EroticReverie

Anna ….one week later 

I’ve forgiven Hawk. As fucked up as it is. But there’s nothing about my being here that isn’t fucked up. Nobody has touched me. Or even tried. The other talk to briefly during the day , and they all apologize. Except for Flynn.  Who is also clearly mad at the other for even apologizing. He huffs and snarls and pouts all day long. Not even Roman has tried to have sex with me. He’s done nothing but kiss my forehead for a week straight and I know it has to do with what they did, and the fact he saw my blood on those sheets. 

I’m not as scared as I was. But I’d be stupid not be at least a little scared. Mostly I was scared of Flynn. What he might do if he got the chance. But he hasn’t had the chance to anything. Anywhere Roman goes, I go now. Other than the patrols at night. Where he leaves me with Hawk. I don’t trust any one of them. But I trust Roman to at least keep his word to me to keep me safe. I’ve even forgiven him for the way he raped me first and took my virginity. He’d been rough. But he hadn’t been as mean as Flynn had been. Hadn’t broken me like the other did that night. But they’ve taken small steps to redeem themselves. And I know it’s just a matter of time before the rules shift again and I’m expected to fulfill the bargain again. Roman hasn’t mentioned it, but I’m not stupid. I know it’s better for everyone if they all, get to have me. It’s fucked up, but it’s the reality. 

I’ve taken a strong liking to Brandt. Even if he was the one with Flynn that morning where they both had their hands on me and were both helping their mouths to my breasts. But he’s the only one who hasn’t been inside of me. And ever since what the guys did to me that night he’s been oddly protective of me as well. Even if I wasn’t “his”. 

This morning it’s just me and him and he’s taking me through the woods as we forage for plants to bring back for lunch and dinner.  

He takes my hand and I follow him , careful where I’m stepping as I follow him and smile when we step into a small clearing. A little meadow with wildflowers.

He bends down and plucks a small purplish blue flower from the ground and holds it between his fingers as he stands back upright. 

“Is it edible?” I ask and he shrugs. 

Then he lifts it and I look up at him as he tucks it into my hair behind my ear with a small smile. 

“Not sure.” He says, “but it looks good on you” 

I feel myself blush a tiny bit and he smiles down at me. 

“I know you’re his.” He says. I nod in agreement. 

“But I don’t think he’d mind if I kissed you right now. Would you mind?” He asks and I open my mouth and then shut it. 

He waits. I shake my head. 

“I wouldn’t mind” I say softly. 

“Do you want me to?” He asks and his hand slips to the side of my neck and steps closer as I crane my head back and look up at him. 

“Kind of” I say and he smiles just a bit and then leans down. 

“Kind of hmm?” He asks and I nod. 

“That’s works for me Anna” he says and then I close my eyes and his kisses me for the first time. 

It’s soft. His lips aren’t demanding or hurried or starved or wild or scary. He kisses me like I’m delicate. Like my lips might break and shatter if he’s not careful with them. He presses just the soft kiss to my lips and then opens his eyes and I open mine. But then mine shut again after he confirms I’m not freaking out and kisses me again. And again. The kisses remain soft little pecks. His lips linger a little longer each time and mine push back against his. 

“Can I taste your mouth?” He whispers on my lips and I nod once and his tongue slips over my lips. Again. It’s soft and gentle the way his tongue glides over my parted lips and into my mouth. I know Roman won’t be upset. Or maybe he will be just a little bit because I’ve given my first kiss since that night to Brandt instead of him. 

The kiss was making me dizzy. It felt like under other circumstances that this would be the perfect kiss, that this could be a fucking movie kiss. 

“Can I touch your body?” He asks. I nod. 

His one hand slides down my back and over the curve of my ass and then back up under my shirt. The fact his hand didn’t go straight for my chest or between my legs but to the skin of my back made me feel even more comfortable doing this with him. 

“Youre so soft” he whispers on my mouth and then his mouth is gone and it’s kissing under my jaw and down my neck and I exhale shakily and my head tilts as his other hand goes up shirt at the back and his two large hands, slip up and down my back as he kisses on my neck and I let out a soft moan. 

It felt good. It felt sweet. Even if I was being naive and stupid. But I wanted things to work here. I didn’t want anyone to be mad at me or cause trouble. I didn’t want them to hate me and decide they were better off without me here or that I wasn’t worth it. But also, I just wanted him to keep kissing me and touching me like this. 

His hands were gentle, but the callouses on his palms are a reminder of just how rough these men could be. How strong they were. I didn’t hate it. And right now, that reminder didn’t scare me. I trusted Brandt more in this moment than I’ve trusted anyone else. 

“I don’t want to have sex” I say quietly and he nods. 

“Okay” he says softly and keeps kissing on my neck. 

“Do you want me to stop this?” He asks as his hands keeps rubbing gently at my back and his mouth kisses up my throat and I shake my head. 

“No” I answer him breathlessly. 

“You sure it’s okay to keep kissing you?” He asks and I nod. 

“Yeah” I exhale and then his mouth is back on mine and his hands slide down my back and onto my hips. I was wearing a pair of my leggings I’d packed in my bag and one of Romans t shirts and pair of my socks and sneakers and my underwear. I’ve given up my bras because I figure it’s best not wear them out unless I need to. But I have no need for it. And living here with them I’ve learned there plenty of things I can live without each day that I took for granted before the world went to shit. 

Brandt gently moves us to the grass and our bodies create a small pit in the tall grass and then he’s over me , his calloused hand sliding up my shirt as he kisses me. He moves to the side and rests on his hip as he lays beside me and touches my stomach while kissing me. 

My skin prickles everywhere with goosebumps as his hands moves inch by inch , sliding slowly back and forth up my stomach and torso and then his mouth leaves mine and my eyes open to look at him as his hand stops it’s upward trail , I nod to him as he waits for me to tell him not to touch my breasts. But , I want him to. 

So he does. His hand pushes up over one of them and I suck in a breath as my hard nipple is found by the center of his palm and then his hand drags down slowly and softly until his fingers lay over my nipples and then they shift to the side of my breasts and his thumb goes to my nipple. Grazing it slowly. Circling it. And I say nothing. Only the little bitches of my breath are heard as he watches my reaction. His eyes studying mine. Studying my mouth as it parts softy with little breaths and he smiles just a little as my back arches when he traces around my nipple with his thumb. 

“Can I see you?” He asks. I swallow and nod. 

He shifts. Sitting up a little to gently pull Roman’s shirt up and off me and then I’m laying there on my back with Brandts eyes on my chest and stomach. My face. Back to my breasts and his hand goes to my ribs and it smooths over my skin and he lifts his eyes back to mine. 

“Youre beautiful” he says. Even though he’s seen my naked body plenty already. It felt different now , showing myself to him like this. 

“Can I put my mouth on you Anna? Here” he says as his thumb again passes over my nipple and I nod. 

“Thank you baby” he whispers to me and I exhale hard at his words. At the thank you. Him thanking me for allowing him,  part of me wondering if he would anyways if I said no. But I think he’s trying to be good with me, like he knows I’m willing if they’re just fucking nice to me. Which is true. I know what I signed up for , but they didn’t have to make me fucking hate it. They could be nice to me and I’d be more than willing to make the bargain work out to everyone’s benefit. 

His lips are soft against my nipple and I whimper. 

It feels so good. My mouth parts and his mouth does too and he slides his tongue out and over my nipple.  And that feels even better. 

I moan softly and he exhales against my nipple and kisses it again. Licks it again. Traces my areola with his tongue and circles it into small paths until it winds right to my nipple and he flicks it several times and I squirm in my back. 

His hand slides down my stomach.

“You just tell me when i need to stop Anna” he says and I nod with a little whimper. But my head goes back as his fingers push under the waist of my leggings and down into them. Over my pubic hair and his middle finger pushes between my lips and I shift my legs. Spreading them and he groans as he sucks my nipple gently and the pad of his middle finger rubs my clit softly. Up and down a few times and then around it slow gentle circles that make my hips lift and roll up and down as I close my eyes and pant up at the sun. Gasping with each circular movement of his finger around my clit. 

“Does that feel good baby?” He whispers on my wet nipple and I nod with my eyes closed. 

“Yeah” I breathe and he groans softly and kisses up my chest and then I relax my head and look up at him. He’s watching my face again as he looks down at me and keeps rubbing my clit. 

“Can I make you cum baby, is that alright?” He asks and I whimper with another nod and he leans down and kisses me. 

My hands lift to his face. All of them with haphazard facial fair most of the time. Growing it out for days. Sometimes trimming it with scissors. Sometimes shaving it off. Brandts was currently growing back with stubble. A dark shadow covering where his beard would brow back in. I liked the little prick of hairs against my fingertips as I held his face as I kissed him. His finger on my clit remaining slow and steady. 

I was too ashamed to ask for him to put his finger inside of me. I’d let him if he asked. But I wasn’t about to admit I wanted it first. But I was wet. And aching. It had taken days for what the others did to me to stop hurting. Only a few days ago did I feel as if I’d actually fully recovered from it. So I didn’t understand why I wanted anything at all back inside of me, even if it was just a simple finger.  But I can feel myself dripping , growing wetter and feeling the ache inside of me as if my pussy is begging for something inside of it. I didn’t understand it at fuckjng all. I shouldn’t want anything like this after what happened. But was it so bad to want it if he was being so gentle with me? I don’t know. I don’t care. 

“Do you want me to finger you baby?” He asks against my mouth and it’s like I can’t answer quick enough. 

“Yes” I cry and he groans and he slides his finger right down and again, he pulls back to watch my face as he does something new to me. 

“I’ll be gentle” he whispers and I nod. Even though Roman had promised the same thing and lied.  Even though I had no reason to believe him, I did.  

His finger rubs my entrance. He groans and lets his finger toy with my wet pussy slowly. 

“Youre so wet Anna” he tells me. 

I feel myself blush with shame and he leans down and kisses my cheek. 

“It’s okay baby, it’s okay to like it” he whispers near my ear. 

“I only want to touch you if you like it baby, do you like it Anna?” He asks and I nod against is cheek and he groans. 

“I’m gonna put my finger in you baby, tell me if I hurt you” he says and I feel my eyes water. I couldn’t believe how gentle he was being with me. It was even gentler than Hawk had been with me. 

I feel his finger slide inside me just a little. It doesn’t hurt at it. It’s a relief. I’m not sure why I need it. But I do. And my body is glad to have his finger giving it what it needs. 

“How’s that?” He whispers , panting near my ear with hard breaths and I nod. 

“Good” I moan as his finger slides in an out working slowly into me. Taking his time to let my pussy soak his finger before sliding more inside of me. 

“How good does it feel?” He asks. 

“So good” I exhale and he groans. 

“I’m gonna slide it deeper baby, put it all inside of you, okay?” He asks and I nod. I could handle a single finger. I knew that much. 

I let out a small cry as I feel his knuckles press to my pussy and feel his finger buried inside of me and moving against my walls as he strokes me deep inside. 

“Did you need that baby? Does that feel good?” He asks and I let out pathetic whine and nod. 

“There you go” he whispers. His hand rocking , his finger gently sliding in and out of my pussy. “There you go baby, let me give you what you need Anna, tell me what else you need” 

“I, don’t k-know” I whimper. 

“Do you need me to take your pants off and kiss you between your legs while I finger you?” 

I whimper and my body arches and I nod. 

“You want me to eat your pussy , baby?” He whispers. 

“Yes” I answer with shaking breath and he groans. 

“Tell me what you want then Anna, tell me what you need me to do for you baby” 

I whimper. Not wanting to say it out loud. But I do anyways. 

“I need you to eat my pussy” I whimper and he groans. Then kisses my cheek. Then my mouth and then lift up and looks down at me and then shifts and moves between my legs and drags my pants down till I’m naked in the grass and he’s laying on his stomach. 

I’m lifting up onto my elbows and watching him as he kisses my stomach. Then down. Down. His eyes lifting and he smiles softly. 

“Thank you baby, I’ve needed this too” he says and then his tongue drags up through my lips and my mouth drops and I gasp. My pussy clenching his hands gently push my legs wider. 

“Fucking perfect” he groans and then his eyes look down and his hands push up my inner thighs and his thumbs spread my lips and he drags his tongue over my cunt to my clit and I feel my legs shake. 

“That feel good baby?” He asks and I nod and he smiles up at me. 

“Do you like me licking your pussy Anna? Do you want me here between these legs?” 

I nod. “Yes” 

“Mmm, good, lay back baby, I’m gonna make you feel so fucking good, lay back and enjoy it” 

I do what he says and my eyes roll back and I’m writhing with each lick of his tongue. Gasping when his finger slides back inside of me and he groans when my hips begin to move. Riding his finger. Riding his tongue.

It takes less than a few minutes before I fall apart. Crying out as my orgasm rips through me. His finger sliding out and his tongue finishing me off as my legs snap shut and I grab and the fucking grass. Pulling it out of the ground as I buck against his tongue. 

I cry even louder when it becomes far too much and my body rejects the overwhelming rush of it. Brandt stops and kisses back up my body and I’m panting. Whimpering.  As he kisses me again. Groaning into my mouth. 

“Can I have you Anna?” He asks and I whimper. 

It’s not that I didn’t want to let me him have sec with me. I for some reason , really wanted to. But part of me liked that he was still the only one not to have me. 

“Will you be mad if I say no?” I ask  nervously. 

“No baby” he says and I fucking melt. “Not at all” he whispers and kisses my mouth and groans. 

“Can I cum while I look at you?” He asks. I nod. Even though it felt far more intimate than sex when he lifted up and kneeled between my legs and lowered his pants and began to stroke himself while just looking down at my body. 

I didn’t know what to say or do. So I laid there. And he didn’t care one bit. Just looking at me was enough for him. He did all the talking. 

“Youre so fucking beautiful” 

“Youre perfect Anna” 

“Youre mine too baby, you’re mine too” he says and I swallowed and then gasped as he came all over my stomach. Up between my tits. Ropes of cum hitting my skin. It was a lot of cum. He made a mess of me as I laid there being covered by his cum. 

He groaned loudly as he watched himself paint my skin. Groan again as he finished and then panted and pushed up and leans over me and put his hands in the grass near my shoulders and lowered his face to mine and pressed a kiss to my forehead. The same way Roman does. 

“Thank you baby” he said again. And again, the “thank you” was appreciated and made me feel safe with him. 

“Thank you for being gentle with me, and not being mad when I said no” I say and he kisses my forehead again. 

“Let’s get you cleaned off. They’re gonna wonder where we are” he smiles and sits back up and stands and he grabs my pants. Turning them right side out and then he uses a finger to wipe his cum off me and then into the grass. Continuing this until he’s cleaned me off well enough for me to put Romans shirt back on. 

“Let’s go home baby” he said, taking my hand once I was dressed.