EroticReverie

Roman

I'm standing outside with the others, Flynn is in the house being a fucking baby still, when Brandt and Anna come through the woods, with their baskets and Anna is...smiling..up at him. Her nose scrunches as she talks to her and she fucking giggles. Fucking laughs. For him. And i see him watch her as she does, a big fucking smile on his face as he takes in the sound, takes in the smile on her face as her head goes back a little. The sound makes everyone else turn their head as well. 

I feel their heads then come back to me. Im silent. Just standing there. Am I fucking jealous? Why am I mad she's laughing? Because it's with him, and not with me. I grit my teeth, sniff and go back to preparing the grill for lunch. 

"Hey, you guys took awhile." Griffin says to them and I can hear their foot steps growing closer and I dont look up. 

"Did we?" Brandt asks and then walks over and Anna places her basket beside his on the ground. 

"Long time for fucking half filled baskets." I snap when my eyes look at the fucking joke of greens and berries and mushrooms. 

Silence blankets the area. Fuck. It slipped out. But I cant fucking stand that Im her protector, and she's smiling and laughing with someone else before me. It's petty and fucking childish, but I cant fucking help it. 

Bruin clears his throat and pushes up off a stump where he was sharpening his knife. 

"Let's go um...clean the table off." He says.

"All five of us?" Griffin laughs. 

"Yes dickwad." Bruins says, his tone clearly trying to hint that I need a fucking moment. 

"Oh...yeah..yep...got it....teamwork and stuff." He says and I roll my fucking eyes as they all get up. 

I let the grill slam onto the stone that holds it over the fire pit and then stand up. Anna looking at me, her eyes are scared, worried, nervous and I rub a hand over my face. 

"Dont gotta be a dick man" Brandt says to me as he walks around me, leaving me with Anna. 

"Are you mad at me?" She asks once Brandt is inside with the rest of them. 

I look at her and shake my head. "No , i'm not mad at you." I say and she walks over and stand in front of me, shes five nine, not small or tiny by any means, but she looks it anyways. She looks small to me when she looks at me with her big blue eyes. 

"What happened out there?" I ask and nod to the woods. 

She swallows. I already know something happened, he probably fucked her. I knew eventually I'd have to share her again, and he hasnt been with her yet, so it made sense. So why was I so fucking angry about it. Not even angry with her, or even with him, just, so, fucking, angry. At nobody. 

"I didnt have sex with him if that's what you're asking." She says, a little bit of attitude coming out in her voice. 

"Dont put words in my fucking mouth, you know exactly what I asked you." I say and she crosses her arms and I roll my eyes. 

But she doesnt fucking answer me. and THAT makes me even more angry. 

But i ask the one thing that truly matters. 

"Did he fucking hurt you?" I ask. I wasnt thinking he did, I doubt shed be smiling and laughing with him if he did, but I had to ask anyways, just to be sure. I can tell by the pinch of her brows and the way she shakes her head slightly, that he truly didnt. 

He's still the only one who HASNT hurt her. Flynn hurt her the worst , at least in my opinion and im sure she'd agree. Then Bruin, Griffin, and Shane by joining in when they'd all raped her. Then Hawk for not stopping them, Then me for being the first to have her, for being to rough with her , too selfish. And then Bruin, whos worst offense was touching her tits and sucking them when I found him and Flynn in bed with her that morning. After all that's happened, im guess that incident wasnt even on her fucking radar of the worst things thats happened since she's come here. 

"no, he didnt hurt me, he was nice to me...gentle." she says. 

I want to ask her exactly what happened. But i already did. And she didnt tell me. It fucking pissed me off for her to keep secrets from me, even if it wasnt my fucking business what she did with the others, if she wanted to. But wasnt it? How can i protect her if I dont know everything? 

"can you please tell me what you did with him?" I ask and she blinks several times, and yeah, its shocking to me too that I fucking say please and ask gently. 

"I dont...I dont want to say it." she says. 

I step closer and she looks away as I lift my hand to her face.

"look at me." I say and she brings her eyes right back to me. 

"There's no shame in it. Im not mad. I think we both know I cant keep you to myself even though I want to." I say and she nods. 

"I know" she says. 

"did he kiss you?" I ask. 

she nods.

"where? here?" I ask my thumb grazing her lower lip.

She nods.

"Is that the only place he kissed you?" I ask. 

She shakes her head. 

"here?" I ask as my thumb drag along the side of her neck , my hand gently placed at her throat.

she nods.

"anywhere else?" I ask. 

She nods.

"did he kiss your pretty tits, Little Anna?" I ask and she swallows hard and nods.

"How about your pussy, did he kiss that too?" I ask and she exhales through her parted lips and then licks them. 

She nods.

"Was it good?" I ask her and then slide my hand down her chest, over her breast and down to her waist and pull her against me, by sliding my arm around her lower back, her one hand coming to my chest and she nods. 

"Did you cum for him Little Anna?" he asks. 

"yes" she breathes. 

My jaw clenches.

"Did you suck his cock?" I ask. 

she shakes her head. 

"Did you jerk him off?" I ask.

She shakes her head. 

"Did he cum?" I ask. 

She nods.

"Tell me how." 

"Why?" she asks, her voice shaking.

"Because i need to know." 

"he...asked ...if he could cum..while looking at me." she says and I lick my lips. 

"I was...laying in the grass..and he...touched himself while looking at me..." 

"where did he cum?" I ask. 

"On me" she says. 

"Where" I growl. 

she sucks in a breath and I slide my hand down and grab her ass. 

"Tell me where Little Anna" i say, my hand on her ass pulling her harder against me. 

"my..stomach...and...chest..." 

"and then what?" I ask. 

"n-nothing, then...we came back." she stammers

"All smiles and giggles." I say and she swallows. 

"how come you smile for him and not for me?" I ask and she shrugs.

"I think...im still scared of you..a little." she says and my jaw clenches.

"Because i've hurt you." I say. 

She nods once. 

"And because i know you'll do it again." she says and my nostirls flare.

"you protect me...and you havent tried to have sex with me...but you will...and you'll be rough again" she says, her lip trembling. 

"i just want you to be nice to me...like he was." she says, and her eyes water. 

I say nothing, because Im afraid my voice will crack, so I just slide my hand behind her head, let my fucking hand on her ass, slide up her back and hold her to me and she tucks her head under my chin and wraps her arms around my middle. 

She was probably right. I probably would fucking hurt her again. Whether I meant to or not. So I couldnt argue, even if I wanted to. Couldnt make promises to her that I wouldnt. And I hated what that said about me. 

"You should sleep with Brandt  in bed tonight." I say and she pulls back, and the tears fall now. 

"what?" she asks. 

"if hes who you feel safest with...you should sleep beside him." I say. 

Her brows pinch. 

"Are you...punishing me for being honest? What happened to no lies? What happened to everyone tells the fucking truth no matter what?" She cries and I look away. 

"Im not punishing you. Im letting you be with him. He's who you should belong to till your ready to be with anyone again." I say and turn from her. 

She says nothing, but i can hear the little whimper, the sniffles. Maybe part of me is punishing her, but part of me believes it only makes sense. If he's the one she can laugh with, he's the one she feels more comfortable with, safer with. 

"Roman" she says my name in the most heart wrenching little voice crack. 

"it's fine Anna." I say. 

"Im going to start this fire...have one of them help you bring up the meat from the cellar" I say. 

She's silent. 

then her feet stomp away and I close my eyes and take a deep breath. 

...She doesnt talk to me for the rest of the day.