EroticReverie

Killian 

We've only been having sex for about ten minutes, and have already switched into five different positions. We're panting, sweating , and Shay Adaway is telling me she loves me every ten seconds and I've never been so hard in my fucking life. 

I thought I had to worry about her running, thought I'd freaked her out and said it too soon. I know she loves me, I've known for awhile. I wasn't concerned about when we said it to each other,  and I've held back , because of her. Because I know how shitty things were with her ex, and that no matter how good I am to her, she was still terrified. And i understood, so I've been patient. As long as she was still my girlfriend, and kept letting me try to prove to her that Id never hurt her, that's all I wanted. And i'd have gladly gone the rest of my life with her never hearing the words dircetly from her. Because like I said, Shay had said it plenty in her sleep, and had said it to me the night she was drunk and I put her to bed. So I knew how she felt. 

Seeing her so stressed out about not having said it back immediately, only made me love her more. Because she was scared of me hurting her, but she was also scared of hurting me. She thought she'd hurt my feelings and was having a full on meltdown when I'd laid down without her in bed. I hadnt been thinking, I knew our routine, I was just honestly too lost in my head, thinking about what I could do to make sure she didnt run away from me again. But then she said it, and I've never been happier in my entire life. 

"I'm going to fuck you all night" I groan as I throw her onto her back, and get back between her legs and push my cock back into her and she pants and grabs onto me, legs wrapping around me, hands on my back as she looks up at me. 

"yes please" she nods. 

We started out soft and slow, and that lasted all of a minute before we turned into two fucking insane animals, fucking like the world was ending. But it was only just fucking beginning. She said she loved me, and she's said it nearly a hundred times since and I cant fucking get enough of hearing her say it. 

I grab her legs and push them back, holding them as I kneel and thrust and look down, watching my cock slide into her pussy. 

I needed her, all the fucking time. I meant what I said, every second she's not around, I need her. I got sick of being around most people after awhile, needing some alone time , but not with Shay. Because she wasnt just someone. She's MY someone. She was a fucking part of me, and I can't believe how hard I've fallen for her from the start. And everyday, she just makes me love her even more. 

I drop her legs, letting them fall back around me and lean down and kiss her, her hands coming to my face, our mouths panting hard and crashing over each others, mouths slipping over one anothers as we pant and moan as I thrust and she writhes beneath me. 

"i love you, i love you" she breathes , over and over and I groan , saying it back everytime. 

"let's move in together" I groan and kiss her and then pause. Fuck. I did it again. Im about to pull back and apologize, because I know her and I've just dropped the i love you bomb tonight, i didnt need to drop the fact I wanted to move in with her too. Im such a fucking asshole, im being pushy and-

She nods. Kisses me hard. "Yeah" she moans. 

Wait. What?

I pause and then I do pull back. 

"yeah?" I ask, my hips stop moving and she whines and grabs my ass and bucks her hips. 

"keep fucking me, don't stop" she whines.

"wait a sec" I pant. 

She shakes her head. "absolutely not, keep going Killian" she whines and I laugh and smile and grab her hands and pin them to the bed and she whines.

"Killiannnn" she whines. 

"Wait, just, real quick...did you just...did you hear what I said?" I ask , panting as I hold her wrists. 

"yes, im not deaf" she says and then lifts her head and brings her mouth to mine. 

"i want to move in together, i want everything with you" she says and I swallow a quickly forming lump in my throat. I dip my head down as my eyes water, I move my hips, thrusting again. She moans as she grabs my ass, panting into my ear. 

"I love you baby" she moans. 

"i love you too" I say and she grabs my face and makes me lift it. I slow again. She frowns and then wipes my cheek as tears roll down it. 

"Killian" she says softly. 

"baby" she whispers, and we're both still and I shake my head. 

"You're so good to me. You're the best boyfriend. I'm in love with you. I want to move in with you. I don't care if it's your place or mine, or somewhere brand new. I just want to be with you. Anywhere, all the time." she says and I I turn my head, more tears falling. 

"fuck, shit..im sorry" I clear my throat and she's smiling softly when she looks back at me. 

"cmere" she whispers and pulls my face down and nudges her nose to mine. 

"werent expecting that?" she asks and I shake my head. 

"i just....god, i fucking love being with you" i say shakily. 

"i know, im pretty great" she smiles and I nod even though she's being playful. 

"you really are Shay...you have no idea...my mouth cant hold anything back anymore ...im getting greedy, and im sorry...i just....god..you're it baby....you're the one...i know it...and i just...cant control how bad i fuckin want you around all the damn time" I sigh and she smiles.

"you'll get sick of me at some point" she smiles and strokes my cheeks. 

I shake my head. "never, you're fucking incredible...i'm so lucky Shay." i say and she smiles and kisses me softly. 

"I'm the lucky one....if it werent for you chasing me down, annoying the shit out of me" she smiles teasingly. 

"I'd be alone right now...instead of with a man who loves me better than I ever thought was possible...i'm the lucky one Killian. I'm so glad you hit on me in the bar...i'm so glad we fucked each others brains out that night" she smiles. 

"and im glad you didnt give up on what you wanted...im glad you've shown me what it is that I want....because I want you...only you...i know it more than i know anything else, that you're who i'm supposed to be with....im so lucky you put up with my stubborn ass...im so lucky to have you baby...so lucky" she says and kisses me softly. 

"I'm telling you right now....once we move in together." I say. "A year...is as long as I'll be able to wait before asking you to marry me" I say and she smiles.

"You're very bold tonight Killian...gonna ask me for a baby next?" She says, but she does it with a smile on her face, not a look of panic, or fear, or anything else. 

"Might ask you for one before i give you a ring" I say and start to thrust again and she hums. 

"I dont want kids right away....i want them...with you....but....i want this....for a long time..."

"how fucking long baby?" I groan and thrust harder and she moans. 

"at least....a few years....or more" she breathes. 

"Five tops." I say. 

"You cant negotiate my womb Killian" she hisses as I thrust hard and deep.

"Five years. Max." I groan. 

"fuck you" she moans "fine...five years...max....just..fuck me" 

I smile and she rolls her eyes with a groan. 

"smug, asshole" she hisses and grabs my face. 

"but you love me" I smirk on her lips as I thrust again, groaning as she gasps on my lips.

She nods. "I do...i love you...i really fucking love you Killian" 

"what if i dont wait a year to ask you to marry me?" I groan. 

"Killian...patience baby....learn some" she moans as we fuck each other faster. 

"you make it fucking impossible" I grunt. 

"one year....AFTER we move in together...THEN you can ask me...if you still want me" 

"shut up, dont say that, dont doubt it for a second that i'm still gonna want you." I growl at her. 

"i'm just saying" she pants.

"you're done saying anything...be quiet" I groan and fuck her harder.

Shay screams out, arching her back, cursing.

"Does that feel like a man that will ever change his fucking mind about you? Huh baby? Does that fucking feel like a man who's unsure about needing you and this fucking pussy for the rest of his life?" 

She shakes her head. "no-no" she moans. 

"Anytime you doubt the way i feel, or the way im gonna feel a year, ten years, or a hundred years from now...you let me know...and i'll fucking remind you exactly how i feel about you" I groan and grab her throat and brace my other hand on the bed and she moans when I choke her slightly while fucking her. 

"Quit talking like you don't have me wrapped around your god damn finger Shay....i'd fucking die before giving you up....you..are...fuckin...everything to me" I grunt and slam deeper and she cries out. 

I drop my head down, groaning in her ear. "everything ....fuckin everything"