EroticReverie

Maribel... Two Months  Later

I'm laughing, tears in my eyes, my belly hurts, my cheeks hurt, and for the first time in two years, my heart doesn't. Because Cade is laughing with me. I like making him laugh, he deserves to laugh. I'm happy that I get to be the one to make him smile. I'm happy he spelled out for me, exactly what he wanted. He's the most honest guy I've ever given my time to. Yes, some of the truths hurt, but at least I don't have to do mental gymnastics to try to figure out what he's feeling. We're both still obviously fucked in the head by what our exes did to us. Because we still let each other pretend we're someone else sometimes, when we're having sex. Is it helpful? no, it's probably not helpful to our realtionship to allow each other to picture the people parts of us are still in love with. But, I do know, that I also love Cade. When I told him I could picture myself falling in love with him, I'd meant it. And spending nearly everyday together these past few months, has made it impossible not to fall for him. 

We both know we don't want our exes back, and we both know we're still in love with them. For me, it's more being in love with the person I thought my ex was. Of course I didnt love him as he was now, married to my sister with a baby on the way. But I had missed having someone, and was realizing it wasnt him i still loved, it was just the having someone part that I loved. But now....I had Cade. I know he's still in love with Ariella. I see it everytime we're around her, which hasn't been often, but enough to see the way he still hurts inside when he looks at her. Maybe it should bother me more than it does, but getting to know Cade, it only makes me love him more to see him struggle to let go of what he had with her. 

Our laughter subsides and we laugh softer, quiet, my little giggles fading when he rolls over in bed , in just his boxers and then leans over me , caging me in he braces his arms on the bed and moves all the way over me. Im still laughing a little , but know the look on his face. Because it's the way I used to look at my ex, and it's the way that I look at Cade now. Love. Adoration.

"You're fucking crazy." He whispers with a smile and leans down and kisses my forehead and I close my eyes with a smile and he kisses over to my temple, down my cheek. 

"it's part of my charm" I say and he hums and smiles against my neck. 

"it really is, isnt it?" he asks and then kisses down my neck and over my shoulder and across my upper chest and I lift my hands to his face and lift it and he stops kissing my skin and looks at me. 

"what's wrong?" he asks and looks at me. 

"I'm about to say something." I say. His brow lifts, then drops and then worry sets in. 

"shit....is it good or bad?" he asks and I shrug. 

"I um...good..i think" I say and he nods.

I take a deep breath. 

"I'm pretty sure i'm in love with you." the words tumble out quickly and my cheeks flush. Immediately the corners of his mouth tip up. 

"Really had me worried there for a second" he says and I laugh nervously. Because. He didn't say it back. And i dont want him to, unless he means it. And I know he wouldnt say it just to say it. 

"yeah, sorry, i just....i'm in love with you...and i wanted to say it...and it's okay that you aren't in love with me too, i just-"

"hey" he cuts me off. I swallow and lift my lashes, my eyes going to him. 

"I'm in love with you too." he says and my brows jump and pinch together. 

"really? you dont have to say that to make me feel better, i know we're messy and you're still in love with her and-"

"Im not just saying it....I'm in love with you Maribel." he says and kisses me. 

"do you still love her too?" I ask. He sighs. 

"honestly?" he asks. 

"Always" I nod. 

"you just told me you're in love with me Maribel...and ....i don't think i've ever been happier...i think....i'll always be in love with her.... i dont think there will every be a day I dont think about her...she....she's the first person I fell in love with...and I'll always see her, and think about what couldve been....but i've started to realize...what couldve been....never would have been....as soon as i start to think about it...im already getting better at reminding myself that her and I were both painting different pictures, different futures....hers never had me in it....not really....not the way i had hers in mine.....and i know you get it...cause it was the same way with your ex.....i'll always love her....the her before she chose someone else....i cared about her....and maybe i shouldnt anymore....but i always will.....i can't....turn that off.....but....im painting a new picture." he says and I nod, my eyes watering. 

"It's part of why i fell in love with you" I say and he lifts one hand and gently pushes his hand gently over my forehead and the side of my face and pushes my hair back. 

"seeing how you love her, even now" I say and he shakes his head. 

"I love you now." he says and I feel the tears slip. 

He dips down, kisses my cheek. 

"I'm in love with you Maribel. Only you. Not her. Not anyone else ever again. Just you." he whispers, kissing on my cheek between his whispered words. I nod. 

"It's only you for me too" I say and he smiles against my cheek. 

"We're letting them go, aren't we?" he asks and kisses down my neck. 

I nod and tilt my head. "yeah" I breathe. 

"Cade?" I ask breathlessly as he kisses down my chest, lips brushing my nipple and sucking it softly. 

"hmm?" he asks and flicks his tongue over it, kisses it and lifts his head to look at me. 

"Dont ever let me go, okay?" I ask. He smiles and comes back up.

"Never" he says and kisses me and I grab his face, kissing him back. Kissing never felt the way it does with Cade. How any woman could be kissed by this man, and not fucking fall head of feet madly in love with him, was beyond me. While part of me didnt like Ariella for hurting him the way she did , part of me was gratfeul, that her mistake was to my benefit. 

"you're crazy, and im crazy about you, i'm keeping you" he says and I nod and he smiles. 

"tell me you love me again" he says and I smile with a little laugh. 

"I love you Cade" I say and he hums and kisses me. 

"I love you too Maribel" he says and then is kissing down my body, laying between my legs, and eating me out slowly, lesiurely , taking his time as he kisses my pussy and licks it, sucks my clit and slides two gentle fingers inside of me. Kissing my thighs with little i love yours whispers on my skin as he makes me cum once, twice, three time, before he moves back up and removes his boxers along the way and then slides into  me.