EroticReverie

Kane King .....Three weeks later

I sit beside Charlotte in the funeral home, her hand in mine as she stares at the two urns in silence. I don't say anything, don't tell her that we should go, and thanks to my brothers, the funeral home directors are kept from coming in here to try and politely usher us out. 

She hasn't cried at all today. Though Im guessing she might never cry again, I think over the past few weeks, and the last week alone especially, she's cried a million lifetimes worth of tears. 

Her mother held on for another two weeks, then, her father, as if the heartbreak along with the cancer, was just too much for him to take. Followed his wife into peace. David went in his sleep, the night after Marylin passed away at home. 

A lot of people in town came to pay their respects today. The only people still around though, are the group of leather clad bikers standing outside the funeral home. Everyone from the club came. Even when they knew Marylin and David had been the kind of people to look down on us. They showed up, maybe for me, but mostly for Charlotte. My Charlotte. 

The television that has photos fading in and out on the screen, fades into one of my favorite I've seen today. Charlotte, just a baby, in her fathers arms, with him looking down at her with probably the biggest smile I've ever seen on any man. It makes it easier to forgive him, though I already had anyways. But seeing that much love on his face when she was only days old, I didnt blame him for wanting to protect his only child, his little girl. 

Charlotte takes a deep breath that draws my attention from the screen to her. I give her hand a little squeeze. 

"Okay." she says softly. "We should go." 

"Only if you're ready." I say. 

She nods. "I'm ready." 

But I dont move, I wait for her to be the one to stand. Doing so, we sit for another fifteen minutes before Charlotte heaves another breath and I stand along with her. 

We walk to the front of the funeral home in silence, my hand still with hers. The woman at the front hands her some folders, a box with a few things inside and we walk outside. My dad is there with my brothers and the rest of the club, all of them waiting for us. Charlotte forces a small smile for them. 

"Anything you need. You let us know, yeah?" My dad says in his gruff voice. But it's the softest I've ever heard him manage to speak to anyone.

Charlotte nods with a soft "thank you". 

"Thank you for coming" she says. "It means a lot that you all came." She says a little louder. Everyone just nods.

My brothers girlfriend Victoria, who adores Charlotte and has been calling her every day to check on her since things started to get bad with her parents. Victoria walks over to Charlotte. 

"Want to get drunk?" She asks and Charlotte surprises me with a little laugh that bubbles out of her. 

"Vic" I say and shake my head. 

"What?" Victoria huffs and places her hands on her hips. 

"The girl deserves a drink, does she not?" Victoria asks me , then looks at Charlotte.

"What do you say, let's get drunk at the bar and make our men cart our belligerent asses home at the end of the night." She says with a smile and Charlotte again, laughs and her eyes water.

"Yeah, okay." Charlotte nods. 

Charlotte turns her head. 

"As long as you're okay with it." She says. And before I can tell her Im more than okay with whatever she wants to do, Vic interrupts. 

"He's not the boss of you, come on, you can ride with me in my car. We'll listen to chick music." she says and takes Charlotte's other hand. 

Charlotte smiles and nods and I smile softly at Charlotte. 

"You sure?" I ask. 

She nods. 

"Oh please, it's a five minute drive to the bar, give her up." Vic teases and Im glad she's making my girlfriend smile and laugh a little, but I give her the stink eye anyways. 

"Come on! Drinks!" Vic says and I smile as I watch Charlotte go with Vic. 

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Everyone is back at the club, and maybe they all have the right idea. They give Charlotte free reign of the jukebox, and feed her drink after drink. She doesnt drink them fast, but it's only been two hours, and she's four drinks and a two shots in and currently sitting with Victoria in a little booth laughing with tears in her eyes as they talk about god knows what. I don't hover, even though I want to. Because Im not as good as Vic when it comes to not acting like Charlotte is breakable. Clearly Victoria  has the right idea, because Charlotte is eating chicken tenders and french fries, the first real "meal" I've seen her eat in three weeks. She's clearly lost several pounds from the stress and loss of her appetite. I tried and tried to gently suggest she eat something, and trying to get her to eat. Not fighting her when she told me she wasn't hungry. But now she's drunk and eating , and, the only reason I dont tell her to pace herself with the next three beers she drinks, is beacuse I figure any calories she can get , is good.

Kip , my best friend, hands me a drink. 

"Driving." I say, shaking my head. Not looking away from Charlotte.

"Just have a god damn drink, you can sleep in the back." He says and I shake my head. 

"Man, she's not gonna wanna go back to that house tonight, drink, get drunk with your girlfriend, and make sweet sweet love to her later." He says and I glare at him, rolling my eyes. 

"Dont talk about making love to my girlfriend" I warn him. 

"not me dumbass, you."  he says and shoves the beer into my hand. 

"Yeah. I know not YOU jackass. I mean dont talk about it at all." I say and he laughs and shakes his head and takes a drink of his beer.

"Quit staring at her like that, she's fine, she's laughing, you should be laughing with her. Enjoy this little bit of happiness with her man. Come on." He says and elbows me. 

I take a drink of the beer, and realize he's right. She won't want to be in that house tonight. But he's not right about making love to her. Because we havent gotten there yet. No complaints from me though, because expecting your girlfriend whose parents are dying to lose her virginity to you during such a fucked up time, wasn't on my fucking mind. Okay, having sex with Charlotte was always on mind. But with her, it was the last thing on my mind these past weeks. I just wanted to fucking hold her. Be with her. Take care of her. Make sure she was okay. And i definitely didnt expect it to happen anytime soon either, she'd be grieving, and vulnerable, and id be fucking damned if i'd take advantage of that. My only priority was keeping my promise to her father and mother, and taking care of their daughter, being there for her. 

I walk over to the table, smiling at her when she looks up at me, glassy eyed and cheeks flushed from the alcohol.

"Hi." she says. 

"Hi Charlie Girl" I say and Victoria fakes a gagging noise. 

"Alright, fine, you can have her back." Victoria says. "I need to go make sure your brother is behaving anyways." She says as she gets up to go over to Tyler, who is ALWAYS behaving, because if he wasn't she'd be fucking giving him hell. 

Charlotte scoots over and I sit down in the booth with her and she smiles and looks at my beer.

"You bring me another drink?" she asks. I laugh a little. 

"thirsty tonight Charlie Girl?" I tease, but slide it over to her. 

She takes it and lifts it and winks as she takes a long drink.

"Easy baby" I laugh and lift my hand to bottle and take it from her. 

She holds in a burp and then covers her mouth and I smile as she points to the chicken tenders and fries.

"You want some?" she asks. 

"Im good baby, you eat em" I say and she shrugs and picks up a french fry and swirls in in ketchup and then pops it in her mouth. 

"These fries are so fucking good" she says with a moan. 

I smirk to myself. I dont think i'll ever get over hearing sweet Charlotte Darling swearing. 

"These chicken tenders are fucking good too" she says and I laugh and she rips one in half and drenches it in honey mustard and takes a large bite and chews as she dips it again and I smile, just watching her eat. 

"you're the best boyfriend, you know that?" she asks, without even looking at me, just laser focused on her next bite of chicken tenders.

"And you're the best girlfriend" I say and she shakes her head as she chews.

"I'm not." she says.

"Yes you are" I say and take another drink of our now shared beer.

"I was a bitch to you." she says.

I laugh. "when?" 

"Before" she says and takes a french fry. "When i broke up with you because of that girl that kissed you" 

I lift my hand and rub her back. "We were young Charlie, and you werent a bitch, you've never been even close to a bitch to me." 

"But i was, a real big one." she says. Then drops the fry and sighs and looks at me.

"Are you mad at me for breaking up with you? It's okay if you are, i deserve it, for being such a bitch." She says. 

I just smile at her as she tries to focus her drunk eyes on me. "Im really sorry Kane, i really am." 

"I know you are baby, and no, im not mad at you. I could never be mad at you." I say. 

"Even though I was a bitch?" She asks and I laugh. 

"You were not a bitch." I say.

"Just admit it. I was a big bitch." she sighs and pouts her lower lip. "Im so sorry" 

"I will never, ever, consider you...my sweet Charlie Girl, a bitch. So enough of that. Eat your fries." I say and she sighs.

"I think im drunk" she says. 

"yeah, i think so too, you good?" I ask and she nods.

"not gonna be sick?" I ask and she shakes her head.

"Eat your fries Charlie." I say and she nods. 

"yeah, okay" she says and I laugh softly as she gladly returns to the fries and I just watch her as she eats and talks and tells me how much she likes Victoria, that she hopes her and my brother Tyler get married, then tells me we need to find my oldest brother Tyler a girlfriend, so he can get married too. Then talks about how she loves my family, how she always loved my family, and talks about how nice it was that the club came to the funeral. But she doesnt cry, doesnt seem to get too emotional, just yaps and yaps as she finishes off the fries and chicken tenders. I listen to every word and smile as I let her talk. Realizing I could listen to her talk about anything, forever. 

"Oh, my belly" she sighs when she leans back in the booth and pats her stomach. 

"It's so full" she says and I smile as she rubs it and then looks at me. 

"i've got a food baby" she sighs. 

"yeah?" I laugh and she nods. 

"Do you want a baby?" she asks. 

"What?" I laugh. "A food baby?" 

she shakes her head. 

"no a real one" she says. 

My brows lift. "I mean....do you?" 

"With you?" she asks. 

"Who the hell would you be having a baby with Charlotte?" I ask with a cock of my brow and she laughs and her eyelids look heavy as she smiles at me. She hums. 

"you're so hot, it's not even funny" she giggles, and then breaks into a hysterical laughter.

"Who ELSE would you be having a baby with?" I ask again, knowing she's drunk, and just messing around with her. 

"nobody!" she laughs. "Just you." she says as her laughter calms and she sighs. 

She sighs and then leans her head back against the top of the booth and turns her head back to me.

"I'm sorry we havent had sex yet." she says.

"Charlie Girl...don't apologize to me for that. That's not...that's never....there's no rush, there never has been, not with you. It's not important to me. Taking care of you is what matters to me. You know that." I say. 

She sighs. "But, you've waited so long, and -"

"No and...no nothing....i don't need sex Charlotte. I just need you. In my life. That's it. That's all. I promise." I say, meaning every fucking word. 

"So you DONT want to have sex with me?" She cocks a drunken brow at me. 

"That's NOT what I said. I just said it's not what's important to me." I say and she smiles with a little laugh.

"So you do?" she asks.

"Yes Charlie Girl. I do." I say. 

'I'm too drunk to have sex tonight." she says.

I shake my head. "Didnt plan on having sex with you tonight Charlotte, so you're good baby." I laugh. 

"What if I wasnt drunk? Would you?" she asks. I shake my head. 

"Why not? Cause my parents died?" She asks. 

I close my eyes. "Charlie." 

"It's okay....is that why? Cause you think i'm too sad?" she asks. 

"No, or maybe that's part of it....but because I promise, im only only concerned about taking care of you. Do I think about having sex with you? Yes. But i've thought about having sex with you every single day since I met you. So, that's nothing new for me." 

She gives me a dopey little drunk smile. 

"I'm sad, but you make me happy. There's a lot of sad in me, and it hurts. But, it hurts less than it would if you werent here. You've always made me so happy. and i ruined it, by being a big bitch." she says and I smile and shake my head. 

"You make me happy to Charlie Girl, so fuckin happy." I say and lean over, kissing her forehead. She sighs. 

"Love you baby" I say softly on her forehead. 

"Love you too" she sighs. 

"Kane?" she asks.

"yeah?" I answer with another kiss to her forehead and then pull back to look at her.

"thank you" she says softly.

"For what Charlie Girl?" I ask as I lift a hand and gently stroke her cheek. 

"Everything. For always being so good to me, and still loving me. For being kind to my parents even if they didnt deserve it after how they treated you when we were younger." She says and looks me in the eyes. 

"For helping them, and helping me." she says.

"all i did was be here baby, that's my job." I say. 

She shakes her head. 

"They told me what you did...with the money." she says and I freeze for a second.

"I'll pay you back." she says.

"no you will not." I say. 

She sighs. "my dad said not give you trouble about it." she rolls her eyes and I smile and then she looks back at me. 

"Then listen to what he said and don't give me trouble about it." I say with a soft smile. 

"I was mad at first." she says.

I smile. "I bet you were." 

"you didnt have to do that." 

"I absolutely did have to do that. Because you're my fucking girl Charlotte. Whether you like it or not, I'm always going to do all I fucking can for you." I say. 

"that's a lot of money" she says.

"money is money, i dont fucking care about money, I care about YOU." I tell her.

"stop being so perfect all the time" she groans and I laugh softly. 

"they were supposed to keep a secret" I say. 

she rolls her eyes. 

"My dad said he owed it to you, to make sure I didnt find out on my own and give you hell, and told me not to tell you i knew till.....after...they were gone." she sighs and lifts her hand to mine on her cheek.

"Can you kiss me, you havent kissed me all day." she says and I nod.

"I can kiss you." i say softly and then slide my hand to her jaw, tip her head back a little and then lower my mouth to hers and kiss her softly. Then brush my nose against hers and press my forehead to hers.

"Again please" she says softly. I smile and press another soft kiss to her mouth. 

"One more" she says and I laugh softly and I kiss her softly again, letting my mouth linger, her hand slides into my hair. 

"i love you" she speaks against my lips.

"so much" she adds and kisses my mouth. 

"I know i'm drunk....and you think i'm too sad...but can we make out all night when we leave?" she asks and I smile.

"sure Charlie Girl, i can do that." I say.

"promise?" she asks and I pull back a little and nod with a smile as I look at her. 

"I dont want to go to my house tonight." she says and I nod. 

"We can stay here, in the back." 

"I dont want to sleep where you had sex other women." she says and I wince, because it honestly hadn't crossed my mind.

"I'm sorry, we'll go somewhere else." I say and she nods.

"can i burn that mattress?" she asks and I smile. 

"sure" I say with a nod. "whatever you want baby"

"if you get a new mattress, you can make out with me on it..but not that one" she says.

"understood" I say with a nod and kiss her softly. 

"Can we go to a hotel?" she asks and I nod.

"sure baby, anywhere you want." 

"I'll pay" she says. 

"no you wont Charlie" I say and kiss her nose.

"i want to, please?" she asks and I smile.

"Will that make you happy?" i ask and she smiles and nods.

"yeah" she answers.

"alright then." I say. " Just this once, i'll let you pay." 

"Can we go now?" she asks and I laugh.

"Sure." I nod.

"im gonna kiss your face off." she says and I laugh and nod.

"sounds like fun baby." I say and kiss her forehead.