself sick and killed if I hadn’t …if you guys hadn’t found me. And it’s fucked up. Because the only thing keeping me alive is that fact I’m useful , but only for sex”

“That’s not true.” He says. 

“Isn’t it though? That’s the only reason I’m not hungry right now. Not starving. Not sleeping in the dirt and cold at night , shivering unable to sleep.” I say and he cups my face in both hands. 

“If it fucked up that I’m glad you’re here, even if the arrangement is barbaric?” He asks and I shrug. 

“A little” I say and he smiles. 

“Already adapting to the rules and not lying.” He says and I give a humorless little laugh and nod. 

“Roman …he said he wasn’t good to you.” He says and I feel my breathing stop and look at him. 

“He’s sorry. You know. He won’t say it. But I know he is.” Hawk says and I just shrug. 

“It is what it is I guess” I say and look down. 

“I’ll make it good for you.” Hawk says and  my eyes go right back up to him. 

“When you’re ready, I promise I’ll be gentle. Not only because Roman made me promise to be, but because I want to be.” 

“He made you promise that?” I ask with a bit of surprise. 

He nods. “Told you. He feels bad. But out here, we’re all not ourselves. We are. But. You know” he says and I do unfortunately. So I nod. 

“Would it be okay to kiss you?” He asks and I suck in a little breath as I look up at him. Would it be okay? I know it would be. It’d be better than okay. I bet Hawk would kiss me soft and sweet and my mouth wouldn’t have to be told to “kiss back” like Roman had to tell me. 

“Yeah. Okay” I say and he smiles and dips his chin down and peers at me. 

“You don’t have to say yes Anna, but I just want to kiss you. Nothing else.” He says and I nod. 

“Okay” I whisper and he slips his back against the tree to stand up straighter and then tilts my head back and brings his mouth close, closer till his lips are just hovering right next to mine. 

“Close your eyes” he whispers and my eyes goes to his. I blink and then shut my eyes as my tongue slips over my lips and I feel his exhale on my lips. 

His lips brush mine lightly and then press softly upon them and my own lips press back. Our lips part a brief moment and then press together again. Hawks hands slip behind my head and his thumbs lay near my ears and he hums softly and I exhale , my hands lifting to his chest and his mouth keeps delivering one soft kiss after another. His head tilts one way , angling our mouths against one another , then it tilts the other way and his kisses aren’t hurried or as hungry as Romans. His tongue doesn’t slide out to taste my mouth , he just kisses me like first kisses usually are. As if he’s showing me just how gentle he’s going to be with me if I decide to have sex with him. It was weird , that I already knew I wanted to. That I thought he deserved to have me just for being so nice to me. It was pathetic , nobody deserved someone’s body. But if anyone could deserve someone’s body, it was Hawk.

“Can I taste your mouth?” He breathes on my lips and I just give him a little nod, my nose brushing against his. 

His tongue slips over my lips and I part them. My own tongue mimicking his movements and he groans as our tongues touch and his one hand slides from my head and reaches down to my waist and then around me as he pulls me closer. 

“You taste good” he whispers. 

“So do you” I exhale and he smiles against my lips and keeps kissing me. 

“Roman told me he went down on you” he asks and I suck in a breath and Hawks mouth brushes mine and his lips skirt across my cheek to my ear. 

“Did you enjoy it?” He asks and I whimper. Remembering this morning, how the world seemed to fade away for the few moments as my orgasm crashed through me. I nod. 

“Did you cum Anna?” He whispers and I whimper. His voice against my ear , his warm breath against it, pushing over my neck and I nod. 

“Yes” I answer and he brushes his lips against my ear. 

“Incase you’re wondering….if you asked him to do it again…he would….if you wanted to cum again….he’d do that for you…the day isn’t over….its still his day with you” 

I whimper and Hawk moans. 

“Would you let me watch him taste you Anna?” He asks and I gasp and he kisses my neck. 

“I want to watch you cum” he whispers on my skin.

“Can I watch you cum on Romans mouth?” He whispers as if there’s anyone around to hear. 

“Yeah” I exhale even though I wasn’t sure I’d be going to the cabin and politely asking Roman to eat me out. 

“Can I share with him?” He groans. “Can I taste your pussy Anna?” A little strangled whimper leaves me as my clit throbs and I pant. 

“Yeah” I answer and Hawk grabs my face gently and looks me in the eyes. 

“I want to just keep kissing you for now” he says and I nod multiple times and he smiles and then presses his lips to mine.