EroticReverie

Hadley Harper 

"We need to talk." Travis says when we're back in our suite. Yes, suite, one of the big fancy rooms, because apparently all of us in the "friends" group were given special suites. Theo COULD have been an ass and put me in one of the smaller rooms. But he didn't. Probably to rub my nose in the fact he could afford not just to give me a nice suite, but the fact he could afford to rent an entire fucking cruise ship just for his entire fucking graduating class. 

"Travis." I sigh. "Please. Drop it." I say, regretting bringing him along. 

"Why? It's obviously a big deal if you don't want to talk about it." He says.

"No." I say and turn to him, standing in my sleep shorts and an old t shirt. "It's NOT a big deal, which is exactly why I dont care to fucking make it one." I say getting snippy. But, who the fuck did this guy think he was? HE hadnt even calledme his girlfriend, or his at all until after he found out a rockstars cock had been inside of me thirteen years ago. 

"Was it good?" He asks. 

I roll my eyes. "Jesus christ." I say and shake my head. Because this man did not deserve to know a damn thing about my first time. I didn't want to explain how no, it wasnt good, but also was the best at the same time. Beacuse Theodore Thorne had made my first time so romantic. I was fifteen, he was sixteen, and it was both of our first times. He'd been so nervous, and I was too. We'd only been dating for three months, but we were horny fucking teenagers, and Theo was the hottest boy in the world to me. His parents were out of town one weekend, so he invited me over and we had dinner, where he had used his mothers expensive candlesticks and had the candles lit. Looking back now, I cant help but think of fucking cute it was. How perfect it was. Him serving me slices of pizza from a box at a table covered in candles. We'd watched a movie, then another, and made it halfway through the movie before we were dry humping eachers virgin brains out on the couch. 

He must have asked me at least two dozen times if I was sure I wanted to go all the way. I remember him going down on me for the first time, and how id been so nervous that I couldnt truly enjoy it. Then i'd went down on him, and from the sounds he'd made you'd have thought I was a professional, but looking back now, I clearly was not.  Theo came on my breasts, and then within ten minutes, he was rolling on a condom and getting ontop of me, asking me a few times more if I was sure. I'd nodded, he'd kissed me, and we had sex. For probably a total of a minute and a half. So was it great ? No. But as far as first times go, I dont think I couldve asked for someone better than Theo to share it with. He'd been so gentle, taken his time , for both our sakes, and when he actually started to thrust in and out, a few pumps later it was all over. He'd apologized for being so quick to cum, and I'd just kissed him and told him it was okay. Because it was. Because I didn't care about how long he lasted, just that we were in love.  Or so I thought. 

"Well was it?" Travis huffs. 

"I was fifteen years old, and he was sixteen, and it was our first time, what do YOU think Travis?" I ask.

"fuck, you lost your VIRGINITY to him? He lost HIS to YOU?" He asks, getting his male ego stomped all over some more.

"Oh my god, will you relax." I shake my head and turn around. 

"How long did you two date? Do you still hook up?" He asks and I lift my hand to face and pinch the bridge of my nose.

"We dated for three months. And no. I do not hook up with him, and havent since we broke up THIRTEEN years ago." I say and turn back around. 

"Any other stupid fucking questions?" I ask. 

his lips tighten and he huffs.

"Yeah i got plenty." He asks. 

"Great. Fucking keep em to yourself. Because were done talking about Theodore fucking Thorne. Get over it." I say and then walk to the side of the room and pull on a pair of pajama pants over my sleep shorts and then a hoodie over my shirt, then slide on a pair of slippers.

I grab my phone and head to the door of the room.

"Where are you going?" He asks. 

"To get some fresh air." I say. 

"We've got a balcony!" He argues. 

"fine. I want to get away from you, that better?" I ask and slam the door behind me. 

I pass other people as I make my way through the ship and up to the main deck and the bar that's still open. 

"Sorry, last call for drinks was twenty minutes ago, we're all closed up Ma'am" the younger male bartender says with an apologetic look and I groan and drop my head to the bar with a thunk. 

"noooo" I whine quietly to myself. I needed a god damn drink. 

"It's alright. Get her a drink for me, will you please?" a voice sounds from right behind me and then I groan again. 

"Right away Mister Thorne." the guys says and then asks me what I want. 

I lift my head and look at Theo as he slides onto a barstool beside me with a smirk on his face and then tilts his head to the bartender.

"Tell the man what you want , gorgeous." He says and I narrow my eyes at him.

"Don't fucking start with me Theo-DORE" I hiss at him. He just smirks at me and then looks to the bartnder. 

"Give us some Tequila, it makes her horny." He says and my jaw drops.

"Uh, yes sir." the baretender says.

"Tequila does NOT make me fucking horny." I hiss. 

"No? So prom night, that was just ME making you horny?" He winks at me. 

"fuck off." I roll my eyes. 

Okay, so I lied to Travis. I slept with Theo after we broke up. A few times here and there over the remaining years of highschool, the last one being our senior prom. Where we'd both left our dates somewhere in the middle of the party at someones house, and me, drunk on tequila, went upstairs to a room with Theo and let the boy I once loved and then hated, fuck me stupid , and much longer than a minute and half.  "We're so fucking hot together" I remember him saying looking down at my pussy, watching his dick slide in and out of me. 

"I love how pink your pussy is, how pink your nipples are, how pink your mouth is" He'd said while fucking me. Then i'd realized why he'd taken to calling me Pinky for the past three years of highschool after our breakup. 

"Leave the bottle." Theo says to the bartender and the guys nods, setting down the bottle after pouring two shots.

"Cheers." Theo says as he lifts one of the shot glasses.

"Drink up." He nods to mine still on the counter.

I pick it up. "I'm not fucking you Theodore." I say as I look at him and he smiles. 

"You sure babe?" He asks and I roll my eyes. 

"God, you're fucking stupid." I say and he laughs, clinks his glass to mine and we both throw the shots back. 

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An hour later, we're sitting in the pool area, laying on loungers and getting drunk, verbally sparring and talking shit to one another. 

"So, how long have you and my biggest fan been together?" He asks and I roll my eyes and scoff. But also want to laugh, because I know he's picking on Travis, for fanning over him the way he did as a grown fucking man. 

"none of your business theoDORE" I say and sit up and grab the bottle and lift it, taking another shot. I'm tipsy, not drunk, but yep. He's right. Tequila makes me fucking horny, because one more shot and I might just climb ontop of him and revisit the past by dry humping his lap. 

"Cmon Pinky" he says and I glower at him as he laughs. 

"Dont call me that." I say.

"Why not? Your pretty pussy isnt pink anymore?" he asks with a frown.

"Yes my fucking pussy is still pink you fuck" I say and he laughs as I growl and take another sip of the tequila. 

"Show me. Prove it." He says and grabs the bottle and takes another sip too. 

"You fucking wish Theodore." I say and he nods.

"Sure do." He says and I shake my head. 

"Not even when I'm drunk, would I make that fucking mistake again." I say and sit back. 

"God, I miss your bitchy mouth." He says and I shoot back up and glare at him.

"fuck you Theo. Im a bitch to YOU, because YOU deserve it. Because you're a lying, cheating fucking asshole." I hiss. 

"Hadley, I-" he says and I stand and push up, a little wobbly from the alcohol.

"No. You NEVER fucking even said you were sorry!" I say as tears form in my eyes. 

"You made fall in love with you! Made me give you my fucking virginity and then you went a slept with someone else! A WEEK LATER. A fucking WEEK Theo! then you went and fucking DATED her!" I say, because yeah, I was still fucking angry, still hurt, even thirteen years later, even though it was a silly little teenage relationship.

"Hadley" he says gently and stands and I shake my head. 

"No dont fucking touch me, this is what you always fucking did, put your fucking hands on me, then make me sleep with you, and id be alone again in the fucking morning, and you'd go on dating other girls and fucking them. Only coming after me when you saw me getting over you" I cry and he grabs me and pulls me in and wraps his arms around me. 

"Im so fucking sorry Hadley." He says and I cry, hearing the words from him for the first time. 

"I'm so fucking sorry baby" He whispers into my hair. 

"dont call me that" I cry into his chest as he strokes my hair. 

"you're always gonna be my baby" he whispers and kisses the top of my head. 

"go Mariah Carey some other pathetic fucking woman" I say and shove away from him and swipe my hands over my cheeks as I realize Im letting him do it again, even ten years later. 

"Hadley, I was stupid. And young. And...you didnt deserve what I did to you...Im sorry, and Im sorry that I never said it, it's no excuse, but im...im really fucking sorry Hadley, I swear, I'm so fucking sorry for doing that to you." He says and I sniffle and wipe my cheeks.

"Doesnt matter, it was thirteen years ago. I dont even care." I say and he steps forward and pulls me back in as I keep crying. 

"I wish i had a better excuse for I acted, other than being a teenage asshole, but , that's really all I fucking have as my excuse. I'm sorry Hadley, and i'm sorry it took me thirteen years to give the apology you deserved." He says and I shake my head and my arms stupidly wrap around him. 

"You ripped my fucking heart out of my fucking chest, you fucking fuck." I cry.

"I know I did. I'm sorry." he says. 

"and you...you came around, you purposely made sure i couldnt get over you, you'd sweet talk me, and get me to have sex with you, and make me....make think you wanted me." 

"I always wanted you. That never changed. God, I still do" he says and I step back and shake my head. 

"I'm twenty seven now Theo, hardly young enough to believe that bullshit." I say. 

"You still think im fucking stupid." I say and he shakes his head.

"no, ive never thought you were stupid. And i DO still want you Hadley." 

"god, you're fucking ...you're a fucking asshole....you had thirteen fucking years to tell me you were sorry, thirteen years to show me you WANT me...and you expect me to believe that you WANT me, after ten years of not saying a fucking word to me?" I raise my voice.

"You hated me Hadley." 

"And i still fucking do." I shove him. But he grabs me and pulls me and then is grabbing my face and Im pulling back, but he crashes his mouth to mine. 

"no you fucking dont" he groans and then kisses me again, because i havent fucking moved, im not kissing him back, not yet anyways. 

"kiss me back, gorgeous" he groans. "kiss me the fuck back Hadley" he says, kissing on my lips and my stupid, slightly drunk ass is grabbing his sides as I let him move and tilt my head, my mouth moving now, pushing back, our lips parting and I whimper into his kiss. 

"I think about you all the fuckin time Hadley, you were the one that got away, and it's my fucking fault, but im gonna get you back baby" he says and I whimper. Because Theodore Thorne is the only boy, guy, or man that I've ever let myself fall in love with. After the number he did on me, I swore i'd never fucking give my heart to anyone else. 

through my drunkeness, I come to my senses and push away, shaking my head, taking my mouth from his and leaving him standing there as I step back. 

"No...fuck you. Fuck you, Im not letting you play with me again." 

"I dont want to play with you Hadley." he says.

"Ten fucking years Theo. You had ten fucking years." 

"I know."he says and sighs and shakes his head. 

"I didnt think you'd want to hear from me. And, when I realized what a fucking piece of shit I was, I didnt want to bother you, or interrupt your life or disrupt it, you know?" 

"no, i fucking dont know, because im not a selfish asshole like you." I say and then grab the bottle of tequila.

"I didnt even think you cared that much , so I -" 

"Oh fuck right off!" I yell at him. "Dont make me throw this bottle at your fucking head! Not that it would do any fucking damage, because your skull must be thick as fuck Theo!" I yell at him. 

"Get out of my fucking face. I hate you. Take your thirteen year old apology and shove it up your fucking rich asshole, you ass wipe!" I yell at him. 

"God! I cant believe i let you fucking kiss me! AGAIN! Im still a fucking pathetic idiot! Falling for it AGAIN!" I yell and he lets me go as I walk away yelling nonsense about what a fucking idiot I am, as I walk back to my room. 

As I do, I see a girl wearing the khaki shorts and white t shirt uniform leaving my suite with her hair dishelveled and a shirtless Travis smirking at her. I roll my eyes. What a fucking tool. 

He sees me and his eyes bulge. Oh please. He wanted to get caught. Technically were not even fucking together, and I have zero feelings invested in him. Call it the fucking Theodore  Thorne effect, that has made me incapable of investing myself into anyone after the way he fucking hurt me. 

The girl blinks and looks back and forth between us. Her eyes widening. 

"Please." I mutter and roll my eyes and keep walking to the room and the girl apologizes, clearly seeing were "together". 

"I'm so sorry" she says "He said he wasnt with anyone" she panics. 

"You're sorry? I'm sorry? Did he manage to find YOUR clit, cause he sure as shit doesnt know where MINE is." I say and Travis slams the door as I shove past him and he slams it right in the poor girls face.

"What the hell HADLEY?!" He yells.

"You're gonna yell at ME? You're the one screwing a random boat bitch in MY fucking suite. Get out." I grumble and then walk to the bed and lay back, bottle of tequila still clutched in my hand. 

"It's OUR suite." He says and I roll my eyes at the stupidity of this man. 

"Get out Travis, go sleep with your boat lady." I say and then roll over, spilling a little of tequila and crawling the rest of the way into bed.

"You were with him werent you?" He asks, storming over to the bed.

"i said get out, i dont want you in here." I say and then plop my head on the pillow as I flop onto my stomach and sprawl out. 

"You were with him, werent you?" He says. 

"yup" I say. my eyes growing heavy. The tequila all hitting me faster now. 

"You're a fucking slut Hadley" he says, and I just laugh into my pillow. 

"That's all your fucking good for. You're a fucking god damn slut." He says and I just keep laughing to myself. 

"AND I KNOW WHERE YOURE FUCKING CLIT IS!" He yells and I cackle into my pillow. There it is, the real reason he's going off the rails. Me insulting his skills, and lack thereof. 

"you wouldnt know where it is if a grew a fucking fist and punched you in the face, get the fuck out of my suite before i call security." 

"IM NOT LEAVING!" He yells and just then the door to the suite busts open. 

"OH GREAT! JUST GREAT!" Travis yells as I lift my head and see Theo's big ass towering in the doorway. I laugh, and drop my head back down.

Theo gives some fucking speech about how Travis better leave this room right now unless he wanted to spend the rest of the trip in jail. I laugh, forgetting cruise jails DO exist. I snort. Thinking about whether they put them in little jail jumpers with the cruise logo on it, or if they get to wear their own clothes. 

A few minutes go by and I'm nearly passed out as I feel the bed shift.

"get out of my fucking bed" I mumble.

"you gonna throw up?" he asks, Theo starts sliding a hand over my hair. 

"only if i have to fucking listen to you keep speaking, get out" I mutter. 

"I wont speak then." he says and then I feel him slip down and lay on his side and keep stroking my hair. 

"i hope you trip and fall off the side of this boat" I mutter.

"Would you throw me a lifejacket?" he asks and I lift my head, it feels so fucking heavy , I turn it, laying my other cheek on the pillow. 

"yeah, and it'd be made of fucking lead, so you sink to the bottom of the ocean." I say and he smiles softly.

"i'd deserve it." he says. 

"shut up, you're the worst and i hate you" I mumble.

I think i mumble a few other death threats before I fall asleep with Theo Thorne petting my hair.